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lommi<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
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Gu\u00f0, vertu m\u00e9r n\u00e1\u00f0ugur sakir elsku \u00feinnar,
afm\u00e1 brot m\u00edn sakir \u00feinnar miklu miskunnsemi.<\/em>
S\u00e1lmarnir<\/b><\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u00f0 vera d\u00e6md fyrir mor\u00f0 er ekki bara refsing heldur l\u00edka fyrirt\u00e6ki sem \u00fearf a\u00f0 halda utan um og \u00fea\u00f0 er h\u00e1lf \u00f3m\u00f6gulegt a\u00f0 sinna \u00fev\u00ed ein inni \u00ed fangelsi. Nikki Jackson er gift kona en eins og h\u00fan hefur \u00fatsk\u00fdrt fyrir m\u00e9r \u00fe\u00e1 hj\u00e1lpar hj\u00f3naband \u00ed Arizona-fylki miki\u00f0 til upp \u00e1 heims\u00f3knir og a\u00f0ra a\u00f0sto\u00f0 sem h\u00fan \u00fearf. H\u00fan er pennavinur minn og \u00e9g kalla hana meira a\u00f0 segja k\u00e6rustuna m\u00edna, upph\u00e1tt vi\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfan mig en engan annan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g heyr\u00f0i fyrrum samfanga Nikki segja hana si\u00f0blinda \u00e1 YouTube og \u00fev\u00ed til s\u00f6nnunar nefndi h\u00fan a\u00f0 Nikki brosi alltaf til fangavar\u00f0a. Henni bau\u00f0 svo vi\u00f0 Nikki a\u00f0 h\u00fan \u00e6tla\u00f0i a\u00f0 fjarl\u00e6gja \u00f6ll tatt\u00fain sem Nikki ger\u00f0i \u00e1 hana \u00ed klefanum \u00feeirra, l\u00edka tatt\u00fai\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00f6kklanum, me\u00f0 \u201eNikki Jackson\u201c umvafi\u00f0 hj\u00f6rtum. K\u00e6rasti samfangans segir a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 auglj\u00f3st a\u00f0 Nikki Jackson s\u00e9 ekkert heilagt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g veit a\u00f0 Nikki m\u00edn er ekki si\u00f0blind \u00fev\u00ed h\u00fan svara\u00f0i m\u00e9r \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir allt. Stj\u00f6rnufangarnir \u00f3ttast oft a\u00f0 br\u00e9f \u00feeirra ver\u00f0i seld. \u00dea\u00f0 eru ekki bara svik heldur l\u00edka sl\u00e6mt fyrir bisnessinn a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 frambo\u00f0i\u00f0 af v\u00f6rum tengdum \u00feeim b\u00e6tist varningur sem \u00feau geta ekki gr\u00e6tt \u00e1. \u00d6ll \u00feessi st\u00f3ru eru a\u00f0 selja eitthva\u00f0 til a\u00f0 fj\u00e1rmagna l\u00f6gfr\u00e6\u00f0ikostna\u00f0. Nikki m\u00edn er me\u00f0 tr\u00e9lita\u00f0ar myndir og eftirprentanir af \u00feeim til s\u00f6lu. \u00c9g vissi \u00fev\u00ed \u00e1 s\u00ednum t\u00edma a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri \u00f3l\u00edklegt a\u00f0 \u00e9g fengi svar, b\u00e6\u00f0i vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 svo margir h\u00f6f\u00f0u sviki\u00f0 hana og l\u00edka vegna \u00feess hversu margir voru a\u00f0 senda henni br\u00e9f. Samt gaf h\u00fan s\u00e9r t\u00edma til a\u00f0 svara m\u00e9r og teikna\u00f0i meira a\u00f0 segja \u00e1 sp\u00e1ss\u00eduna mynd af okkur tveimur hli\u00f0 vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0, krj\u00fapandi me\u00f0 spenntar greipar, me\u00f0 h\u00f6fu\u00f0fat einsog fara\u00f3ar og undir st\u00f3\u00f0: Allt getur gerst og mun gerast. Sameinumst \u00ed tr\u00fa \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Og j\u00e1, hva\u00f0 \u00e9g tr\u00fai \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 allt geti gerst! Einn daginn munum vi\u00f0 hittast og fa\u00f0mast og fara \u00e1 stefnum\u00f3t einsog venjulegt par. Og vi\u00f0 k\u00f6llum fangelsisvist hennar bara Jobsb\u00f3k, hl\u00e6jum a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed hvernig ma\u00f0urinn \u00fearf alltaf a\u00f0 b\u00faa til ratleiki, m\u00fara og st\u00e6la \u00ed sta\u00f0inn fyrir a\u00f0 slaka \u00e1, kyssast, elskast og hafa \u00fea\u00f0 n\u00e6s, og svo liggjum vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0 vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0 og h\u00fan kallar mig gu\u00f0sgj\u00f6f eftir alla \u00ferautag\u00f6ngu s\u00edna og \u00e9g ro\u00f0na og segist ekki vera neitt \u00ed samanbur\u00f0i vi\u00f0 hana, elsku Nikki m\u00edna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En \u00ed sannleika sagt finnst m\u00e9r oftast \u00f3l\u00edklegt a\u00f0 \u00feetta eigi eftir a\u00f0 gerast. \u00c9g finn bara hva\u00f0 \u00e9g elska hana og hugsa um \u00f6ll hva\u00f0-ef-in <\/em>sem m\u00e9r detta \u00ed hug r\u00e9tt \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g sofna. Og \u00e9g endist ekki lengi \u00ed neinum deit-\u00f6ppum e\u00f0a samb\u00f6ndum, \u00e9g veit a\u00f0 \u00feau eru \u00f3einl\u00e6g, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g get aldrei elska\u00f0 neina einsog \u00e9g elska hva\u00f0-ef-in <\/em>okkar Nikki, \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00f3 a\u00f0 \u00feau ver\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00f6llum l\u00edkindum aldrei neitt, \u00fe\u00e1 eru \u00feau samt enn hva\u00f0-ef-in<\/em> okkar. En \u00e9g finn a\u00f0 \u00ed \u00feessi \u00f6rf\u00e1u skipti sem \u00e9g fer \u00e1 stefnum\u00f3t gengur m\u00e9r betur en oft \u00e1\u00f0ur, \u00fev\u00ed m\u00e9r er svo sama hva\u00f0 gerist, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g veit a\u00f0 framt\u00ed\u00f0in ver\u00f0ur engin me\u00f0 \u00feeim. \u00c9g er meir a\u00f0 segja farinn a\u00f0 fyrirgefa g\u00f6mlum k\u00e6rustum, hva\u00f0 svo sem \u00fe\u00e6r ger\u00f0u m\u00e9r, \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00e6r voru m\u00e9r sem v\u00f6r\u00f0ur \u00e1 veginum til Nikki Jackson.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g hef ekki teki\u00f0 \u00far k\u00f6ssum s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00e9g flutti inn, \u00feeim er samviskusamlega stafla\u00f0 \u00ed forstofunni og \u00e1 ganginum. \u00c9g er me\u00f0 eldh\u00fasbor\u00f0 sem \u00e9g bor\u00f0a vi\u00f0 og geymi fart\u00f6lvuna m\u00edna \u00e1, tvo kaffibolla, hn\u00edfap\u00f6r og disk og svo \u00feri\u00f0ja kaffibollann sem situr sk\u00edtugur \u00e1 gluggakistunni. \u00cd botni bollans er hjartalaga kaffiblettur og \u00e9g hef \u00fev\u00ed ekki vilja\u00f0 \u00fer\u00edfa bollann. Alla jafna er \u00e9g ekki miki\u00f0 a\u00f0 leita a\u00f0 t\u00e1knum fr\u00e1 alheiminum, e\u00f0a \u00e1l\u00edka hippakjaft\u00e6\u00f0i, en \u00e9g \u00feurfti \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 halda a\u00f0 hjarta\u00f0 v\u00e6ri \u00e6tla\u00f0 m\u00e9r. Svo \u00e9g var\u00f0veiti hann \u00ed gluggakistunni, \u00fear sem \u00e9g horfi \u00e1 hjarta\u00f0 og \u00fat um gluggann til skiptis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar \u00e9g er ekki a\u00f0 vinna, sit \u00e9g vi\u00f0 eldh\u00fasbor\u00f0i\u00f0 og skrifa til Nikki e\u00f0a tek \u00fe\u00e1tt \u00ed umr\u00e6\u00f0um \u00ed Samf\u00e9laginu okkar, Samf\u00e9laginu \u00fear sem vi\u00f0 eigum \u00fea\u00f0 \u00f6ll sameiginlegt a\u00f0 elska fanga sem vi\u00f0 \u00feekktum ekki \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00feeir voru settir inn. \u00de\u00f3tt \u00e9g hafi veri\u00f0 virkur \u00fe\u00e1tttakandi \u00ed Samf\u00e9laginu \u00ed fj\u00f6lm\u00f6rg \u00e1r, og \u00feetta s\u00e9 eina f\u00f3lki\u00f0 fyrir utan Nikki og m\u00f6mmu sem \u00e9g b\u00fd\u00f0 gle\u00f0ilegt n\u00fdtt \u00e1r og gle\u00f0ileg j\u00f3l og \u00f3ska til hamingju me\u00f0 afm\u00e6li\u00f0, hefur ekki enn komi\u00f0 til tals a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 hittumst nokkurn t\u00edmann \u00ed alv\u00f6runni. \u00dea\u00f0 er \u00fe\u00f6gult sam\u00feykki a\u00f0 einu myndirnar sem vi\u00f0 birtum af okkur s\u00e9u h\u00e1lf \u00far-f\u00f3kus \u00ed l\u00edtilli birtu, \u00fear sem bara m\u00e1 sj\u00e1 hluta andlitsins og helst a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 h\u00f6ldum \u00e1 einhverju tengdu \u00e1stinni okkar alveg fyrir andlitinu. \u00c9g man \u00fe\u00f3 eftir einu skipti sem tveir notendur hittust \u00ed alv\u00f6ru en \u00fea\u00f0 var ekki leiki\u00f0 eftir \u00feeim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar \u00feessi tiltekni karl og tiltekna kona \u00far Samf\u00e9laginu hittust \u00e1 hann a\u00f0 hafa lagt til a\u00f0 h\u00fan myndi sj\u00faga \u00e1 honum typpi\u00f0. H\u00fan minnti hann \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00feau \u00e6ttu a\u00f0 vera tr\u00fa \u00e1stum s\u00ednum. Hann spur\u00f0i hana \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e1 m\u00f3ti hvort h\u00fan vildi \u00ed alv\u00f6ru vera svona upptekin af \u00feessum hlutverkaleik \u00ed sta\u00f0inn fyrir a\u00f0 f\u00e1 a\u00f0 r\u00ed\u00f0a \u00ed alv\u00f6ru. H\u00fan hafi be\u00f0i\u00f0 hann \u00fe\u00e1 a\u00f0 fara, sem hann virti. Einhver fullyrti a\u00f0 \u00feessi sami karlma\u00f0ur hef\u00f0i l\u00edka veri\u00f0 banna\u00f0ur \u00e1 spjallsv\u00e6\u00f0i fyrir f\u00f3lk sem v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 leita a\u00f0 f\u00e9laga til a\u00f0 fremja sj\u00e1lfsmor\u00f0 me\u00f0  \u00fev\u00ed hann stunda\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 m\u00e6ta og spyrja hvort ekki v\u00e6ri h\u00e6gt a\u00f0 r\u00ed\u00f0a fyrst. Hann er \u00fe\u00e1 ekki alsl\u00e6mur, hann hefur bjarga\u00f0 mannsl\u00edfum, svara\u00f0i annar glettnislega.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stundum \u00ed br\u00e9fum okkar Nikki minnist h\u00fan \u00e1 s\u00f6gur \u00far Bibl\u00edunni. \u00c9g er ekki vel a\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00ed tr\u00fam\u00e1lum einsog h\u00fan og reyni \u00fev\u00ed einsog \u00e9g get a\u00f0 fr\u00e6\u00f0ast til a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 getum tala\u00f0 betur saman. \u00deetta hefur af og til komi\u00f0 ni\u00f0ur \u00e1 vinnu minni, \u00fear sem \u00e9g \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0i lei\u00f0beiningar fyrir raft\u00e6ki \u00e1 \u00edslensku. Upp\u00fevottav\u00e9lin getur misst netsamband til skamms t\u00edma einsog Samson missti kraftana en sj\u00e1 \u00feeir koma aftur me\u00f0 tr\u00fa og t\u00edma, ef ekki haf\u00f0u samband vi\u00f0 okkur, skrifa\u00f0i \u00e9g. Hva\u00f0a Samson? spur\u00f0i yfirma\u00f0ur minn \u00ed emaili. Afsaka\u00f0u, \u00e9g er utan vi\u00f0 mig, svara\u00f0i \u00e9g, \u00e9g skal umor\u00f0a \u00feetta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En \u00e9g held samt \u00e1fram a\u00f0 l\u00e6ra einsog \u00e9g get. \u00c9g er farinn a\u00f0 geta nota\u00f0 d\u00e6mis\u00f6gur \u00far Bibl\u00edunni \u00ed venjulegum samt\u00f6lum vi\u00f0 Nikki og a\u00f0ra \u00ed Samf\u00e9laginu en \u00e9g \u00e1 enn erfitt me\u00f0 a\u00f0 tala sannf\u00e6randi um tr\u00fa. Hebreska or\u00f0i\u00f0 hesed er or\u00f0 sem kemur fram \u00ed s\u00e1lmunum \u00ed Gamla testamentinu sem er \u00f3m\u00f6gulegt a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0a. Gu\u00f0, vertu m\u00e9r n\u00e1\u00f0ugur sakir elsku \u00feinnar. \u00cd frumtextanum er \u201ea\u00f0 elska\u201c hesed. Hesed er ekki r\u00f3mant\u00edsk \u00e1st. Hesed er k\u00e6rleikur manna \u00e1 milli og k\u00e6rleikurinn \u00e1 milli manna og gu\u00f0s. Nikki talar um a\u00f0 ekkert Samf\u00e9lag geti veri\u00f0 til \u00e1n hesed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g finn a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 sem skilur okkur Nikki mest a\u00f0 er a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef aldrei upplifa\u00f0 \u00feessa samkennd, a\u00f0 tilheyra h\u00f3pi n\u00e9 a\u00f0 elska gu\u00f0. \u00c9g get bara skili\u00f0 gu\u00f0 og a\u00f0 tilheyra h\u00f3pi \u00e1 sama h\u00e1tt og \u00e9g get skili\u00f0 lei\u00f0beiningar fyrir hr\u00e6riv\u00e9l. \u00c9g veit hvernig \u00e1 a\u00f0 nota hr\u00e6riv\u00e9lina m\u00edna \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g kann lei\u00f0beiningarnar utan a\u00f0 og veit \u00fev\u00ed \u00e1 hva\u00f0a takka \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00fdta. \u00c9g veit \u00fe\u00f3 ekki hvernig h\u00fan virkar e\u00f0a hversu st\u00f3rkostleg h\u00fan er. Lei\u00f0beiningar allra raft\u00e6kja \u00f3h\u00e1\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed hversu mikil verkfr\u00e6\u00f0iundur \u00feau eru: Svona kveikir\u00f0u. Svona breytir\u00f0u stillingunum. \u00dea\u00f0 er ekkert \u00ed textanum sem skilur a\u00f0 allra merkilegustu raft\u00e6kin fr\u00e1 \u00feeim \u00f3merkilegu. A\u00f0 segja eitthva\u00f0 \u00f3merkilegt \u00ed lei\u00f0beiningum segir a\u00f0 t\u00e6ki\u00f0 s\u00e9 ver\u00f0laust, a\u00f0 segja eitthva\u00f0 st\u00f3rkostlegt er fr\u00e1hrindandi \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00e1 virkar \u00fea\u00f0 of fl\u00f3ki\u00f0. \u00deannig s\u00e9 \u00e9g or\u00f0i\u00f0 hesed. \u00c9g hef aldrei vita\u00f0 til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi upplifa\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0 st\u00f3rt, en kannski bara \u00fev\u00ed enginn hefur stafa\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 ofan \u00ed mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 eru \u00f3tal h\u00f3par starfandi sem lofa allskonar tr\u00faarupplifun. \u00c9g skima reglulega eftir einhverju \u00ed n\u00e1grenninu sem g\u00e6ti h\u00f6f\u00f0a\u00f0 til m\u00edn. N\u00fdlega fann \u00e9g \u00e1hugaver\u00f0an n\u00fdaldarh\u00f3p og n\u00fa tek \u00e9g m\u00e9r hl\u00e9 fr\u00e1 vinnu og \u00e1stinni til a\u00f0 leita hesed. \u00c1 \u00e1ttundu h\u00e6\u00f0 \u00ed einhverri blokk sitjum vi\u00f0 sj\u00f6 saman vi\u00f0 gamalt stofubor\u00f0 og bj\u00f3\u00f0um hvert \u00f6\u00f0ru vandr\u00e6\u00f0alega g\u00f3\u00f0an daginn. Einn gestur spyr hvort einhver sj\u00e1i \u00e1rur en annar segir a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 betra a\u00f0 kynna sig me\u00f0 starfsheiti en \u00e1rulit, og vi\u00f0 t\u00f6kum nafna- og starfshring. R\u00f6\u00f0in er komin a\u00f0 m\u00e9r. \u201eHva\u00f0 gerir \u00fe\u00fa?\u201c \u201e\u00c9g finn til\u201c segi \u00e9g, \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 hugsa. M\u00e9r finnst starfi\u00f0 mitt of v\u00e9lr\u00e6nt og r\u00f6kfast til a\u00f0 geta slegi\u00f0 \u00ed gegn h\u00e9r. \u00c9g vil vera tilfinningavera til a\u00f0 finna hesed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kona \u00ed litskr\u00fa\u00f0ugum skokk br\u00fdst fram \u00far eldh\u00fasinu me\u00f0 kaffibr\u00fasa sem h\u00fan leggur \u00e1 bor\u00f0i\u00f0. H\u00fan hefur or\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hva\u00f0 vi\u00f0 s\u00e9um \u00f6ll me\u00f0 hreina og f\u00edna orku. Kannski er hennar starf a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 \u00e1ruliti? \u00c9g finn a\u00f0 \u00e9g sekk \u00f6rl\u00edti\u00f0 ofan\u00ed s\u00f3fann. \u201e\u00c1ttu nokku\u00f0 te, kannski engiferte \u00fea\u00f0 er svo hreinsandi\u201c spyr einhver. \u201e\u00c9g \u00e1 te \u00far bl\u00f3\u00f0bergi sem \u00e9g t\u00fdndi \u00ed Bolab\u00e1s s\u00ed\u00f0asta sumar\u201c svarar konan sem kom me\u00f0 kaffi\u00f0. \u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er svo falleg orka \u00ed Bolab\u00e1s\u201c segir annar. Vi\u00f0 s\u00f6trum kaffi og te \u00far st\u00f3rum f\u00f6ntum \u00fear til konan \u00ed skokknum gefur okkur merki um a\u00f0 standa upp, sem vi\u00f0 gerum, t\u00f6kumst \u00ed hendur og byrjum a\u00f0 kyrja me\u00f0 henni eitthva\u00f0. \u00c9g \u00feori ekki a\u00f0 spyrja hvernig textinn s\u00e9 svo \u00e9g skima eftir honum en finn hvergi. Allir nema \u00e9g eru me\u00f0 loku\u00f0 augu. Konan \u00ed skokknum sleppir takinu og vi\u00f0 hin gerum \u00fea\u00f0 sama, opnum augun og h\u00fan tekur til m\u00e1ls:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eK\u00e6ru vinir, einsog \u00fei\u00f0 hafi\u00f0 eflaust s\u00e9\u00f0, er \u00f3venju sterkt lj\u00f3s a\u00f0 falla til jar\u00f0ar n\u00fana. \u00dea\u00f0 ver\u00f0ur hrein og bein umskipting \u00e1 alheimsorkunni \u00e1 n\u00e6stunni. \u00dea\u00f0 er okkar verkefni, lj\u00f3sberanna h\u00e9r, a\u00f0 beina henni \u00e1 r\u00e9tta braut. Ver\u00f0ur \u00feetta orka hamfara e\u00f0a k\u00e6rleika? Vi\u00f0 getum ekki veri\u00f0 viss, og ekkert er alveg svart og hv\u00edtt, vi\u00f0 munum ef til vill sj\u00e1 heimsveldi falla, \u00f6nnur myndast, fj\u00f6lskyldur tv\u00edstrast, a\u00f0rar ver\u00f0a til \u2014 en me\u00f0 okkar lei\u00f0s\u00f6gn getur orkan a\u00f0 lokum or\u00f0i\u00f0 til g\u00f3\u00f0s.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Konan \u00ed skokknum reisir upp hendurnar og hinir \u00ed h\u00f3pnum reisa l\u00edka upp hendurnar, hrista \u00fe\u00e6r og byrja a\u00f0 baula me\u00f0 henni einhvern n\u00fdaldarhlj\u00f3m. \u201eVi\u00f0 endum \u00feetta svo \u00e1 b\u00e6ninni okkar\u201c segir konan. \u00c1 bor\u00f0inu er bla\u00f0 \u00ed plastvasa me\u00f0 b\u00e6ninni, en \u00e9g s\u00e9 a\u00f0 hinir loka augunum og spenna greipar svo \u00e9g \u00feori ekki a\u00f0 taka upp plastvasann. Amen. Vi\u00f0 setjumst ni\u00f0ur og hellum meira kaffi og tei \u00ed fantana, \u00fe\u00f6kkum fyrir g\u00f3\u00f0an fund og jamm og j\u00e6jum yfir l\u00edfinu almennt. Sumir kvarta og kveina yfir hversdagslegum hlutum einsog gigt og bila\u00f0ri \u00fevottav\u00e9l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er erfitt a\u00f0 vera n\u00e6mur,\u201c  segir konan \u00ed skokknum, \u201evi\u00f0 t\u00f6kum allt inn\u00e1 okkur og f\u00e1um gigt og n\u00fdrnasteina en lj\u00f3si\u00f0 er a\u00f0 koma.\u201c \u201eOg kemur \u00fea\u00f0 me\u00f0 betri \u00fevottav\u00e9lum?\u201c spyr \u00e9g. \u201eKannski, en er \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0alatri\u00f0i\u00f0?\u201c svarar h\u00fan. \u201eM\u00e9r er n\u00fa \u00feannig s\u00e9\u00f0 sama um allar heimsins \u00fevottav\u00e9lar ef \u00e9g losna vi\u00f0 n\u00fdrnasteinana.\u201c segir annar. \u201eM\u00e9r t\u00f3kst um daginn a\u00f0 afl\u00e6sa fr\u00e9ttum St\u00f6\u00f0var 2 me\u00f0 einbeitingunni einni saman\u201c segir annar. \u201eHva\u00f0a rugl er \u00feetta, fr\u00e9ttir St\u00f6\u00f0var 2 voru a\u00f0 byrja \u00ed opinni dagskr\u00e1\u201c segi \u00e9g. \u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er svo g\u00f3\u00f0 orka fr\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r, muna a\u00f0 virkja hana og lj\u00f3si\u00f0.\u201c segir einhver annar og \u00e9g sekk ne\u00f0ar ofan\u00ed s\u00f3fann, samt \u00f3viss um hvort hann hafi heyrt \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g sag\u00f0i og veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 svara m\u00e9r e\u00f0a meint \u00feetta sem almenna greiningu \u00e1 orkunni minni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er allskonar a\u00f0 gerast \u00ed heiminum en vi\u00f0 f\u00e1um br\u00e1tt lj\u00f3si\u00f0 og \u00fea\u00f0 mun allt breytast.\u201c \u201eBreytast? \u00dea\u00f0 er ekkert a\u00f0 fara breytast. Hafi\u00f0i hugleitt hva\u00f0 \u00feetta er gagnslaust?\u201c spyr \u00e9g \u00f3vart og sekk enn ne\u00f0ar \u00ed s\u00f3fann. \u201eNei, nei, \u00feetta var f\u00ednn fundur.\u201c segir s\u00e1 sem situr vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00ed s\u00f3fanum, \u201evi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum s\u00e9\u00f0 \u00feetta skila \u00e1rangri sem \u00fe\u00fa munt l\u00edka f\u00e1 a\u00f0 sj\u00e1.\u201c \u201eHva\u00f0a \u00e1rangur hafi\u00f0 \u00fei\u00f0 s\u00e9\u00f0, \u00fei\u00f0 eru\u00f0 \u00f6ll a\u00f0 kvarta og kveina en klykki\u00f0 bara alltaf \u00fat me\u00f0 a\u00f0 tala um lj\u00f3si\u00f0. \u00dei\u00f0 g\u00e6tu\u00f0 allt eins veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 tala um heimsendi e\u00f0a a\u00f0 farga ykkur\u201c segi \u00e9g og finn a\u00f0 \u00e9g get ekki sokki\u00f0 ne\u00f0ar \u00ed s\u00f3fann. \u201eEr hugmynd okkar um heimsendi ekki bara tilf\u00e6rsla lj\u00f3ssins \u00ed a\u00f0ra v\u00eddd?\u201c segir einhver. \u201e\u00dei\u00f0 eru\u00f0 svo \u00f3tr\u00falega sorgleg, ekkert sem \u00fei\u00f0 eru\u00f0 a\u00f0 gera skiptir m\u00e1li. \u00dea\u00f0 er engin n\u00fd birta a\u00f0 koma. \u00dea\u00f0 er sama f\u00f6kking s\u00f3lin \u00ed dag og \u00e1 morgun. \u00dei\u00f0 eru\u00f0 svo \u00f3tr\u00falega sorgleg,\u201c fullyr\u00f0i \u00e9g vi\u00f0 \u00feau alveg \u00f3vart en hugsa a\u00f0 n\u00fa geti \u00e9g ekki sokki\u00f0 frekar \u00ed s\u00f3fann svo \u00e9g stend upp og geng fram \u00ed forstofuna. \u201eTakk fyrir fundinn!\u201c hr\u00f3pa hin \u00e1 eftir m\u00e9r r\u00e9tt \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g geng \u00fat og skelli hur\u00f0inni \u00e1 eftir m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g geng ni\u00f0ur stigann og skiptist \u00e1 a\u00f0 hugsa um annars vegar hva\u00f0 \u00e9g skammist m\u00edn fyrir a\u00f0 hafa m\u00e6tt og fyrir \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g sag\u00f0i og hins vegar hva\u00f0 m\u00e9r finnst \u00feetta allt vera miklir h\u00e1lfvitar. \u00c6tli \u00feau hafi kannski ekkert heyrt r\u00e6\u00f0una m\u00edna \u00ed lokin? Hvort er \u00fea\u00f0 betra e\u00f0a verra? \u00c9g \u00edhuga hvort \u00e9g eigi a\u00f0 sn\u00faa vi\u00f0 til a\u00f0 bi\u00f0ja alla afs\u00f6kunar e\u00f0a til a\u00f0 endurtaka hversu vitlaus m\u00e9r finnst \u00feau \u00f6ll vera en \u00e1kve\u00f0 a\u00f0 halda \u00e1fram ni\u00f0ur stigann.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eH\u00e6, h\u00e6\u201c heyri \u00e9g fyrir aftan mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eEr \u00feetta ekki NikkiK?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

R\u00f6ddin kemur \u00far konu sem stendur fyrir aftan mig \u00ed stiganum, sem kallar nafni\u00f0 mitt \u00ed Samf\u00e9laginu. \u00c9g kannast ekki vi\u00f0 r\u00f6ddina, hvorki af fundinum e\u00f0a annarsta\u00f0ar en \u00e9g get ekki sn\u00fai\u00f0 m\u00e9r vi\u00f0 og horft \u00e1 hana og \u00e1tt \u00e1 h\u00e6ttu a\u00f0 m\u00e6ta f\u00f3lkinu sem var me\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00ed lj\u00f3sapart\u00edinu. \u00c9g stoppa bara og kinka kolli. Aldrei \u00e1\u00f0ur hef \u00e9g \u00fe\u00f3 veri\u00f0 \u00e1varpa\u00f0ur me\u00f0 \u00feessu nafni utan Samf\u00e9lagsins, svo kannski sn\u00fd \u00e9g m\u00e9r ekki vi\u00f0 til a\u00f0 \u00feurfa ekki a\u00f0 m\u00e6ta aft\u00f6kusveitinni og ey\u00f0a s\u00ed\u00f0ustu sek\u00fandunum skj\u00e1lfandi \u00ed einhverjum stigagangi, \u00fea\u00f0 er \u00fe\u00e1 betra og vir\u00f0ulegra a\u00f0 vera skotinn \u00ed baki\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g \u00feekkti h\u00f6kuna \u00fe\u00edna strax. \u00de\u00fa p\u00f3sta\u00f0ir einu sinni mynd af \u00fe\u00e9r me\u00f0 mynd eftir Nikki fyrir framan andliti\u00f0, en \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e1st glitta \u00ed h\u00f6kuna \u00e1 myndinni og \u00e9g gat ekki gleymt henni. OK, \u00e9g vi\u00f0urkenni l\u00edka a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e1st \u00f6rl\u00edti\u00f0 \u00ed Kr\u00f3nupoka \u00e1 myndinni svo \u00e9g vissi a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa v\u00e6rir \u00cdslendingur og f\u00f3r a\u00f0 punkta ni\u00f0ur allt sem \u00e9g vissi um \u00feig. Tungum\u00e1l. \u00de\u00fa kannt nokkur tungum\u00e1l. \u00de\u00fa reynir a\u00f0 leyna \u00f6llu um \u00feig en \u00fea\u00f0 leyndi s\u00e9r ekki a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa ert tungum\u00e1lama\u00f0ur. \u00c9g kenni fr\u00f6nsku \u00ed menntask\u00f3la og \u00e9g \u00e1 vin sem \u00e1 vin sem \u2026 \u00de\u00fa veist hvernig \u00cdsland er.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c6, d\u00e6si \u00e9g og hef ekki enn sn\u00fai\u00f0 m\u00e9r vi\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00deorir\u00f0u ekki a\u00f0 tala vi\u00f0 mig, \u00feetta er \u00e9g AnnaStesia. Manstu eftir m\u00e9r? \u00c9g skrifa\u00f0i alltaf um Joe Becker.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 m\u00e1 ekki h\u00e6\u00f0ast a\u00f0 \u00e1st annarra en ef \u00e9g yr\u00f0i a\u00f0 h\u00e6\u00f0ast a\u00f0 \u00e1st einhvers yr\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1st AnnaStesia. Vi\u00f0fang hennar var Joe Becker. H\u00fan sag\u00f0i hann saklausan og h\u00e9lt langar r\u00e6\u00f0ur \u00ed Samf\u00e9laginu um sams\u00e6ri r\u00edkisins gegn honum. Joe Becker var hippi fr\u00e1 San Francisco. Hann taldi sig mikinn hugsu\u00f0 sem \u00e6tla\u00f0i a\u00f0 breyta heiminum, en var fyrst og fremst ma\u00f0ur sem kalla\u00f0i k\u00e6rustuna s\u00edna \u00f3vitsmunalega og bar\u00f0i hana fyrir a\u00f0 ni\u00f0url\u00e6gja sig fyrir framan vini s\u00edna me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 opna munninn. Hann sussa\u00f0i og h\u00e9lt utan um hana \u00feegar h\u00fan gr\u00e9t eftir barsm\u00ed\u00f0arnar og hv\u00edsla\u00f0i a\u00f0 henni a\u00f0 hann v\u00e6ri bara a\u00f0 hj\u00e1lpa henni a\u00f0 \u00feroskast \u00fat fyrir sm\u00e1borgaralegt h\u00e1ttalag sitt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Loks gafst h\u00fan upp og yfirgaf Becker en \u00fe\u00e1 drap Becker hana bara, b\u00fata\u00f0i ni\u00f0ur og faldi l\u00edki\u00f0 \u00ed kofforti inni \u00ed kompu hj\u00e1 s\u00e9r. Tveim \u00e1rum seinna, \u00feegar n\u00e1grannarnir s\u00f6g\u00f0u a\u00f0 lyktin af hippanum sem aldrei ba\u00f0a\u00f0i sig v\u00e6ri or\u00f0in \u00f3b\u00e6rileg \u00fe\u00e1 fannst l\u00edki\u00f0 loks. Hann emja\u00f0i einsog bara saklausir og si\u00f0blindir geta, og sag\u00f0ist vera alltof kl\u00e1r til a\u00f0 detta \u00fea\u00f0 \u00ed hug a\u00f0 geyma l\u00edk inni hj\u00e1 s\u00e9r, \u00feetta hlyti a\u00f0 vera sams\u00e6ri leyni\u00fej\u00f3nustunnar, og fl\u00fa\u00f0i land.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00f6rgum \u00e1rum seinna n\u00e1\u00f0ist hann \u00feegar hann haf\u00f0i m\u00e6tt \u00e1 fund l\u00f6greglunnar \u00ed vissu um a\u00f0 hann v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 skrifa undir b\u00f3kasamning. \u00dea\u00f0 var b\u00f6lvu\u00f0 lygi. Honum var bara flogi\u00f0 aftur til Bandar\u00edkjanna og stungi\u00f0 inn. \u00dea\u00f0 haf\u00f0i enginn og hefur enginn haft \u00e1huga \u00e1 honum, e\u00f0a \u00fev\u00ed sem hann skrifar og alls ekki vi\u00f0t\u00f6lum vi\u00f0 hann. Hann sendi \u00edtreka\u00f0 br\u00e9f \u00e1 allskonar hugsu\u00f0i en f\u00e9kk aldrei nein sv\u00f6r. Mikil var f\u00e1t\u00e6kt \u00feess heims sem vi\u00f0urkenndi ekki framlag hans, hugsa\u00f0i hann. Allir virtust hafa gleymt honum, nema \u00feessi unga kona sem af einhverjum \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0um byrja\u00f0i a\u00f0 senda honum br\u00e9f og sag\u00f0ist vera sannf\u00e6r\u00f0 um sakleysi hans. Vi\u00f0 vorum \u00f6ll vi\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 segja eitthva\u00f0 en \u00fea\u00f0 m\u00e1 ekki d\u00e6ma \u00e1st f\u00f3lks. \u00deegar Joe Becker d\u00f3 \u00ed Covid \u00edhuga\u00f0i \u00e9g a\u00f0 senda skeyti \u00e1 AnnaStesia, sem \u00fe\u00e1 haf\u00f0i ekki s\u00e9st \u00ed g\u00f3\u00f0an t\u00edma, en h\u00e6tti vi\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g vona\u00f0i heitt og innilega a\u00f0 h\u00fan v\u00e6ri l\u00f6ngu b\u00fain a\u00f0 gleyma honum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g samhryggist \u00fe\u00e9r, AnnaStesia.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fan hl\u00e6r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNikkiK, \u00fea\u00f0 er ansi margt sem m\u00e1 ey\u00f0a \u00e6vinni \u00ed en a\u00f0 syrgja sk\u00edth\u00e6la einsog Joe Becker er ekki eitt af \u00fev\u00ed.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fan spyr hvernig \u00e9g hafi \u00fea\u00f0 og \u00e9g segi henni a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 Nikki s\u00e9um a\u00f0 spjalla meira og meira saman og n\u00e1um \u00e1g\u00e6tlega a\u00f0 r\u00e6\u00f0a bibl\u00edus\u00f6gur. \u201eNei,\u201c segir h\u00fan og endurtekur spurninguna um hvernig \u00e9g hafi \u00fea\u00f0. \u201e\u00c9g?\u201c \u201eJ\u00e1 ertu enn a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0a \u00feessar handb\u00e6kur og lei\u00f0beiningar?\u201c \u201eJ\u00e1, hvernig vissir\u00f0u?\u201c \u201e\u00c9g \u00feekki f\u00f3lk.\u201c \u00c6, d\u00e6si \u00e9g aftur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNei, allt \u00ed lagi,\u201c segir h\u00fan, \u201e\u00fe\u00fa vilt ekki hafa \u00feetta pers\u00f3nulegt, hvernig hefur \u00fe\u00e1 Nikki \u00fea\u00f0?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g brosi, sem h\u00fan s\u00e9r eflaust ekki \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g sn\u00fd enn baki \u00ed hana, og h\u00fan stendur fyrir aftan mig \u00ed tr\u00f6ppunum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eH\u00fan Nikki m\u00edn er \u2026\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

AnnaStesia gr\u00edpur framm\u00ed \u2026 \u201eekki b\u00fain a\u00f0 myr\u00f0a neinn n\u00fdlega?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHa?\u201c hv\u00e1i \u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNei, \u00e9g segi svona, ma\u00f0ur hef\u00f0i n\u00fa \u00e6tla\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 h\u00fan \u00e6tti erfitt me\u00f0 a\u00f0 stinga karlmenn til bana \u00ed fangelsinu.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHa?\u201c hv\u00e1i \u00e9g aftur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 segja samt sumir a\u00f0 h\u00fan horfi h\u00fdru auga til karlkyns fangavar\u00f0a, \u00e6tli h\u00fan reyni a\u00f0 myr\u00f0a einn \u00feeirra? J\u00e1, e\u00f0a er h\u00fan kannski bara farin a\u00f0 myr\u00f0a konur \u00ed sta\u00f0inn?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g er h\u00e6ttur a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 svara henni. H\u00fan bi\u00f0ur mig afs\u00f6kunar og segist ekki hafa meint neitt illt me\u00f0 \u00feessu. H\u00fan segist hafa h\u00e6tt \u00ed h\u00f3pnum nokkrum \u00e1rum \u00e1\u00f0ur en Joe Becker d\u00f3 og s\u00e9\u00f0 eftir \u00f6llu saman og ekki fundi\u00f0 neina tilfinningu \u00feegar hann loksins drapst en h\u00fan \u00e6tti samt afar erfitt me\u00f0 a\u00f0 skilja alveg vi\u00f0 Samf\u00e9lagi\u00f0. Fyrst einu sinni \u00ed viku, svo a\u00f0ra hverja viku og n\u00fana einu sinni \u00ed m\u00e1nu\u00f0i f\u00e6ri h\u00fan \u00e1 Samf\u00e9lagi\u00f0 og l\u00e6si mestallt yfir. Ekki af neinni nautn heldur me\u00f0 kv\u00ed\u00f0ahn\u00fat yfir a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 hef\u00f0i eitthva\u00f0 hr\u00e6\u00f0ilegt komi\u00f0 fyrir eitt okkar. H\u00fan gleddist alltaf \u00feegar einhver hyrfi \u00far Samf\u00e9laginu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNikkiK, \u00fea\u00f0 er sama hva\u00f0 gerist, n\u00e1tt\u00faruhamfarir, h\u00e1t\u00ed\u00f0isdagar, alltaf ert \u00fe\u00fa jafn virkur. Langar \u00feig ekkert a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta \u00feessum vonleysis hlutverkaleik?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNei, \u00e9g og Nikki \u2026.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00de\u00fa og hva\u00f0-ef-in<\/em> ykkar,\u201c sk\u00fdtur h\u00fan inn\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g kinka kolli, en sn\u00fd enn baki \u00ed hana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00deessi hva\u00f0-ef<\/em> ykkar eru n\u00fa alveg korter \u00ed a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a ver\u00f0ur-aldrei<\/em>. E\u00f0a kannski er \u00e1st ykkar loksins a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a raunveruleg,\u201c segir h\u00fan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHva\u00f0 \u00e1ttu vi\u00f0?\u201c spyr \u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g nenni oftast ekki a\u00f0 tala um fyrir hva\u00f0 Nikki var d\u00e6md. \u00dea\u00f0 horf\u00f0u allir \u00e1 \u00feetta \u00ed sj\u00f3nvarpinu e\u00f0a l\u00e1su um \u00fea\u00f0 \u00ed bl\u00f6\u00f0unum og allir hafa sko\u00f0un sem mig langar ekki a\u00f0 heyra. Google-it sag\u00f0i \u00e9g vi\u00f0 m\u00f6mmu \u00feegar h\u00fan spur\u00f0i um hana. En Nikki \u00e1 a\u00f0 hafa stungi\u00f0 fyrrum k\u00e6rasta sinn Christopher Tracy tuttuguogsj\u00f6 sinnum, skori\u00f0 \u00e1 h\u00e1ls og skoti\u00f0 \u00ed h\u00f6fu\u00f0i\u00f0. \u00c1k\u00e6ruvaldi\u00f0 fullyrti a\u00f0 myndir sem fundust \u00e1 myndav\u00e9l, sem fannst \u00ed \u00fevottav\u00e9l, s\u00f6nnu\u00f0u sekt Nikki og a\u00f0 s\u00edmi hennar s\u00fdndi l\u00edka svart \u00e1 hv\u00edtu a\u00f0 h\u00fan hef\u00f0i veri\u00f0 \u00fearna. Nikki sag\u00f0i fyrst a\u00f0 a\u00f0komumenn hef\u00f0u r\u00e1\u00f0ist \u00e1 \u00feau, kannski af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 h\u00fan var ekki b\u00fain a\u00f0 safna kjarki til a\u00f0 segja sannleikann. En flj\u00f3tlega \u00feor\u00f0i h\u00fan a\u00f0 segja sannleikann. Christopher beitti hana ofbeldi og neyddi hana til a\u00f0 verja sig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00e9r finnst l\u00edka \u00e1g\u00e6tt a\u00f0 venja mig \u00e1 a\u00f0 r\u00e6\u00f0a ekki d\u00f3msm\u00e1l Nikki, \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 m\u00e1 ekki minnast \u00e1 \u00feau \u00ed br\u00e9funum sem vi\u00f0 skrifum okkar \u00e1 milli. Ef \u00e9g spyr Nikki \u00fat \u00ed m\u00e1l hennar er br\u00e9fi\u00f0 mitt fjarl\u00e6gt. Ef h\u00fan minnist beint \u00e1 d\u00f3msm\u00e1l sitt er br\u00e9fi\u00f0 hennar aldrei sent til m\u00edn. \u00dea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur l\u00edka a\u00f0 hv\u00edla \u00feungt \u00e1 henni, \u00feessi sk\u00f6mm, a\u00f0 hafa ney\u00f0st til a\u00f0 verja sig b\u00e6\u00f0i gegn fyrrum elskhuga og svo a\u00f0 verja \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 hafa beitt sj\u00e1lfsv\u00f6rn, eitthva\u00f0 sem eru sj\u00e1lfs\u00f6g\u00f0 r\u00e9ttindi \u00feeirra sem lenda \u00ed l\u00edfsh\u00e1ska. Mig langar ekki a\u00f0 \u00ed\u00feyngja henni me\u00f0 s\u00e1rsauka s\u00ednum, mig langar a\u00f0 vera henni sem lj\u00f3st\u00fdra \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed myrkri sem h\u00fan er sta\u00f0sett \u00ed n\u00fana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHva\u00f0 \u00e1ttu vi\u00f0 me\u00f0 a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 Nikki ver\u00f0um br\u00e1tt ver\u00f0um-aldrei<\/em> e\u00f0a raunveruleiki?\u201c spyr \u00e9g AnnaStesia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eJ\u00fa, sj\u00e1\u00f0u til. \u00dea\u00f0 er b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 fella \u00far gildi \u00farskur\u00f0inn. Nikki Jackson \u00e6tti a\u00f0 ganga laus br\u00e1tt og vera frj\u00e1ls alveg \u00fear til einhver saks\u00f3knari \u00e1kve\u00f0ur a\u00f0 reyna aftur e\u00f0a \u00feegar Nikki byrjar a\u00f0 drepa fleiri. Heldur\u00f0u a\u00f0 h\u00fan stingi n\u00e6sta f\u00f3rnarlamb sjaldnar e\u00f0a oftar? Kannski sk\u00fdtur h\u00fan vi\u00f0komandi fj\u00f6rut\u00edu sinnum \u00ed sta\u00f0inn?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Felldur \u00far gildi? \u00c9g vissi bara a\u00f0 verjandi Nikki Jackson reyndi a\u00f0 au\u00f0gast \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 gefa \u00fat b\u00f3k um hana, \u00fear sem hann fullyr\u00f0ir a\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 b\u00e6\u00f0i si\u00f0blind og versta manneskja sem hann hafi nokkurn t\u00edmann kynnst og \u00e9g vissi a\u00f0 l\u00f6gfr\u00e6\u00f0ingurinn var sviptur l\u00f6gmannsr\u00e9ttindum, en \u00fea\u00f0 sem AnnaStesia sag\u00f0i m\u00e9r n\u00fana var a\u00f0 loksins hef\u00f0i n\u00fdjum verjendum Nikki Jackson tekist a\u00f0 sannf\u00e6ra d\u00f3mara um a\u00f0 verjandi sem skrifa\u00f0i svona b\u00e6kur um skj\u00f3lst\u00e6\u00f0ing sinn v\u00e6ri ska\u00f0legur \u00feeim sama skj\u00f3lst\u00e6\u00f0ingi. Jafnframt v\u00e6ri erfitt a\u00f0 \u00e6tlast til \u00feess a\u00f0 Nikki hlyti sanngjarna umfj\u00f6llun eftir a\u00f0 \u00feessi b\u00f3k birtist einsog endanlegur \u00farskur\u00f0ur um hana. En \u00fea\u00f0 er ekki b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 s\u00fdkna hana. M\u00e1l Christopher Tracy er n\u00fana aftur \u00f3uppl\u00fdst og \u00fea\u00f0 m\u00e1 k\u00e6ra hvern sem er, hven\u00e6r sem er. M\u00e9r skilst \u00e1 AnnaStesia a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00f3 a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 megi k\u00e6ra aftur s\u00e9 \u00fea\u00f0 sjaldg\u00e6ft a\u00f0 r\u00edkisvaldi\u00f0 \u00feori a\u00f0 standa \u00ed kostna\u00f0inum vi\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 s\u00e9 au\u00f0veldara a\u00f0 kyngja sk\u00f6mminni og vona a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk gleymi bara m\u00e1linu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g sn\u00fd m\u00e9r vi\u00f0 og \u00e6pi upp yfir mig einhver hrifningar\u00f3p, \u00fev\u00ed Nikki m\u00edn er loksins a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a frj\u00e1ls og svo kemur m\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0 skemmtilega \u00e1 \u00f3vart a\u00f0 AnnaStesia, sem \u00e9g \u00e6tla\u00f0i aldrei viljandi a\u00f0 l\u00edta \u00ed augun \u00e1 en gleymdi m\u00e9r, l\u00edtur ekki \u00fat einsog kjallaramoldvarpan sem \u00e9g haf\u00f0i s\u00e9\u00f0 fyrir m\u00e9r. H\u00fan stendur fyrir ofan mig \u00ed tr\u00f6ppunum, sk\u00e6lbrosir og \u00fea\u00f0 breg\u00f0ur fyrir glampa \u00ed augum hennar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNikkiK, \u00fe\u00fa \u00feor\u00f0ir a\u00f0 l\u00edta \u00e1 mig. Hva\u00f0 n\u00e6st? F\u00e6 \u00e9g \u00f3dau\u00f0legar l\u00fdsingar \u00e1 m\u00e9r \u00ed Samf\u00e9laginu? Nei, \u00fea\u00f0 er kannski skr\u00edti\u00f0. Vi\u00f0 \u00feurfum eflaust a\u00f0 stofna okkar eigi\u00f0 samf\u00e9lag fyrir \u00fea\u00f0. Getum vi\u00f0 nota\u00f0 \u00f6nnur n\u00f6fn \u00fear samt?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c6,\u201c d\u00e6si \u00e9g, sn\u00fd m\u00e9r vi\u00f0 og held \u00e1fram a\u00f0 labba ni\u00f0ur stigann.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g var a\u00f0 gr\u00ednast, NikkiK. \u00c9g var a\u00f0 gr\u00ednast. Gangi \u00fe\u00e9r vel en mundu a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa \u00feekkir hana ekkert,\u201c heyri \u00e9g AnnaStesia endurtaka nokkrum sinnum \u00fear til \u00e9g er kominn \u00fat \u00far blokkinni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g stend einn fyrir framan blokkina og \u00edhuga hva\u00f0 n\u00fa. \u00deetta eru st\u00f3rt\u00ed\u00f0indi. Vi\u00f0, \u00e9g og Nikki Jackson, erum kannski a\u00f0 fara hittast \u00ed fyrsta sinn. Kannski. \u00c9g get ekki sko\u00f0a\u00f0 Samf\u00e9lagi\u00f0 \u00ed s\u00edmanum, man ekki lykilor\u00f0i\u00f0, og get \u00fev\u00ed ekki sta\u00f0fest \u00fea\u00f0 sem h\u00fan er a\u00f0 segja. Kannski erum vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 fara hittast. \u00c9g er ekki s\u00e1 eini sem elskar hana Nikki, \u00fe\u00f3 a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 oftast viss um a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 elskumst mest. Kannski vill h\u00fan ekki hitta mig?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 m\u00e1 aldrei vera of afgerandi \u00ed \u00e1staryfirl\u00fdsingum s\u00ednum um fanga \u00ed Samf\u00e9laginu, af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 erum oft ekki eina f\u00f3lki\u00f0 me\u00f0 sama vi\u00f0fangi\u00f0. \u00c9g er ekki s\u00e1 eini sem elskar Nikki Jackson, \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00f3 a\u00f0 \u00e9g viti a\u00f0 hva\u00f0-ef-in<\/em> m\u00edn s\u00e9u \u00feau l\u00edklegustu og st\u00e6rstu \u00fe\u00e1 getur allt eins einhver annar upplifa\u00f0 sl\u00edkt hi\u00f0 sama. Svo af vir\u00f0ingu vi\u00f0 hina eru \u00e1staryfirl\u00fdsingar um Nikki almennar, svo annar Nikki-hva\u00f0-ef-ari<\/em> geti lesi\u00f0 textann \u00fatfr\u00e1 s\u00e9r, \u00ed sta\u00f0 \u00feess a\u00f0 finna fyrir afbr\u00fd\u00f0isemi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 pirra\u00f0i mig \u00f6gn a\u00f0 AnnaStesia skyldi \u00e6pa \u00e1 mig a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feekkti ekki Nikki Jackson. \u00deetta er eitthva\u00f0 sem f\u00f3lk utan Samf\u00e9lagsins er vant a\u00f0 segja en ekki einhver sem veit hvernig Samf\u00e9lagi\u00f0 er. H\u00fan \u00e6tti a\u00f0 vita a\u00f0 \u00ed rauninni \u00feekkjumst vi\u00f0 Nikki betur en flest p\u00f6r \u00feegar \u00feau byrja saman. Flest f\u00f3lk kynnist \u00ed h\u00e1lfger\u00f0ri v\u00edmu, s\u00fdnir s\u00ednar bestu hli\u00f0ar og \u00fea\u00f0 er ekki fyrr en l\u00f6ngu seinna sem \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00fdnir \u00fe\u00e6r sl\u00e6mu. Fyrrum k\u00e6rasta Joe Becker heilla\u00f0ist eflaust ekki af manni sem ni\u00f0url\u00e6g\u00f0i hana fyrir framan vini s\u00edna, \u00feau f\u00f3ru kannski \u00e1 stefnum\u00f3t \u00fear sem h\u00fan d\u00e1\u00f0ist a\u00f0 n\u00e6stum barnslegum \u00e1huga hans \u00e1 \u00f6llu mannlegu og l\u00f6ngun hans til a\u00f0 breyta heiminum, og seinna \u00feegar hann byrja\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00f6skra \u00e1 hana fl\u00fa\u00f0i h\u00fan \u00ed \u00feessa mynd sem h\u00fan haf\u00f0i af honum \u00ed upphafi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi\u00f0 erum b\u00fain a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 elskurnar okkar undir \u00e1lagi. \u00dea\u00f0 er b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u201euploada\u201c \u00e1 YouTube \u00f6llum yfirheyrslumyndb\u00f6ndunum, me\u00f0 vandr\u00e6\u00f0alegum \u00fe\u00f6gnum og af \u00feeim sitjandi ein \u00ed herbergi skimandi \u00ed kringum sig einsog hr\u00e6ddar skepnur a\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a eftir \u00fev\u00ed sem gerist n\u00e6st. Nikki m\u00edn var svo full af adrenal\u00edni a\u00f0 \u00feegar h\u00fan var b\u00fain a\u00f0 vera ein \u00ed svol\u00edtinn t\u00edma st\u00f3\u00f0 h\u00fan \u00e1 h\u00f6ndum \u00ed yfirheyrsluherberginu. \u00cd eitt skipti f\u00f3r h\u00fan a\u00f0 syngja, og \u00ed anna\u00f0 skipti hl\u00f3 h\u00fan af engri \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u. F\u00f3lk f\u00f3r a\u00f0 tala um a\u00f0 \u00feetta v\u00e6ri s\u00f6nnun fyrir sekt hennar en \u00e9g s\u00e1 bara fallega konu breg\u00f0ast vi\u00f0 mesta \u00e1reiti sem ein manneskja getur or\u00f0i\u00f0 fyrir, \u00e1 mj\u00f6g heilbrig\u00f0an h\u00e1tt. H\u00fan hvorki b\u00e6ldi tilfinningar s\u00ednar, n\u00e9 \u00f6skra\u00f0i og lamdi. H\u00fan s\u00f6ng og hreyf\u00f0i sig, losa\u00f0i um alla umframorku \u00e1 eins \u00fe\u00e6gilegan h\u00e1tt og h\u00e6gt var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c6tli h\u00fan myndi vilja flj\u00faga til \u00cdslands? E\u00f0a \u00e6tti \u00e9g a\u00f0 flj\u00faga \u00fat til Bandar\u00edkjanna? \u00c6tli h\u00fan sendi m\u00e9r ekki br\u00e9f br\u00e1\u00f0um me\u00f0 uppl\u00fdsingum svo \u00e9g geti haft samband vi\u00f0 hana? \u00c6tli h\u00fan noti gamla s\u00edman\u00fameri\u00f0 sitt sem \u00e9g er ekki me\u00f0 e\u00f0a f\u00e1i s\u00e9r n\u00fdtt? Hva\u00f0 me\u00f0 email? Vill ma\u00f0ur halda \u00ed sama emaili\u00f0 sitt? \u00c9g f\u00e6 stundum spam fr\u00e1 fullri fyrrverandi k\u00e6rustu sem vill minna mig \u00e1 hva\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 lei\u00f0inlegur og \u00f3spennandi maki, en \u00e9g get ekki \u00edmynda\u00f0 m\u00e9r hva\u00f0 f\u00f3lk sem legi\u00f0 hefur undir grun um a\u00f0 vera mor\u00f0ingi f\u00e6r miki\u00f0 af spammi. Hvort \u00e6tli s\u00e9 verra, f\u00f3lki\u00f0 sem h\u00fa\u00f0skammar mann e\u00f0a f\u00f3lki\u00f0 sem er forviti\u00f0?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Er ekki erfitt a\u00f0 stinga f\u00f3lk? Datt \u00fe\u00e9r aldrei \u00ed hug a\u00f0 b\u00fata l\u00edki\u00f0 \u00ed sundur, leggja \u00ed ba\u00f0kar, tappa bl\u00f3\u00f0inu af og fela partana v\u00ed\u00f0svegar um fylki\u00f0 \u00ed sta\u00f0inn fyrir a\u00f0 skilja l\u00edki\u00f0 bara svona eftir \u00ed heilu lagi?<\/em> \u00dea\u00f0 er l\u00edklegast miklu betra a\u00f0 vera h\u00fa\u00f0skamma\u00f0ur fyrir eitthva\u00f0 sem ma\u00f0ur tekur ekki inn\u00e1 sig en a\u00f0 f\u00e1 svona \u00f3ge\u00f0slega \u00e1hugamenn me\u00f0 einkennilegar athugasemdir. \u00de\u00fa ert \u00f3ge\u00f0. \u00de\u00fa ert ekki manneskja einsog vi\u00f0 hin. Si\u00f0blinda sv\u00edni\u00f0 \u00feitt.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g \u00feori ekki heim strax. Veit ekki hva\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00e1 a\u00f0 segja vi\u00f0 hina \u00ed Samf\u00e9laginu e\u00f0a Nikki ef h\u00fan hefur reynt a\u00f0 n\u00e1 \u00ed mig \u00fear. \u00c6tli h\u00fan viti af Samf\u00e9laginu? Missir h\u00fan \u00e1hugann \u00e1 m\u00e9r ef h\u00fan s\u00e9r Samf\u00e9lagi\u00f0 og allt sem \u00e9g hef skrifa\u00f0? Myndi \u00e9g \u00feora a\u00f0 fara til Bandar\u00edkjanna ef h\u00fan b\u00e6\u00f0i mig um \u00fea\u00f0? \u00c1 \u00e9g ekki bara eftir a\u00f0 segja eitthva\u00f0 sem skemmir augnabliki\u00f0 \u00feegar vi\u00f0 erum ein \u00e1 afskekktum sta\u00f0 a\u00f0 tr\u00falofa okkur og atvinnulj\u00f3smyndarinn smellir mynd af okkur og \u00e9g \u00e6pi \u201eSKELLTU SVO MYNDAV\u00c9LINNI BARA \u00cd \u00deVOTT,\u201c svona einsog einhverjum geti \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fea\u00f0 fyndi\u00f0, h\u00fan me\u00f0 augnar\u00e1\u00f0 einsog h\u00fan g\u00e6ti myrt mig. Einsog. Kannski er aldrei neitt einsog. Kannski er \u00feetta allt bara. \u00dea\u00f0 er einsog \u00fea\u00f0 er.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g er bara einsamall ma\u00f0ur, f\u00f3tgangandi, eftir a\u00f0 hafa m\u00f3\u00f0ga\u00f0 heilan s\u00f6fnu\u00f0 af sp\u00edritistum og eitt stykki konu. \u00deessi kona var s\u00fa fyrsta sem heilsa\u00f0i m\u00e9r utan Samf\u00e9lagsins \u00ed m\u00f6rg \u00e1r. \u00c9g er ma\u00f0ur. Einsamall en \u00e1stfanginn. Hr\u00e6ddur en hef aldrei veri\u00f0 \u00f6ruggari um hva\u00f0 \u00e9g vil, held \u00e9g. \u00d3\u00f6ruggur innan um f\u00f3lk og sta\u00f0fastur \u00ed vissu um a\u00f0 \u00e9g eigi ekkert erindi innan um \u00fea\u00f0, \u00e9g er \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g er. Afhverju \u00e6tti Nikki a\u00f0 finnast spennandi a\u00f0 hanga me\u00f0 manni einsog m\u00e9r? Christopher Tracy, fyrrum k\u00e6rasti hennar, var s\u00f6luma\u00f0ur. Hann gat \u00f6rugglega fari\u00f0 \u00e1 sp\u00edritistafundi og selt \u00feeim l\u00f3 \u00far v\u00f6sum s\u00ednum og sagt \u00fea\u00f0 vera bl\u00f3\u00f0berg sem hann t\u00fdndi sj\u00e1lfur \u00ed Bolab\u00e1s. Og \u00feau hef\u00f0u fleygt \u00ed hann se\u00f0lum, kortum og be\u00f0i\u00f0 hann um a\u00f0 koma aftur. \u00c9g er bara einsog \u00e9g er. Afhverju \u00e6tti Nikki a\u00f0 vilja hanga me\u00f0 m\u00e9r?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00c9g geng \u00e1fram og reyni a\u00f0 hugsa ekki of miki\u00f0 hvert e\u00f0a afhverju. Horfi eins miki\u00f0 upp\u00ed himinninn og \u00e9g get, l\u00edt \u00f6rsn\u00f6ggt \u00e1 g\u00f6tuna \u00feegar \u00e9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 ganga yfir hana en reyni a\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0ru leyti a\u00f0 lei\u00f0a allt hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r \u2014 anna\u00f0 f\u00f3lk, b\u00edla, \u00f6rnefni. Allt \u00ed einu er \u00e9g staddur fyrir utan BS\u00cd og s\u00e9 h\u00f3p fer\u00f0amanna. Huglei\u00f0i a\u00f0 ganga \u00ed a\u00f0ra \u00e1tt en \u00e1kve\u00f0 a\u00f0 ganga \u00ed \u00e1ttina a\u00f0 einum sem stendur einn og reykir s\u00edgarettu, til a\u00f0 betla eina. \u00c9g hef ekki reykt \u00ed fj\u00f6lm\u00f6rg \u00e1r en m\u00e9r finnst einsog n\u00fana s\u00e9 r\u00e9tta augnabliki\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eErtu a\u00f0 fara taka r\u00fatuna upp\u00e1 flugv\u00f6ll?\u201c spyr \u00e9g. Hann j\u00e1tar \u00fev\u00ed. \u201eHeldur\u00f0u a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa komir hinga\u00f0 nokkurn t\u00edmann aftur?\u201c Nei, \u00fea\u00f0 heldur hann ekki. \u201e\u00c9g er svo \u00e1stfanginn\u201c segi \u00e9g. \u201eTil hamingju,\u201c segir hann. \u201eNei, \u00fe\u00fa misskilur, \u00e9g er samt svo einn og eir\u00f0arlaus og alls ekki gla\u00f0ur.\u201c Hann ypptir \u00f6xlum, hendir fr\u00e1 s\u00e9r s\u00edgarettunni og l\u00edtur \u00ed kringum sig. M\u00e9r finnst einsog \u00e9g ver\u00f0i a\u00f0 segja eitthva\u00f0 krassandi svo hann fari ekki strax.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eK\u00e6rastan m\u00edn er d\u00e6mdur mor\u00f0ingi.\u201c Hann starir \u00e1 mig, kinkar kolli, og kveikir s\u00e9r \u00ed annarri s\u00edgarettu. \u201eM\u00e9r finnst \u00e9g ekki hafa skili\u00f0 neina manneskju einsog hana \u2026 \u00e9g skelf oft \u00feegar \u00e9g m\u00e6ti \u00f6\u00f0ru f\u00f3lki en \u00e9g \u00feekki hana \u00fat og inn, \u00fea\u00f0 er ekkert vi\u00f0 hana sem g\u00e6ti komi\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00e1 \u00f3vart, engin bylmingsh\u00f6gg allt \u00ed einu einsog \u00e9g \u00f3ttast fr\u00e1 \u00f6\u00f0ru f\u00f3lki. H\u00fan Nikki er allskonar og allt en ekkert g\u00e6ti komi\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00e1 \u00f3vart.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eEkki misskilja mig, \u00e9g veit a\u00f0 \u00e9g er \u00f3\u00feolandi. \u00dea\u00f0 er eitthva\u00f0 gruggugt vi\u00f0 \u00e1runa m\u00edna, h\u00fan er \u00ed moldarlitum einsog torfb\u00e6ir og \u00edslenska sau\u00f0kindin, \u00e1 me\u00f0an \u00fei\u00f0 hin eru\u00f0 allt litr\u00f3fi\u00f0. F\u00f3lk er \u00f6rugglega almennt gott en \u00fea\u00f0 er eitthva\u00f0 l\u00fdjandi vi\u00f0 orkuna m\u00edna sem reynir \u00e1 allt og alla og \u00fea\u00f0 er f\u00f3lki e\u00f0lisl\u00e6gt a\u00f0 breg\u00f0ast vi\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed og \u00fdta fr\u00e1 s\u00e9r. \u00c9g \u00fearf \u00f6rugglega ekkert a\u00f0 telja upp alla m\u00edna vankanta fyrir \u00fe\u00e9r, \u00fe\u00fa skilur, \u00feeir eru nokku\u00f0 auglj\u00f3sir.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hann lyftir augabr\u00fanunum. Str\u00fdkur um skegg sitt. Klemmir varirnar um s\u00edgarettuna og setur hendurnar \u00ed vasana \u00e1 gallabuxunum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eOg \u00fea\u00f0 er loks n\u00fana sem \u00fea\u00f0 vir\u00f0ist vera a\u00f0 gerast a\u00f0 h\u00fan, elsku Nikki m\u00edn, sleppur \u00far pr\u00edsundinni og vi\u00f0 getum veri\u00f0 saman, og \u00e9g er b\u00fainn a\u00f0 semja svo m\u00f6rg samt\u00f6l sem vi\u00f0 getum \u00e1tt saman sem loksins f\u00e1 a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a a\u00f0 raunveruleika.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hann hendir fr\u00e1 s\u00e9r s\u00edgarettunni. R\u00fatan er komin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eEr h\u00fan saklaus?\u201c spyr hann.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g veit \u00fea\u00f0 ekki en m\u00e9r er fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 finnast a\u00f0 kannski s\u00e9 betra a\u00f0 gera eitthva\u00f0 raunverulega af s\u00e9r og b\u00e6ta fyrir \u00fea\u00f0 en a\u00f0 vera me\u00f0 sektarkennd yfir einhverju \u00f3lj\u00f3su alla \u00e6vi \u2014 kannski er betra fyrir okkur b\u00e6\u00f0i a\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 sek.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hann s\u00fdnir engin vi\u00f0br\u00f6g\u00f0, starir \u00e1 mig \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 blikka augunum \u00ed sm\u00e1stund, \u00f3skar m\u00e9r g\u00f3\u00f0s gengis og gengur burt. \u201eJ\u00e1, takk fyrir \u00fea\u00f0 og gangi \u00fe\u00e9r vel s\u00f6mulei\u00f0is\u201c segi \u00e9g nokkrum sinnum, meira a\u00f0 segja eftir a\u00f0 hann st\u00edgur \u00ed r\u00fatuna. \u201eJ\u00e1, takk fyrir og gangi \u00fe\u00e9r vel s\u00f6mulei\u00f0is,\u201c segi \u00e9g nokkrum sinnum \u00e1 me\u00f0an \u00e9g horfi \u00e1 r\u00fatuna keyra \u00e1 brott.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0ir ekki a\u00f0 for\u00f0ast heimili\u00f0 mitt a\u00f0 eil\u00edfu. \u00c9g ver\u00f0 a\u00f0 st\u00edga \u00feanga\u00f0 inn. \u00c9g b\u00fd talsvert fr\u00e1 BS\u00cd en geng samt alla lei\u00f0ina og hugsa hvort \u00e9g s\u00e9 \u00feess ver\u00f0ugur a\u00f0 vera k\u00e6rasti Nikki Jackson. \u00dea\u00f0 eru svo \u00f3tal margir a\u00f0rir sem hafa sagst elska hana og hafa gert meira til a\u00f0 f\u00e1 hana frj\u00e1lsa en \u00e9g. \u00c6tli h\u00fan h\u00e6\u00f0ist a\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00feegar h\u00fan s\u00e9r alla lei\u00f0beiningab\u00e6klingana sem \u00e9g skrifa \u00ed vinnunni? Nikki m\u00edn, ekki \u00f6skra \u00e1 mig, \u00e9g skal reyna a\u00f0 vera skemmtilegur! Nikki m\u00edn, manstu \u00e9g er \u00fe\u00edn gu\u00f0sgj\u00f6f \u2014 einmitt og \u00e1l\u00edka spennandi einsog steint\u00f6flur M\u00f3ses, rotar mann \u00far lei\u00f0indum. Og vi\u00f0 liggjum og horfum \u00e1 Netflix og \u00e9g \u00feykist sofa svo \u00e9g \u00feurfi ekki a\u00f0 svara allri h\u00e6\u00f0ninni. I’m sorry miss Jackson, \u00fe\u00fa ert s\u00fa fallegasta sem \u00e9g hef kynnst og \u00e9g er svo gla\u00f0ur a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hafir vali\u00f0 a\u00f0 ey\u00f0a frelsinu me\u00f0 m\u00e9r en vi\u00f0 ver\u00f0um bara a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta a\u00f0 tala saman og for\u00f0ast augnsamband.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Er kominn heim og \u00fea\u00f0 er komi\u00f0 n\u00fdtt br\u00e9f inn um l\u00faguna fr\u00e1 Nikki Jackson. \u00dea\u00f0 er stuttur \u00fatprenta\u00f0ur texti \u00fear sem m\u00e9r er \u00feakka\u00f0 fyrir \u00e1huga og stu\u00f0ning vi\u00f0 samt\u00f6kin Frelsum Nikki Jackson<\/em> og svo stendur TEAM NIKKI GETUR ALLT \u00ed h\u00e1st\u00f6fum og nafni\u00f0 hennar er handskrifa\u00f0 ne\u00f0st. \u00c9g geng a\u00f0 stofuglugganum og horfi \u00fat skamma stund. \u00dea\u00f0 er fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 vora. Tek bollann \u00far gluggakistunni og legg \u00ed eldh\u00fasvaskinn. Horfi svo \u00e1 kassana \u00e1 ganginum og huglei\u00f0i hvern \u00e9g \u00e6tti a\u00f0 opna fyrst.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

lommi Gu\u00f0, vertu m\u00e9r n\u00e1\u00f0ugur sakir elsku \u00feinnar,afm\u00e1 brot m\u00edn sakir \u00feinnar miklu miskunnsemi.S\u00e1lmarnir A\u00f0 vera d\u00e6md fyrir mor\u00f0 er ekki bara refsing heldur l\u00edka fyrirt\u00e6ki sem \u00fearf a\u00f0 halda utan um og \u00fea\u00f0 er h\u00e1lf \u00f3m\u00f6gulegt a\u00f0 sinna \u00fev\u00ed ein inni \u00ed fangelsi. Nikki Jackson er gift kona en eins og h\u00fan hefur \u00fatsk\u00fdrt […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-507","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/507","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=507"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/507\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":545,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/507\/revisions\/545"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=507"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}