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\u00de\u00f3rd\u00eds \u00de\u00fafa Bj\u00f6rnsd\u00f3ttir<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
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\u00deetta var \u00e1 annan \u00ed hv\u00edtasunnu 2018. \u00de\u00e1 var r\u00e1\u00f0ist \u00e1 mig inni \u00ed rj\u00f3\u00f0ri \u00e1 Klambrat\u00fani og reynt a\u00f0 nau\u00f0ga m\u00e9r. Sext\u00e1n m\u00e1na\u00f0a d\u00f3ttir m\u00edn sat vakandi upp vi\u00f0 dogg \u00ed barnavagni og horf\u00f0i \u00e1, emjandi. \u00deetta ger\u00f0ist \u00e1 annars hversdagslegu m\u00e1nudagskv\u00f6ldi og m\u00e9r hefur li\u00f0i\u00f0 fur\u00f0ulega s\u00ed\u00f0an. E\u00f0a reyndar var \u00feetta \u00fe\u00f3 nokkru eftir mi\u00f0n\u00e6tti, svo \u00ed raun a\u00f0faran\u00f3tt \u00feri\u00f0judagsins.
\u2001M\u00e9r fannst \u00e9g hafa gert mitt allra besta til a\u00f0 eiga \u00e1hyggjulaust og \u00e1n\u00e6gjulegt l\u00edf. \u00c9g taldi mig hafa unni\u00f0 \u00far \u00f6llum fort\u00ed\u00f0armeinum, losa\u00f0 mig vi\u00f0 allt \u00farelt og komi\u00f0 jafnv\u00e6gi \u00e1 \u00f6ll samskipti. \u00c9g haf\u00f0i aldrei vanda\u00f0 mig eins miki\u00f0 \u00ed daglegu l\u00edfi og undanfarna m\u00e1nu\u00f0i, og sk\u00f6mmu eftir \u00e1ram\u00f3tin 2018 fannst m\u00e9r \u00e9g hafa skapa\u00f0 m\u00e9r n\u00fdtt l\u00edf, eiginlega kl\u00e1ra\u00f0 eina \u00e6vi og byrja\u00f0 a\u00f0ra. Ekkert var eftir \u00f3uppgert a\u00f0 m\u00ednu viti og m\u00e9r lei\u00f0 yndislega, allt var svo hreint. \u00c9g var b\u00fain a\u00f0 skrifa \u00feri\u00f0jung af sk\u00e1lds\u00f6gu, l\u00edkaminn haf\u00f0i n\u00e1\u00f0 s\u00e9r eftir \u00e1takamikla barnsf\u00e6\u00f0ingu, \u00e9g var b\u00fain a\u00f0 f\u00ednp\u00fassa n\u00e1lgun m\u00edna \u00e1 fort\u00ed\u00f0ina og f\u00f3lk og \u00e1tti n\u00faor\u00f0i\u00f0 d\u00e1samlegt hversdagsl\u00edf. Hvers kyns drama haf\u00f0i sm\u00e1m saman fjara\u00f0 \u00fat og \u00e9g var allajafna \u00ed g\u00f3\u00f0u skapi. Allir \u00e1stvinir m\u00ednir birtust m\u00e9r sem gefandi og fri\u00f0s\u00e6lt f\u00f3lk og \u00e9g lenti aldrei upp \u00e1 kant vi\u00f0 neinn, ekki lengur.
\u2001S\u00ed\u00f0an var \u00feessu d\u00fandra\u00f0 inn! \u00c1r\u00e1s. M\u00e9r hefur sennilega aldrei nokkurn t\u00edma brug\u00f0i\u00f0 jafn miki\u00f0. Og \u00e9g held a\u00f0 m\u00e9r hafi brug\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00feeim mun meira, einmitt vegna \u00feess hva\u00f0 l\u00edf mitt var or\u00f0i\u00f0 dramalaust. \u00c9g haf\u00f0i veri\u00f0 \u00ed undirliggjandi vi\u00f0brag\u00f0sst\u00f6\u00f0u megni\u00f0 af \u00e6vinni, en undanfarna m\u00e1nu\u00f0i haf\u00f0i \u00e9g veri\u00f0 viss um a\u00f0 ekkert g\u00e6ti ska\u00f0a\u00f0 mig e\u00f0a valdi\u00f0 m\u00e9r vanl\u00ed\u00f0an \u2013 \u00e9g upplifa\u00f0i mig \u00f6rugga \u00f6llum stundum.
\u2001Gegnum hreinsunarferli s\u00ed\u00f0ustu \u00e1ra haf\u00f0i \u00e9g gert allt sem \u00ed m\u00ednu valdi st\u00f3\u00f0 til a\u00f0 l\u00e9tta \u00e1, b\u00e6\u00f0i andlega og efnislega. Hvert sem r\u00e9tta skrefi\u00f0 var og hversu miki\u00f0 sem \u00fea\u00f0 reyndi \u00e1 hugrekki\u00f0, \u00fe\u00e1 steig \u00e9g \u00fea\u00f0 undantekningalaust. \u00c9g l\u00e9t ekkert \u00f3gert sem \u00e9g tr\u00fa\u00f0i a\u00f0 v\u00e6ri fars\u00e6lt og r\u00e9tt, jafnvel \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00e9g skildi stundum engan veginn hvernig \u00fea\u00f0 g\u00e6ti gagnast m\u00e9r e\u00f0a \u00f6\u00f0rum. \u00c9g haf\u00f0i gefi\u00f0 hluti sem m\u00e9r \u00fe\u00f3tti innilega v\u00e6nt um, losa\u00f0 mig vi\u00f0 smekklegar og \u00fe\u00e6gilegar fl\u00edkur, og \u00e9g haf\u00f0i l\u00edka hent lj\u00f3\u00f0um og s\u00f6gum, allt vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g tr\u00fa\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri fars\u00e6last.
\u2001Hvers vegna tr\u00fa\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00fev\u00ed? Vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 hin helga r\u00f6dd sag\u00f0i m\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0, h\u00fan barst m\u00e9r eins og hl\u00fd gola. Hjarta mitt fann strax ylinn og m\u00e9r var fyrirmuna\u00f0 a\u00f0 hunsa \u00feessa r\u00f6dd sem \u00e9g kalla\u00f0i Mar\u00edur\u00f6ddina, enda haf\u00f0i reynslan sannf\u00e6rt mig um a\u00f0 h\u00fan v\u00e6ri heil og traust.
\u2001\u00c9g haf\u00f0i stigi\u00f0 \u00fdmis skref samkv\u00e6mt lei\u00f0s\u00f6gn raddarinnar \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 guggna \u00ed eitt einasta skipti. \u00c9g haf\u00f0i f\u00f3rna\u00f0 m\u00f6rgu en l\u00edka gert fur\u00f0ulega hluti eins og a\u00f0 senda tveimur \u00fatgefendum f\u00e1r\u00e1nlegt s\u00f6guhandrit sem \u00feeir h\u00f6fnu\u00f0u au\u00f0vita\u00f0 b\u00e1\u00f0ir, senda fjarl\u00e6gum kunningja skeyti \u00e1 bullum\u00e1li \u00e1samt or\u00f0sk\u00fdringum, og b\u00faa til papp\u00edrsfugla \u00far bla\u00f0s\u00ed\u00f0um M\u00f3seb\u00f3kar og hengja upp \u00ed trj\u00e1greinar v\u00ed\u00f0svegar um b\u00e6inn, svo f\u00e1tt eitt s\u00e9 nefnt. A\u00f0 auki sno\u00f0a\u00f0i \u00e9g mig og f\u00e9kk m\u00e9r ellefu h\u00fa\u00f0fl\u00far h\u00e9r og \u00fear um l\u00edkamann, allt samkv\u00e6mt lei\u00f0s\u00f6gninni, \u00e9g sem haf\u00f0i annars aldrei haft minnsta \u00e1huga \u00e1 tatt\u00faum.
\u2001M\u00f6rg skrefin voru \u00e1takanleg \u00ed framkv\u00e6md. En alltaf lenti \u00e9g me\u00f0 b\u00e1\u00f0a f\u00e6tur \u00e1 j\u00f6r\u00f0inni, s\u00edfellt \u00e1ttv\u00edsari og \u00e6\u00f0rulausari gagnvart \u00e1liti annarra \u00e1 m\u00e9r. Og vi\u00f0 lok hvers ferlis upplif\u00f0i \u00e9g alltaf \u00feakkl\u00e6ti og auki\u00f0 traust, gagnvart Mar\u00edur\u00f6ddinni og l\u00edfinu almennt.
\u2001Sm\u00e1m saman dr\u00f3 \u00far \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 r\u00f6ddin beindi m\u00e9r a\u00f0 umturnandi e\u00f0a vandr\u00e6\u00f0alegum a\u00f0ger\u00f0um, hamagangurinn sjatna\u00f0i og l\u00edfi\u00f0 var\u00f0 leikandi lj\u00faft, ekkert vesen.
\u2001\u00c9g safna\u00f0i h\u00e1rinu aftur ni\u00f0ur fyrir axlir, kynntist Finni k\u00e6rastanum m\u00ednum og var\u00f0 br\u00e1tt barnshafandi.
\u2001Eftir f\u00e6\u00f0ingu Veru var \u00e9g nokkra m\u00e1nu\u00f0i a\u00f0 n\u00e1 m\u00e9r l\u00edkamlega. \u00dea\u00f0 hrikti \u00ed \u00f6llum li\u00f0um \u00feegar \u00e9g f\u00f3r fram \u00far \u00e1 morgnana og skru\u00f0ningarnir h\u00e6ttu ekki fyrr en um vori\u00f0, fj\u00f3rum m\u00e1nu\u00f0um s\u00ed\u00f0ar, en \u00fe\u00e1 var \u00e9g einmitt l\u00edka komin ni\u00f0ur \u00ed m\u00edna e\u00f0lilegu l\u00edkams\u00feyngd og maginn or\u00f0inn sl\u00e9ttur. \u00dea\u00f0 var \u00fev\u00edl\u00edkur l\u00e9ttir \u00feegar \u00e9g gat loksins gert teygju\u00e6fingar \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 baki\u00f0 stoppa\u00f0i mig af me\u00f0 n\u00edstandi s\u00e1rsaukasting, og \u00e9g kom m\u00e9r upp heilbrig\u00f0u l\u00edfsmynstri, bor\u00f0a\u00f0i hollt og ger\u00f0i \u00e6fingar daglega. \u00c9g settist vi\u00f0 eldh\u00fasbor\u00f0i\u00f0 me\u00f0an Vera svaf \u00ed v\u00f6ggunni sinni yfir daginn og t\u00f3k a\u00f0 hripa ni\u00f0ur lj\u00f3\u00f0l\u00ednur og m\u00e1lsgreinar, var ekki viss um hvort \u00e9g vildi skrifa lj\u00f3\u00f0 e\u00f0a s\u00f6gu. Svo endu\u00f0u \u00feessar vangaveltur me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g henti \u00f6llu \u00ed rusli\u00f0 r\u00e9tt fyrir j\u00f3lin 2017.
\u2001J\u00fa annars, \u00e9g vildi segja s\u00f6gu, innbl\u00e1sna af m\u00ednu eigin l\u00edfi, og leyfa henni a\u00f0 m\u00f3tast jafn\u00f3\u00f0um \u00e1n nokkurrar \u00e1\u00e6tlunar.
\u2001Skyndilega var eins og skr\u00fafa\u00f0ist fr\u00e1 krana og textinn streymdi vi\u00f0n\u00e1mslaust ni\u00f0ur \u00e1 papp\u00edrinn. Tilfinningin var himnesk! N\u00fa var \u00e9g byrju\u00f0 upp \u00e1 n\u00fdtt, \u00ed n\u00fdja l\u00edfinu, byrju\u00f0 \u00e1 n\u00fdjum rith\u00f6fundarferli. Jess!
\u2001\u00c9g haf\u00f0i s\u00ed\u00f0ast sent fr\u00e1 m\u00e9r sk\u00e1ldverk \u00e1ri\u00f0 2009 og \u00ed millit\u00ed\u00f0inni fannst m\u00e9r \u00e9g hafa endurf\u00e6\u00f0st andlega, \u00f6\u00f0last n\u00fdja s\u00fdn \u00e1 heiminn og l\u00edfi\u00f0, og m\u00e9r fannst \u00e9g hreinlega or\u00f0in miklu g\u00e1fa\u00f0ri. Drungi og \u00feunglyndisr\u00f3mant\u00edk h\u00f6f\u00f0u\u00f0u ekki lengur til m\u00edn sem efnivi\u00f0ur, n\u00e9 heldur s\u00farrealismi og \u00f3hugna\u00f0ur. N\u00fana vildi \u00e9g skrifa um hjartahl\u00fdju, gu\u00f0d\u00f3minn og fegur\u00f0ina. Og mig langa\u00f0i a\u00f0 l\u00e6ra meira um l\u00edfi\u00f0 og sj\u00e1lfa mig gegnum skrifin, leyfa sk\u00e1ldskapnum a\u00f0 \u00feroska mig.
\u2001Fl\u00e6\u00f0i\u00f0 h\u00e9lst st\u00f6\u00f0ugt fram \u00ed lok mars. \u00c9g gat skrifa\u00f0 hven\u00e6r sem var, komst aldrei \u00ed \u00ferot og var loks b\u00fain me\u00f0 marga kafla sem virtust mynda fyrsta hluta af \u00feremur. \u00c9g var spennt fyrir framhaldinu en n\u00fa komst \u00e9g ekki lengra, skr\u00fafast haf\u00f0i fyrir streymi\u00f0 \u00ed bili. \u00c9g \u00e1kva\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 sl\u00e1 textann inn \u00ed t\u00f6lvu og senda \u00fea\u00f0 sem komi\u00f0 var til \u00fatgefanda. \u00c9g \u00e6tla\u00f0i a\u00f0 setja textann fallega upp, prenta skjali\u00f0 \u00fat og binda \u00fea\u00f0 saman me\u00f0 gr\u00f6nnu sn\u00e6ri. Og svo \u00e6tla\u00f0i \u00e9g a\u00f0 senda \u00fea\u00f0 p\u00f3stlei\u00f0is me\u00f0 stuttri handskrifa\u00f0ri or\u00f0sendingu.
\u2001\u00c9g var \u00ed nokkrar vikur a\u00f0 pikka inn og nostra vi\u00f0 textann \u00fear til \u00e9g var or\u00f0in s\u00e1tt. \u00de\u00e1 ger\u00f0i \u00e9g sendinguna kl\u00e1ra a\u00f0 mestu og \u00e1kva\u00f0 a\u00f0 p\u00f3stleggja hana nokkrum d\u00f6gum s\u00ed\u00f0ar, strax eftir hv\u00edtasunnuhelgina, \u00feri\u00f0judaginn 22. ma\u00ed.
\u2001Kv\u00f6ldi\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0ur l\u00e1 umslagi\u00f0 tilb\u00fai\u00f0 \u00e1 altarinu m\u00ednu innan um fj\u00f6lmarga steina og kristala. \u00c9g haf\u00f0i veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 dunda m\u00e9r me\u00f0 Veru, full tilhl\u00f6kkunar yfir morgundeginum, \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00e9g kvi\u00f0i l\u00edka fyrir bi\u00f0st\u00f6\u00f0unni sem \u00fe\u00e1 t\u00e6ki vi\u00f0 \u00fear til svar b\u00e6rist fr\u00e1 \u00fatgefandanum. \u00c9g gj\u00f3a\u00f0i augunum \u00ed s\u00edfellu \u00e1 umslagi\u00f0, sem \u00e9g haf\u00f0i l\u00edmt aftur til a\u00f0 for\u00f0a m\u00e9r fr\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 lesa textann enn einu sinni og finna \u00e1sl\u00e1ttarvillu.
\u2001\u00c1 endanum kl\u00e6ddi \u00e9g Veru \u00ed \u00fatigalla og lambh\u00fashettu, smeyg\u00f0i m\u00e9r \u00ed sk\u00f3 og f\u00f3r \u00ed vetrar\u00falpuna utan yfir n\u00e1ttkj\u00f3linn. \u00c9g s\u00f3pa\u00f0i saman \u00f6llum steinunum og krist\u00f6lunum af altarinu og fyllti \u00falpuvasana, en \u00feeim st\u00e6rsta kom \u00e9g fyrir \u00ed vagninum vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0ina \u00e1 kerrupokanum. S\u00ed\u00f0an bj\u00f3 \u00e9g vandlega um Veru og h\u00e9lt af sta\u00f0 \u00fat.
\u2001Ve\u00f0ri\u00f0 var milt og \u00e9g t\u00f3k stefnuna \u00e1 Klambrat\u00fan sem var \u00ed um einnar m\u00edn\u00fatu g\u00f6nguf\u00e6ri fr\u00e1 heimili okkar \u00ed Nor\u00f0urm\u00fdrinni, en \u00fear \u00e6tla\u00f0i \u00e9g a\u00f0 koma steinunum og krist\u00f6lunum fyrir \u00e1 g\u00f3\u00f0um sta\u00f0 til a\u00f0 marka m\u00e9r n\u00fdtt upphaf.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00c9g hringdi \u00ed Finn um lei\u00f0 og \u00e9g var komin berf\u00e6tt inn \u00far dyrunum. Sk\u00f3rnir m\u00ednir, gammos\u00edurnar og n\u00e6rbuxurnar voru \u00ed ku\u00f0li \u00ed vagngrindinni, allt moldugt og \u00f3ge\u00f0slegt. Hann svara\u00f0i strax og var kominn til okkar eftir skamma stund \u2013 vi\u00f0 b\u00faum nefnilega ekki saman, lifum utan vi\u00f0 normi\u00f0. \u00cd millit\u00ed\u00f0inni \u00e6ddi \u00e9g um g\u00f3lfi\u00f0 me\u00f0 Veru \u00fe\u00e9tt upp a\u00f0 brj\u00f3stinu, fram og til baka, fram og til baka. \u00c9g anda\u00f0i margfalt \u00f6rar en venjulega og endurt\u00f3k \u00ed s\u00edfellu: \u201eGu\u00f0 minn g\u00f3\u00f0ur. Gu\u00f0 minn g\u00f3\u00f0ur.\u201c \u00c9g haf\u00f0i aldrei upplifa\u00f0 sl\u00edkan \u00f3tta \u2013 \u00f3tta vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 barni\u00f0 mitt yr\u00f0i meitt. En hann haf\u00f0i alveg l\u00e1ti\u00f0 hana \u00ed fri\u00f0i, h\u00fan var heil \u00e1 h\u00fafi. \u201eGu\u00f0 minn g\u00f3\u00f0ur. Gu\u00f0 minn g\u00f3\u00f0ur.\u201c
\u2001Finnur stir\u00f0na\u00f0i upp vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 okkur en t\u00f3k s\u00ed\u00f0an umsvifalaust til vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 hl\u00faa a\u00f0 okkur af yfirvegun og \u00f6ryggi. Hann er einn af \u00feeim sem panikkar aldrei, heldur ver\u00f0ur ofurr\u00f3legur \u00e1 yfirbor\u00f0inu \u00ed mi\u00f0ju uppn\u00e1mi, st\u00f3r og st\u00f6\u00f0ugur.
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g vil enga l\u00f6ggu,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g strax \u00e1kve\u00f0in. \u201e\u00c9g get ekki hugsa\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0.\u201c
\u2001\u201eEkkert m\u00e1l, vi\u00f0 \u00feurfum enga l\u00f6ggu,\u201c sag\u00f0i hann r\u00f3legur.
\u2001\u00c9g henti gammos\u00edunum og n\u00e6rbuxunum \u00ed bala inni \u00ed sturtuklefa, hellti s\u00e1pulegi yfir og buna\u00f0i \u00far sturtuhausnum \u00e1 h\u00e6sta hita. S\u00ed\u00f0an setti \u00e9g balann \u00fat \u00e1 mitt g\u00f3lf.
\u2001\u00c9g rauk fram og \u00fereif \u00falpuna m\u00edna upp af g\u00f3lfinu.
\u2001\u201eEins gott a\u00f0 hann hafi ekki rifi\u00f0 \u00falpuna m\u00edna, helv\u00edtis dj\u00f6full.\u201c
\u2001\u00c9g grandsko\u00f0a\u00f0i rennil\u00e1sinn, t\u00f6lurnar og hnappag\u00f6tin.
\u2001\u201eHj\u00fakk!\u201c andvarpa\u00f0i \u00e9g hvasst. \u201e\u00c9g hef\u00f0i alveg brj\u00e1last. \u00deetta er svo g\u00f3\u00f0 \u00falpa.\u201c
\u2001Finnur horf\u00f0i \u00e1 mig hl\u00fdjum en brostnum augum.
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g ver\u00f0 a\u00f0 fara \u00ed sturtu,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g. \u201eM\u00e9r l\u00ed\u00f0ur vi\u00f0bj\u00f3\u00f0slega. Helv\u00edtis s\u00f3\u00f0inn, sj\u00e1\u00f0u bara hva\u00f0 hann ger\u00f0i, hann ey\u00f0ilag\u00f0i n\u00e1ttkj\u00f3linn minn. Og \u00e9g \u00e1 engan annan og n\u00fa \u00fearf \u00e9g a\u00f0 henda honum. Hann reif hann bara allt \u00ed einu. \u00c9g meina \u2026 til hvers? Hann ger\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 bara allt \u00ed einu. Til a\u00f0 vera \u00f3gnvekjandi, ha? \u00c9g \u00feoli ekki svona!\u201c
\u2001\u201eDr\u00edf\u00f0u \u00feig endilega \u00ed sturtu, \u00e9g ver\u00f0 inni \u00ed r\u00fami me\u00f0 Veru.\u201c
\u2001Vera var a\u00f0 lognast \u00fat af me\u00f0 h\u00f6fu\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00f6xl Finns og hann kyssti mig bl\u00ed\u00f0lega \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g f\u00f3r inn \u00e1 ba\u00f0herbergi\u00f0.
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g meina \u2026 WHAT THE FUCK<\/em>,\u201c \u00feruma\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00ed g\u00e6ttinni \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g loka\u00f0i dyrunum.
\u2001\u00dea\u00f0 var d\u00e1samlega hreinsandi a\u00f0 standa undir heitri sturtunni og \u00e9g n\u00e1\u00f0i loksins a\u00f0 h\u00e6gja \u00e1 andardr\u00e6ttinum. \u00c9g s\u00e1pa\u00f0i mig vel og vandlega og \u00e6tla\u00f0i varla a\u00f0 f\u00e1 mig til a\u00f0 skr\u00fafa fyrir.
\u2001En a\u00f0 endingu steig \u00e9g \u00fat \u00far sturtuklefanum, \u00feurrka\u00f0i m\u00e9r og kl\u00e6ddi mig \u00ed \u00feunnan bl\u00e1an kj\u00f3l me\u00f0 bl\u00f3mamynstri sem \u00e9g haf\u00f0i teki\u00f0 me\u00f0 m\u00e9r inn \u00e1 ba\u00f0herbergi\u00f0. \u00c9g v\u00f6\u00f0la\u00f0i rifna n\u00e1ttkj\u00f3lnum saman, f\u00f3r me\u00f0 hann inn \u00ed eldh\u00fas og kasta\u00f0i honum \u00ed rusli\u00f0 undir vaskinum. Gott, n\u00fa lei\u00f0 m\u00e9r betur. Allt a\u00f0 hreinsast.
\u2001\u00c9g lag\u00f0ist upp \u00ed r\u00fam vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0 Finns. Vera l\u00e1 sofandi upp vi\u00f0 vegginn hinum megin vi\u00f0 hann. M\u00e9r l\u00e9tti vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 h\u00fan v\u00e6ri sofnu\u00f0.
\u2001Hann sneri s\u00e9r a\u00f0 m\u00e9r og lag\u00f0i arminn yfir mig \u00fear sem \u00e9g l\u00e1 \u00e1 bakinu og star\u00f0i upp \u00ed lofti\u00f0.
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g bara skil \u00feetta ekki,\u201c muldra\u00f0i \u00e9g opineyg og skj\u00e1lfandi. \u201e\u00c9g meina \u2026 af hverju?\u201c Af hverju n\u00fana? Og af hverju aftur<\/em>? \u00dea\u00f0 er alveg \u00fat \u00ed h\u00f6tt. \u00deetta er meira a\u00f0 segja \u00e1 svipu\u00f0um t\u00edma \u00ed ma\u00ed, hitt ger\u00f0ist n\u00edtj\u00e1nda ma\u00ed. Og n\u00fana er tuttugasti og annar.\u201c
\u2001\u201eHa, virkilega? \u00dea\u00f0 er st\u00f3rfur\u00f0ulegt.\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1, heldur betur.\u201c
\u2001\u201eOg \u00e9g hef\u00f0i aldrei fari\u00f0 svona seint \u00fat me\u00f0 Veru nema af \u00fev\u00ed m\u00e9r var sagt a\u00f0 gera \u00fea\u00f0. Mar\u00edur\u00f6ddin sag\u00f0i m\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0. H\u00fan \u00fdtti m\u00e9r \u00fat \u00ed \u00feetta,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g me\u00f0 beiskju.
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1, er \u00fea\u00f0?\u201c sag\u00f0i hann hissa og hnykla\u00f0i br\u00fdnnar.
\u2001\u00c9g kipra\u00f0i saman augun. \u201eAnna\u00f0 er l\u00edka mj\u00f6g skr\u00edti\u00f0 og \u00fea\u00f0 er a\u00f0 klukkan var akk\u00farat tv\u00f6 tuttugu og tv\u00f6 \u00feegar \u00e9g lag\u00f0i af sta\u00f0 \u00fat, \u00e9g t\u00f3k s\u00e9rstaklega eftir \u00fev\u00ed. En \u00e1 s\u00ednum t\u00edma var k\u00e6rum\u00e1li\u00f0 n\u00famer tv\u00f6 hundru\u00f0 tuttugu og tv\u00f6, e\u00f0a \u00fea\u00f0 n\u00famer var a\u00f0 minnsta kosti stimpla\u00f0 \u00e1 alla papp\u00edra sem \u00e9g f\u00e9kk.\u201c
\u2001\u201eMerkilegt!\u201c
\u2001\u201eOg n\u00fana er \u00e9g a\u00f0 fatta a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 eru n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega tuttugu og tv\u00f6 \u00e1r s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00feetta ger\u00f0ist s\u00ed\u00f0ast. \u00dea\u00f0 var 1996, svo \u00fea\u00f0 er auglj\u00f3s tenging, greinilega veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 segja m\u00e9r eitthva\u00f0 me\u00f0 \u00feessu. Og me\u00f0 \u00feessum endalausu tvistum. En \u00e9g skil ekki hva\u00f0.\u201c
\u2001M\u00e9r t\u00f3kst a\u00f0 dotta sm\u00e1vegis undir morgun en \u00feegar \u00e9g vakna\u00f0i f\u00f3r \u00e9g a\u00f0 h\u00e1gr\u00e1ta og gr\u00e9t samfellt \u00ed klukkut\u00edma e\u00f0a svo.
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g er ekki einu sinni viss um a\u00f0 \u00feetta hafi veri\u00f0 manneskja,\u201c stundi \u00e9g upp. \u201eHann hreyf\u00f0i sig eins og sp\u00fdtukall og r\u00f6ddin var eins og \u00ed v\u00e9lmenni, hann var f\u00e1r\u00e1nlega v\u00e9lr\u00e6nn. Og hann virtist vel m\u00e1li farinn, hann tala\u00f0i allavega ekkert unglingam\u00e1l. En hversu sj\u00fakur \u00fearf ma\u00f0ur a\u00f0 vera til a\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0ast \u00e1 konu me\u00f0 barnavagn, \u00fea\u00f0 er svo gj\u00f6rsamlega bila\u00f0.\u201c
\u2001Vera vakna\u00f0i upp \u00far h\u00e1degi og \u00fe\u00e1 f\u00f3r \u00e9g fram \u00far me\u00f0 hana og gaf henni brj\u00f3st. Finnur settist vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00ed s\u00f3fann og vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00f6g\u00f0um b\u00e6\u00f0i.
\u2001\u00deegar h\u00fan haf\u00f0i drukki\u00f0 n\u00f3g t\u00f3k \u00e9g a\u00f0 \u00fatb\u00faa hafragraut \u00e1 me\u00f0an Finnur skipti um bleyju \u00e1 henni. S\u00ed\u00f0an setti hann hana \u00ed h\u00e1a barnast\u00f3linn og \u00e9g byrja\u00f0i a\u00f0 mata hana \u00e1 ylvolgum grautnum.
\u2001Vi\u00f0 vorum b\u00e6\u00f0i h\u00e1lfdofin. En \u00feegar Vera var or\u00f0in s\u00f6dd fylltist \u00e9g skyndilegum eldm\u00f3\u00f0i og st\u00f6kk \u00e1 f\u00e6tur. \u00c9g greip umslagi\u00f0 me\u00f0 handritshlutanum af altarinu og t\u00f3k a\u00f0 kl\u00e6\u00f0a mig betur.
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g var b\u00fain a\u00f0 \u00e1kve\u00f0a a\u00f0 p\u00f3stleggja \u00feetta \u00ed dag og \u00e9g \u00e6tla sko ekki a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta \u00feetta skemma plani\u00f0. Ekki s\u00e9ns!\u201c
\u2001Finnur leit forvi\u00f0a \u00e1 mig. \u201e\u00c1 \u00e9g \u00fe\u00e1 ekki a\u00f0 skutla \u00fe\u00e9r, \u00e1 \u00e9g ekki a\u00f0 koma me\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r?\u201c sag\u00f0i hann og t\u00f3k utan um mig.
\u2001\u00c9g fa\u00f0ma\u00f0i hann \u00e1 m\u00f3ti. \u201e\u00c6 takk, \u00e1stin m\u00edn. En \u00e9g vil frekar ganga,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g. \u201e\u00c9g vil endilega hreyfa mig a\u00f0eins og f\u00e1 m\u00e9r ferskt loft.\u201c
\u2001\u201eEkkert m\u00e1l, \u00e9g skil. \u00c1 \u00e9g a\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a h\u00e9r me\u00f0 Veru \u00e1 me\u00f0an?\u201c
\u2001\u201eNei, \u00e9g tek hana bara me\u00f0 m\u00e9r. Henni finnst svo gaman a\u00f0 fer\u00f0ast um \u00ed vagninum.\u201c
\u2001\u201eAllt \u00ed lagi. \u00c9g fer \u00fe\u00e1 \u00ed K\u00f3pavoginn \u00e1 me\u00f0an. En hringdu endilega \u00ed mig \u00feegar \u00fei\u00f0 komi\u00f0 heim, \u00fe\u00e1 kem \u00e9g strax.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g geri \u00fea\u00f0,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g. \u201eGastu annars eitthva\u00f0 sofi\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0an?\u201c
\u2001\u201eNei. \u00c9g legg mig \u00f6rugglega a\u00f0eins \u00e1 eftir, kemur \u00ed lj\u00f3s hvort \u00e9g n\u00e6 a\u00f0 sofna.\u201c
\u2001\u00deegar Vera var tilb\u00fain \u00ed vagninum ur\u00f0um vi\u00f0 samfer\u00f0a \u00fat og st\u00f6ldru\u00f0um vi\u00f0 \u00e1 planinu til a\u00f0 kve\u00f0jast vi\u00f0 opnar b\u00edldyrnar. \u00dev\u00ed n\u00e6st settist Finnur inn \u00ed b\u00edlinn og vi\u00f0 sendum hvort \u00f6\u00f0ru fingurkoss \u00feegar hann \u00f3k af sta\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00dea\u00f0 var s\u00e9rkennilegt a\u00f0 ganga eftir g\u00f6tunum. Allt var svo bjart og fri\u00f0s\u00e6lt.
\u2001\u00c9g skima\u00f0i fl\u00f3ttalega \u00ed kringum mig, kom ekki auga \u00e1 neinn \u00e1 Gunnarsbrautinni, en \u00feegar \u00e9g beyg\u00f0i inn \u00e1 g\u00f6ngust\u00edg sem liggur a\u00f0 Au\u00f0arstr\u00e6ti, kom unglingsstr\u00e1kur \u00ed d\u00f6kkri hettupeysu \u00e1 m\u00f3ti m\u00e9r og \u00e9g hr\u00f6kk \u00ed k\u00fat.
\u2001\u00c9g anda\u00f0i l\u00e9ttar \u00feegar \u00e9g kom upp \u00e1 Snorrabraut og fann fyrir mi\u00f0b\u00e6jarysnum. N\u00fa var \u00e9g \u00f3hult. \u00c9g virti f\u00f3lk fyrir m\u00e9r me\u00f0 leitandi athygli: Hva\u00f0 ef \u00e9g s\u00e9 hann, hva\u00f0 geri \u00e9g \u00fe\u00e1? Og myndi \u00e9g \u00f6rugglega \u00feekkja hann? \u00c9g vissi a\u00f0 hann var me\u00f0alh\u00e1r, grannur en ekki mj\u00f3r, kr\u00fanuraka\u00f0ur og n\u00e1f\u00f6lur. En andlitsfalli\u00f0 var \u00f6gn \u00f3lj\u00f3st. Hann var mj\u00f6g venjulegur \u00ed framan og \u00f6ll hlutf\u00f6ll svona mi\u00f0lungs. En j\u00fa, \u00e9g hlyti a\u00f0 \u00feekkja hann!
\u2001\u00c9g naut \u00feess a\u00f0 vera \u00ed s\u00f3linni og \u00e9g var satt a\u00f0 segja a\u00f0 springa \u00far \u00feakkl\u00e6ti, n\u00fana \u00feegar hugsunin var farin a\u00f0 stillast. \u00c9g var heil \u00e1 h\u00fafi og umfram allt var Vera heil \u00e1 h\u00fafi. \u00dea\u00f0 sem ger\u00f0ist haf\u00f0i veri\u00f0 skelfilegt en vi\u00f0 sluppum, vi\u00f0 vorum \u00ed lagi. \u00d3, hva\u00f0 \u00e9g var \u00feakkl\u00e1t.
\u2001\u00deegar \u00e9g kom \u00fat af p\u00f3sth\u00fasinu \u00ed Austurstr\u00e6ti sendi \u00e9g Kar\u00f3l\u00ednu vinkonu minni stutt textaskilabo\u00f0 um \u00fea\u00f0 sem haf\u00f0i gerst \u2013 \u00e9g tala helst ekki \u00ed fars\u00edma ef hj\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed ver\u00f0ur komist. H\u00fan svara\u00f0i um h\u00e6l og spur\u00f0i hvort \u00e9g vildi f\u00e1 hana \u00ed heims\u00f3kn en \u00e9g af\u00feakka\u00f0i \u00ed bili. \u00deegar \u00e9g kom heim um h\u00e1lft\u00edma s\u00ed\u00f0ar bei\u00f0 m\u00edn hins vegar poki vi\u00f0 \u00fatidyrnar me\u00f0 hinu og \u00feessu g\u00f3\u00f0g\u00e6ti, \u00fear \u00e1 me\u00f0al fl\u00f6sku af l\u00edfr\u00e6num \u00e1vaxtasafa. Kar\u00f3l\u00edna var \u00e1 b\u00edl og haf\u00f0i greinilega komi\u00f0 r\u00e9tt \u00e1 undan m\u00e9r. Miki\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00e9g g\u00f3\u00f0a vinkonu, hugsa\u00f0i \u00e9g meyr, opna\u00f0i fl\u00f6skuna \u00ed anddyrinu og svolgra\u00f0i \u00ed mig allan \u00e1vaxtasafann \u00ed einum teyg. \u00deetta var kl\u00e1rlega besti safi sem \u00e9g haf\u00f0i \u00e1 \u00e6vinni brag\u00f0a\u00f0.
\u2001\u00c9g var ekki fyrr komin inn \u00far dyrunum en heimas\u00edminn hringdi. Vera l\u00e1 steinsofandi \u00ed vagninum. H\u00fan var \u00ed \u00f6ryggisbeisli svo \u00e9g t\u00f3k af henni s\u00e6ngina \u00ed flj\u00f3theitum og opna\u00f0i kerrupokann svo henni yr\u00f0i ekki of heitt. S\u00ed\u00f0an st\u00f6kk \u00e9g \u00ed s\u00edmann.
\u2001\u201eHall\u00f3.\u201c
\u2001\u201eS\u00e6l og blessu\u00f0 \u2013 Laufey?\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1.\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1 s\u00e6l, \u00feetta er Kristj\u00e1n h\u00e9rna \u00ed sambandi vi\u00f0 Tjarnarst\u00edginn.\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1 einmitt. S\u00e6ll.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g vildi l\u00e1ta \u00feig vita a\u00f0 \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0in er tilb\u00fain. Svo \u00fe\u00fa getur flutt inn \u00e1 n\u00e6stu d\u00f6gum.\u201c
\u2001\u201eFr\u00e1b\u00e6rt a\u00f0 heyra,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g dau\u00f0fegin. \u00c9g haf\u00f0i be\u00f0i\u00f0 eftir \u00feessu s\u00edmtali \u00ed \u00ferj\u00e1r vikur og miki\u00f0 l\u00e9tti m\u00e9r vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00feurfa ekki a\u00f0 b\u00faa lengur h\u00e9r \u00ed Nor\u00f0urm\u00fdrinni. Fullkomin t\u00edmasetning.
\u2001\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 eru reyndar tv\u00e6r vi\u00f0arhillur \u00ed \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0inni enn\u00fe\u00e1, \u00e9g bei\u00f0 me\u00f0 a\u00f0 fjarl\u00e6gja \u00fe\u00e6r ef \u00fe\u00fa skyldir vilja nota \u00fe\u00e6r. \u00de\u00e6r eru fr\u00e1 konunni sem seldi m\u00e9r h\u00fasn\u00e6\u00f0i\u00f0, h\u00fan skildi \u00feetta eftir. M\u00e9r finnst \u00fe\u00e6r ekkert s\u00e9rstaklega flottar og ef \u00fe\u00fa vilt \u00fe\u00e6r ekki, \u00fe\u00e1 er \u00fea\u00f0 ekkert m\u00e1l. En \u00e6tli \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 ekki best a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 hittumst \u00ed \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0inni og \u00fe\u00e1 getum vi\u00f0 undirrita\u00f0 samning og \u00e9g l\u00e6t \u00feig f\u00e1 lyklana?\u201c
\u2001\u201eAlveg endilega.\u201c
\u2001\u201eReyndar ver\u00f0ur sm\u00e1 rask einhvern t\u00edma br\u00e1\u00f0lega \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0ur skipt um alla glugga, sem tekur \u00f6rugglega tvo, \u00ferj\u00e1 daga. En \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0ur alveg h\u00e6gt a\u00f0 sofa \u00ed \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0inni \u00e1 me\u00f0an, \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0ur bara \u00f3n\u00e6\u00f0i yfir daginn.\u201c
\u2001\u201eEkkert m\u00e1l.\u201c
\u2001\u201eEn \u00e9g l\u00e6t \u00feig vita me\u00f0 fyrirvara, \u00fea\u00f0 eru sennilega einhverjar vikur \u00ed \u00feetta.\u201c
\u2001\u201eFlott. En eigum vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e1kve\u00f0a t\u00edma n\u00fana til a\u00f0 hittast, e\u00f0a viltu bara vera \u00ed sambandi \u00feegar hentar?\u201c
\u2001\u201eVi\u00f0 getum alveg \u00e1kve\u00f0i\u00f0 t\u00edma n\u00fana, sennilega v\u00e6ri best a\u00f0 mi\u00f0a vi\u00f0 helgina. Hvernig ertu \u00e1 laugardaginn?\u201c
\u2001\u201eHann hentar vel.\u201c
\u2001\u201eEigum vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 segja klukkan fj\u00f6gur?\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1, \u00fea\u00f0 er f\u00ednt.\u201c
\u2001\u201eGott m\u00e1l. \u00de\u00e1 sj\u00e1umst vi\u00f0 \u00e1 Tjarnarst\u00edg klukkan fj\u00f6gur \u00e1 laugardaginn.\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1, vi\u00f0 sj\u00e1umst.\u201c
\u2001\u00c9g hringdi samstundis \u00ed Finn og sag\u00f0i honum fr\u00e9ttirnar.
\u2001\u201eHugsa\u00f0u \u00fe\u00e9r hva\u00f0 \u00feetta er magna\u00f0. \u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a eftir \u00feessu \u00fev\u00edl\u00edkt lengi og svo hringir hann \u00ed dag af \u00f6llum d\u00f6gum.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Finnur var m\u00e6ttur \u00e1 innan vi\u00f0 h\u00e1lft\u00edma en \u00fe\u00e1 var Vera einmitt a\u00f0 rumska. Hann h\u00e9lt \u00e1 henni inn \u00ed stofu \u00fear sem \u00e9g kom m\u00e9r fyrir \u00ed s\u00f3fanum, svo t\u00f3k \u00e9g vi\u00f0 henni og lag\u00f0i hana \u00e1 brj\u00f3sti\u00f0. Finnur sat hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r \u00e1 me\u00f0an h\u00fan drakk og vi\u00f0 r\u00e6ddum saman \u00ed h\u00e1lfum hlj\u00f3\u00f0um.
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g \u00e6tla a\u00f0 hringja \u00ed \u00c1sgeir leigusala \u00ed dag e\u00f0a \u00e1 morgun og l\u00e1ta hann vita a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 flytjum um \u00feessi m\u00e1na\u00f0am\u00f3t, \u00e9g var hvort e\u00f0 er b\u00fain a\u00f0 segja honum a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri mj\u00f6g l\u00edklegt. Og vi\u00f0 f\u00e1um lyklana a\u00f0 Tjarnarst\u00edg \u00e1 laugardaginn, \u00e9g sag\u00f0ist myndu hitta Kristj\u00e1n \u00fear klukkan fj\u00f6gur. Laugardagurinn er tuttugasti og sj\u00f6tti, ekki satt?\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00fa, \u00fea\u00f0 passar. \u00c6ttum vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 flytja um helgina?\u201c
\u2001\u201eNei, \u00fe\u00e1 eru flutningab\u00edlarnir svo d\u00fdrir. Gerum \u00feetta frekar \u00e1 virkum degi, \u00e1 \u00feri\u00f0judaginn e\u00f0a fimmtudaginn \u00feegar \u00e9g er \u00ed fr\u00edi. Anna\u00f0hvort tuttugasta og n\u00edunda e\u00f0a \u00fer\u00edtugasta og fyrsta.\u201c
\u2001\u201eEn viltu ekki hringja n\u00fana og l\u00e1ta vita a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa komist ekki \u00ed vinnuna \u00e1 morgun, bara svo \u00fea\u00f0 gleymist ekki?\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g \u00e6tla <\/em>\u00ed vinnuna \u00e1 morgun,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00e1kve\u00f0in. \u201e\u00c9g hreinlega tek ekki \u00ed m\u00e1l a\u00f0 leyfa \u00feessum ge\u00f0sj\u00faklingi a\u00f0 koma m\u00e9r \u00fat af sporinu. \u00c9g elska a\u00f0 m\u00e6ta \u00ed vinnuna \u00e1 mi\u00f0vikud\u00f6gum.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00c9g veit, \u00e1stin m\u00edn. Vi\u00f0 sko\u00f0um \u00feetta kannski betur \u00e1 eftir. En au\u00f0vita\u00f0 hefur\u00f0u \u00feetta eins og \u00fe\u00fa vilt.\u201c
\u2001Af einhverri \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u fannst m\u00e9r \u00f3l\u00fdsanlega mikilv\u00e6gt a\u00f0 breg\u00f0a ekki \u00fat af hversdagsr\u00fat\u00ednunni.
\u2001\u201eEr annars eitthva\u00f0 s\u00e9rstakt sem \u00feig langar a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a? Get \u00e9g keypt eitthva\u00f0 fyrir \u00feig?\u201c
\u2001\u201eNei, mig langar ekki \u00ed neitt. Svo \u00e1 \u00e9g l\u00edka hitt og \u00feetta sem Kar\u00f3l\u00edna kom me\u00f0. \u00c9g texta\u00f0i henni nefnilega \u00e1 me\u00f0an \u00e9g var \u00fati og sag\u00f0i henni lauslega hva\u00f0 ger\u00f0ist, og \u00feegar \u00e9g kom heim var poki h\u00e9r fyrir utan fullur af mat. H\u00fan er svo huguls\u00f6m. Manstu \u00feegar h\u00fan ger\u00f0i \u00feetta l\u00edka eftir a\u00f0 Vera f\u00e6ddist? \u00de\u00e1 hengdi h\u00fan poka me\u00f0 mat og bl\u00f3mum \u00e1 hur\u00f0arh\u00faninn. H\u00fan er svo g\u00f3\u00f0.\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1, \u00e9g man eftir \u00fev\u00ed. H\u00fan er alveg s\u00e9rlega huguls\u00f6m \u2026 og \u00fei\u00f0 reyndar b\u00e1\u00f0ar hvor vi\u00f0 a\u00f0ra, \u00fea\u00f0 er alveg einstakt.\u201c
\u2001\u201eReyndar gaf h\u00fan m\u00e9r \u00e1vaxtasafa sem \u00e9g drakk allan, og \u00e9g v\u00e6ri alveg til \u00ed meiri \u00feannig safa. G\u00e6tum vi\u00f0 kannski fari\u00f0 saman \u00ed Nett\u00f3? \u00c9g held hann f\u00e1ist \u00fear.\u201c
\u2001\u201eA\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfs\u00f6g\u00f0u.\u201c
\u2001\u201eOg \u00e9g v\u00e6ri l\u00edka til \u00ed a\u00f0 stoppa hj\u00e1 Klambrat\u00fani og s\u00fdna \u00fe\u00e9r hvar \u00feetta ger\u00f0ist.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g svaf n\u00e1nast ekkert um n\u00f3ttina en m\u00e6tti samt \u00ed vinnuna klukkan tv\u00f6.
\u2001Eins og venjulega var Finnur kominn a\u00f0 s\u00e6kja Veru um eittleyti\u00f0, svo lag\u00f0i \u00e9g af sta\u00f0 f\u00f3tgangandi upp \u00e1 Laugaveg \u00feegar klukkan var korter \u00ed. Eins og venjulega. Hann hvatti mig eindregi\u00f0 til a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta vi\u00f0 en m\u00e9r fannst \u00f3hugsandi a\u00f0 fara ekki \u2013 \u00e9g var\u00f0 a\u00f0 halda m\u00ednu striki.
\u2001\u00deegar \u00e9g m\u00e6tti \u00ed vinnuna ger\u00f0i \u00e9g m\u00e9r far um a\u00f0 vera e\u00f0lileg vi\u00f0 samstarfskonu m\u00edna. H\u00fan var komin \u00ed yfirh\u00f6fn og var a\u00f0 t\u00edna saman d\u00f3ti\u00f0 sitt ofan \u00ed bakpoka.
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e6ja, hva\u00f0 segir\u00f0u \u00fe\u00e1?\u201c sag\u00f0i h\u00fan gla\u00f0lega.
\u2001\u201eBara f\u00ednt. \u00c9g er reyndar svol\u00edti\u00f0 \u00fereytt,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g og \u00edmynda\u00f0i m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00e9g liti hr\u00e6\u00f0ilega \u00fat, \u00f6rugglega n\u00e1f\u00f6l og me\u00f0 st\u00f3ra bauga.
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1, \u00e9g s\u00e9 a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa ert d\u00e1l\u00edti\u00f0 \u00fereytuleg. Svafstu illa?\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1, frekar.\u201c
\u2001H\u00fan brosti g\u00f3\u00f0lega. \u201e\u00c6 \u00e6. \u00c9g vona allavega a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa n\u00e1ir a\u00f0 hv\u00edla \u00feig vel eftir daginn.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 vera.\u201c
\u2001\u201eAnnars hefur veri\u00f0 f\u00edn sala \u00ed dag. \u00dea\u00f0 f\u00f3ru me\u00f0al annars \u00fer\u00edr tarotstokkar og ein b\u00faddastytta.\u201c
\u2001\u201eFr\u00e1b\u00e6rt.\u201c
\u2001\u201eOg svo eru fr\u00e1teknir eyrnalokkar \u00ed sk\u00faffunni. Konan sag\u00f0ist \u00e6tla a\u00f0 koma seinna \u00ed dag.\u201c
\u2001\u201eFlott.\u201c
\u2001H\u00fan hneppti a\u00f0 s\u00e9r me\u00f0an h\u00fan gekk a\u00f0 dyrunum.
\u2001\u201eSvo sj\u00e1umst vi\u00f0 \u00e1 f\u00f6studaginn. Haf\u00f0u \u00fea\u00f0 gott \u00ed dag.\u201c
\u2001\u201eTakk s\u00f6mulei\u00f0is, vi\u00f0 sj\u00e1umst.\u201c
\u2001Um lei\u00f0 og h\u00fan var farin virtist m\u00e9r allt ver\u00f0a f\u00e1r\u00e1nlega hversdagslegt. H\u00e9r var \u00e9g m\u00e6tt til vinnu og fyrir utan gluggann gekk f\u00f3lk upp og ni\u00f0ur Laugaveginn, k\u00edkti \u00ed b\u00fa\u00f0ir og vesena\u00f0ist \u00ed s\u00edmunum s\u00ednum. L\u00edfi\u00f0 gekk sinn vanagang og samt haf\u00f0i veri\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0ist \u00e1 mig \u00ed fyrran\u00f3tt, samt n\u00f6tra\u00f0i taugakerfi\u00f0.
\u2001\u00c9g laga\u00f0i m\u00e9r kaffi \u00feegar lei\u00f0 \u00e1 daginn, alveg eins og venjulega, og spjalla\u00f0i vi\u00f0 k\u00fannana um orkusteina, styttur og sp\u00e1spil. M\u00e9r fannst \u00e9g \u00e1kaflega sterk. J\u00e1, m\u00e9r fannst \u00e9g algj\u00f6r hetja. \u00c9g var \u00ed \u00f3tr\u00falega g\u00f3\u00f0u jafnv\u00e6gi.
\u2001\u00dea\u00f0 b\u00edtur greinilega ekkert \u00e1 mig, hugsa\u00f0i \u00e9g og glotti hreykin me\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r. Flestar konur l\u00e6gju \u00f6rugglega grenjandi \u00ed r\u00faminu n\u00fana, en ekki \u00e9g. H\u00e9r var \u00e9g \u00ed vinnunni a\u00f0 drekka kaffi og tala vi\u00f0 f\u00f3lk eins og ekkert hef\u00f0i \u00ed skorist. M\u00e9r fannst \u00e9g alveg m\u00f6gnu\u00f0.
\u2001Sk\u00f6mmu fyrir lokun birtist Kar\u00f3l\u00edna \u00ed dyrag\u00e6ttinni:
\u2001\u201eB\u00edddu n\u00fa vi\u00f0! Ertu \u00ed vinnunni?!\u201c
\u2001\u00c9g t\u00f3k fagnandi \u00e1 m\u00f3ti henni, \u00feakka\u00f0i henni k\u00e6rlega fyrir gla\u00f0ninginn og vi\u00f0 f\u00f6\u00f0mu\u00f0umst innan vi\u00f0 dyrnar.
\u2001\u201e\u00de\u00fa ert rosaleg,\u201c sag\u00f0i h\u00fan og virti mig fyrir s\u00e9r me\u00f0 \u00e1hyggjuhrukku milli augnanna.
\u2001\u201e\u00c6, \u00e9g gat ekki hugsa\u00f0 m\u00e9r a\u00f0 fara \u00ed einhverja eymd \u00fat af \u00feessu. \u00de\u00e1 fyndist m\u00e9r \u00e1r\u00e1sarma\u00f0urinn hafa n\u00e1\u00f0 s\u00ednu fram, ef \u00fe\u00fa veist hva\u00f0 \u00e9g meina.\u201c
\u2001 H\u00fan horf\u00f0i \u00e1 mig sam\u00fa\u00f0araugum.
\u2001\u201eHvernig l\u00ed\u00f0ur \u00fe\u00e9r annars? \u00de\u00fa vir\u00f0ist n\u00fa \u00ed merkilega g\u00f3\u00f0u jafnv\u00e6gi.\u201c
\u2001\u201eM\u00e9r hefur svo sem li\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00e1g\u00e6tlega \u00ed dag, samt er taugakerfi\u00f0 n\u00f6trandi, \u00fe\u00fa tekur kannski eftir \u00fev\u00ed. \u00c9g skelf \u00f6ll. \u00c9g bara skil \u00feetta ekki, \u00fea\u00f0 er \u00fea\u00f0 sem truflar mig mest. \u00dea\u00f0 hefur allt veri\u00f0 svo sl\u00e9tt og fellt undanfari\u00f0 og m\u00e9r hefur li\u00f0i\u00f0 svo vel. Og svo er \u00feessu allt \u00ed einu d\u00fandra\u00f0 inn, \u00e9g fatta \u00fea\u00f0 ekki. \u00de\u00fd\u00f0ir \u00feetta \u00fe\u00e1 a\u00f0 hva\u00f0 sem er geti gerst, a\u00f0 l\u00edfi\u00f0 s\u00e9 tilviljanakennt eftir allt saman \u2026 \u00c9g hef aldrei tr\u00faa\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed. En n\u00fana l\u00ed\u00f0ur m\u00e9r eins og \u00e9g geti \u00e1tt von \u00e1 hverju sem er, hven\u00e6r sem er.\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1, \u00faff, hva\u00f0 \u00e9g skil \u00feig. \u00deetta vir\u00f0ist algj\u00f6rlega \u00fat \u00ed h\u00f6tt. \u00de\u00fa sem ert b\u00fain a\u00f0 vinna svo vel \u00far \u00fe\u00ednum m\u00e1lum, \u00feetta er st\u00f3rundarlegt.\u201c
\u2001\u201eOg einmitt \u00feess vegna br\u00e1 m\u00e9r l\u00edka svo rosalega. \u00dea\u00f0 var ekkert \u00ed m\u00e9r sem \u00e1tti von \u00e1 \u00feessu. Og ekki n\u00f3g me\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0, heldur var \u00e9g einmitt a\u00f0 lj\u00faka vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 leggja ni\u00f0ur fullt af steinum og krist\u00f6lum \u00feegar \u00feetta ger\u00f0ist. \u00c9g var r\u00e9tt b\u00fain a\u00f0 leggja ni\u00f0ur s\u00ed\u00f0asta kristalinn og \u00e6tla\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00fdta honum a\u00f0eins til \u00feegar hann birtist og spur\u00f0i hva\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 gera, tala\u00f0i eins og v\u00e9lmenni.\u201c
\u2001\u201eV\u00f3! En \u00f3hugnanlegt.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00deannig a\u00f0 \u00ed rauninni m\u00e1 segja a\u00f0 \u00e1r\u00e1sin hafi or\u00f0i\u00f0 hluti af serim\u00f3n\u00edunni \u2013 \u00e9g er reyndar bara a\u00f0 \u00e1tta mig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed n\u00fana \u00feegar \u00e9g er a\u00f0 segja \u00fe\u00e9r \u00feetta. V\u00e1, hva\u00f0 \u00feetta er skr\u00edti\u00f0.\u201c
\u2001\u201eHeldur betur! En hva\u00f0 varstu a\u00f0 gera me\u00f0 steinana og kristalana? \u00de\u00fdddi \u00feessi serim\u00f3n\u00eda eitthva\u00f0 s\u00e9rstakt fyrir \u00fe\u00e9r?\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00deetta snerist um a\u00f0 breyta matar\u00e6\u00f0inu, h\u00e6tta a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a hveiti. \u00dea\u00f0 fer svo illa \u00ed mig en \u00e9g hef alltaf veri\u00f0 s\u00f3lgin \u00ed \u00fea\u00f0. Til d\u00e6mis gat \u00e9g h\u00e1ma\u00f0 \u00ed mig heilt franskbrau\u00f0 \u00feegar \u00e9g var unglingur \u00e1 me\u00f0an hinir krakkarnir fengu s\u00e9r bland \u00ed poka.\u201c
\u2001Kar\u00f3l\u00edna skellti upp \u00far. \u201eHah, \u00fe\u00fa meinar.\u201c
\u2001\u201eSamt skil \u00e9g ekki hvernig \u00e1r\u00e1sin getur tengst \u00feeim \u00e1setningi \u00e1 nokkurn h\u00e1tt. \u00c9g skil ekki af hverju \u00feetta blandast saman.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er vissulega erfitt a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 nokkra tengingu \u00fearna \u00e1 milli. En hvernig er \u00fea\u00f0, hefur\u00f0u tilkynnt \u00feetta?\u201c
\u2001\u201eL\u00e1ti\u00f0 l\u00f6gregluna vita?\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1.\u201c
\u2001\u201eNei. \u00c9g get ekki hugsa\u00f0 m\u00e9r a\u00f0 blanda l\u00f6ggunni \u00ed \u00feetta, \u00e9g hef hvort e\u00f0 er engar sannanir og veit ekkert hver \u00feetta er.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 g\u00e6ti samt veri\u00f0 gott a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta vita. Kannski hefur l\u00f6greglan hugmyndir um hver \u00feetta er. Kannski hefur hann r\u00e1\u00f0ist \u00e1 fleiri.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er svo sem g\u00f3\u00f0ur punktur. Samt finnst m\u00e9r tilhugsunin k\u00e6fandi, mig langar bara a\u00f0 f\u00e1 a\u00f0 vera \u00ed fri\u00f0i.\u201c
\u2001\u201e\u00de\u00fa finnur hva\u00f0 er r\u00e9tt. Og l\u00e1ttu mig vita ef \u00e9g get eitthva\u00f0 gert fyrir \u00feig.\u201c
\u2001\u201eTakk.\u201c
\u2001\u201eOg mundu l\u00edka a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 er allt \u00ed lagi a\u00f0 fara \u00ed ku\u00f0ung og gr\u00e1ta. Stundum er \u00fea\u00f0 best.\u201c
\u2001\u201eJ\u00e1 j\u00e1, \u00e9g veit. \u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ekki lei\u00f0 \u00e1 l\u00f6ngu eftir a\u00f0 Kar\u00f3l\u00edna f\u00f3r \u00fear til klukkan var or\u00f0in sex og Finnur var m\u00e6ttur \u00e1samt Veru a\u00f0 s\u00e6kja mig. \u00deannig h\u00f6fum vi\u00f0 \u00feetta yfirleitt \u2013 \u00e9g geng \u00ed vinnuna til a\u00f0 f\u00e1 hreyfingu utandyra, svo koma \u00feau a\u00f0 s\u00e6kja mig og vi\u00f0 f\u00f6rum saman a\u00f0 kaupa \u00ed matinn.
\n\u2001\u00c1 heimlei\u00f0inni f\u00f3rum vi\u00f0 \u00ed Kr\u00f3nuna \u00ed N\u00f3at\u00fani, fyrst og fremst til a\u00f0 f\u00e1 eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed svanginn fyrir Veru.\n\u201e\u00c9g stekk bara inn,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00feegar b\u00edllinn st\u00f6\u00f0va\u00f0ist.
\n\u2001\u201eNei, vi\u00f0 komum me\u00f0.\u201c
\n\u2001Finnur steig \u00fat, t\u00f3k Veru \u00far b\u00edlst\u00f3lnum og gekk vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0 m\u00e9r inn \u00ed b\u00fa\u00f0ina. \u00c9g \u00fe\u00f3ttist vita a\u00f0 hann vildi vera hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r \u00fat af \u00e1r\u00e1sinni og m\u00e9r fannst \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e6tt.
\n\u2001En um lei\u00f0 og \u00e9g steig inn \u00ed verslunina \u00feyrmdi yfir mig. \u00c1r\u00e1sarma\u00f0urinn bj\u00f3 l\u00edklegast \u00ed hverfinu og allir \u00feurfa j\u00fa a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a, sama hversu klikka\u00f0ir \u00feeir eru.
\n\u2001Hva\u00f0 ef \u00e9g m\u00e6ti honum h\u00e9r? hugsa\u00f0i \u00e9g. \u00dea\u00f0 er einmitt \u00e1 \u00feessum t\u00edma sem flestir fara \u00fat \u00ed b\u00fa\u00f0, ekki satt?
\n\u2001\u00c9g gekk vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0 Finns og Veru og sko\u00f0a\u00f0i \u00f6ll n\u00e1l\u00e6g andlit. \u00c9g fylgdist l\u00edka vel me\u00f0 innganginum til a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 hverjir k\u00e6mu inn. \u00c9g reyndi a\u00f0 \u00e1kve\u00f0a hvernig best v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 breg\u00f0ast vi\u00f0 ef \u00e9g m\u00e6tti honum en komst ekki a\u00f0 neinni ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0u. G\u00e6ti \u00e9g l\u00e1ti\u00f0 eins og hann v\u00e6ri m\u00e9r \u00f3kunnugur og horft \u00ed a\u00f0ra \u00e1tt, e\u00f0a myndi \u00e9g frj\u00f3sa? Haf\u00f0i \u00e9g n\u00e6ga sj\u00e1lfstj\u00f3rn til a\u00f0 leyfa andartakinu a\u00f0 l\u00ed\u00f0a hj\u00e1, e\u00f0a myndi \u00e9g r\u00e1\u00f0ast \u00e1 hann?
\n\u2001\u201eTakk fyrir a\u00f0 koma me\u00f0 m\u00e9r inn,\u201c hv\u00edsla\u00f0i \u00e9g a\u00f0 Finni me\u00f0an vi\u00f0 bi\u00f0um eftir a\u00f0 borga.
\n\u2001Hann horf\u00f0i \u00e1 mig alvarlegur \u00e1 svip en sag\u00f0i ekkert.
\n\u2001\u00deegar vi\u00f0 vorum aftur komin inn \u00ed b\u00edl og l\u00f6g\u00f0 af sta\u00f0 heim, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g honum fr\u00e1 upplifun minni inni \u00ed versluninni og hann hlusta\u00f0i \u00feegjandi.
\n\u2001\u201eHva\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00e9g a\u00f0 gera ef \u00e9g m\u00e6ti honum, sem hl\u00fdtur eiginlega a\u00f0 gerast einhvern t\u00edma \u2013 vi\u00f0 b\u00faum j\u00fa \u00e1 \u00cdslandi eftir allt saman?\u201c
\n\u2001\u201e\u00de\u00e1 l\u00e6tur\u00f0u mig samstundis vita,\u201c sag\u00f0i Finnur me\u00f0 \u00feunga \u00ed r\u00f6ddinni sem \u00f3m\u00f6gulegt var a\u00f0 misskilja.
\n\u2001Vi\u00f0 keyr\u00f0um ni\u00f0ur Fl\u00f3kag\u00f6tuna og augun skimu\u00f0u \u00f3sj\u00e1lfr\u00e1tt eftir f\u00f3lki \u00e1 Klambrat\u00fani, leitu\u00f0u a\u00f0 n\u00e1f\u00f6lum manni \u00ed svartri hettupeysu.
\n\u2001\u201eMiki\u00f0 er \u00e9g fegin \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 s\u00e9um a\u00f0 flytja burt,\u201c andvarpa\u00f0i \u00e9g. \u201eGu\u00f0, hva\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0ur gott a\u00f0 komast \u00far \u00feessu hverfi.\u201c<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00de\u00f3rd\u00eds \u00de\u00fafa Bj\u00f6rnsd\u00f3ttir \u00deetta var \u00e1 annan \u00ed hv\u00edtasunnu 2018. \u00de\u00e1 var r\u00e1\u00f0ist \u00e1 mig inni \u00ed rj\u00f3\u00f0ri \u00e1 Klambrat\u00fani og reynt a\u00f0 nau\u00f0ga m\u00e9r. Sext\u00e1n m\u00e1na\u00f0a d\u00f3ttir m\u00edn sat vakandi upp vi\u00f0 dogg \u00ed barnavagni og horf\u00f0i \u00e1, emjandi. \u00deetta ger\u00f0ist \u00e1 annars hversdagslegu m\u00e1nudagskv\u00f6ldi og m\u00e9r hefur li\u00f0i\u00f0 fur\u00f0ulega s\u00ed\u00f0an. E\u00f0a reyndar var […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-381","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/381","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=381"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/381\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":390,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/381\/revisions\/390"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=381"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}