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H\u00f3lmfr\u00ed\u00f0ur Helga Sigur\u00f0ard\u00f3ttir<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
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El\u00edn er ekki til.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cd hvert sinn sem vi\u00f0 g\u00f6ngum \u00fat \u00far blokkinni minnist Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g segist aldrei vita um hva\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 a\u00f0 tala, a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feekki enga El\u00ednu. \u00de\u00e1 brosir Gu\u00f0n\u00fd og blikkar. \u00deetta er eins og vel \u00e6f\u00f0ur dans, en \u00e9g passa samt alltaf a\u00f0 l\u00edta upp \u00ed stofugluggann hennar til a\u00f0 fullvissa mig um a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 ekki a\u00f0 \u00edmynda m\u00e9r. Stundum stendur El\u00edn \u00fear og reykir, en oftast s\u00e9 \u00e9g ekkert og get ekki veri\u00f0 viss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deetta er annar veturinn sem vi\u00f0 systurnar f\u00f6rum reglulega til El\u00ednar. \u00de\u00e6r Gu\u00f0n\u00fd hafa fylgst a\u00f0 s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00fe\u00e6r voru litlar, en n\u00fa er El\u00edn veik og vi\u00f0 \u00feurfum a\u00f0 hj\u00e1lpa henni. \u00c9g hef nokkrum sinnum spurt hvernig h\u00fan s\u00e9 veik, hvort h\u00fan \u00feurfi ekki a\u00f0 fara til l\u00e6knis, en Gu\u00f0n\u00fd segist ekki geta \u00fatsk\u00fdrt \u00fea\u00f0. Segir bara a\u00f0 henni muni batna, en henni er enn ekki batna\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cdb\u00fa\u00f0in er \u00e1 fj\u00f3r\u00f0u h\u00e6\u00f0 \u00ed blokk, sem samkv\u00e6mt El\u00ednu er vi\u00f0eigandi. Fj\u00f3r\u00f0a h\u00e6\u00f0 s\u00e9 n\u00f3gu h\u00e1tt uppi til a\u00f0 vita af \u00fats\u00fdninu, en ekki n\u00f3gu h\u00e1tt til a\u00f0 nj\u00f3ta \u00feess. Oftast liggur h\u00fan hvort e\u00f0 er bara \u00ed r\u00faminu, me\u00f0 dregi\u00f0 fyrir og \u00f6ll lj\u00f3s sl\u00f6kkt. Gu\u00f0n\u00fd byrjar flestar heims\u00f3knir \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 draga gluggatj\u00f6ldin fr\u00e1, opna glugga og glenna upp lj\u00f3sin, \u00e1\u00f0ur en h\u00fan ra\u00f0ar matv\u00f6ru \u00ed \u00edssk\u00e1pinn og byrjar a\u00f0 \u00fer\u00edfa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar h\u00fan er vakandi og \u00e1 f\u00f3tum, er El\u00edn samt hress og vi\u00f0 spilum oft \u00d3lsen \u00e1 me\u00f0an Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u00feyrlast um \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0ina, tekur til og \u00fer\u00edfur. Inn \u00e1 milli hristir El\u00edn h\u00f6fu\u00f0i\u00f0 og tuldrar a\u00f0 h\u00fan skilji ekki hvers vegna Gu\u00f0n\u00fd geti ekki bara leyft s\u00e9r a\u00f0 drepast \u00ed fri\u00f0i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eErtu a\u00f0 deyja?\u201c spyr \u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

El\u00edn l\u00edtur hvasst \u00e1 mig og segir \u201eVi\u00f0 drepumst \u00f6ll \u00e1 endanum. \u00de\u00fa l\u00edka.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g er t\u00f3lf og hef alveg p\u00e6lt \u00ed dau\u00f0anum, bara ekki \u00ed svona beinu samhengi vi\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfa mig. \u00c9g veit alveg a\u00f0 heimurinn mun farast einhvern t\u00edmann og m\u00e9r finnst tilhugsunin um a\u00f0 allir muni deyja yfir\u00feyrmandi. Mun verri tilhugsun en minn eigin dau\u00f0i. Svo \u00e9g endurtek ekki spurninguna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

El\u00edn er hv\u00f6ss a\u00f0 \u00f6llu leyti. Bein standa \u00fat \u00fear sem \u00e6tti a\u00f0 vera mj\u00fakt. \u00c1 mj\u00f6\u00f0munum, bringunni, \u00ed andlitinu. Kinnbeinin eins og axarbl\u00f6\u00f0, sem \u00fdkjast \u00feegar h\u00fan reykir. \u00deegar maturinn \u00ed \u00edssk\u00e1pnum er allur mygla\u00f0ur, \u00ferj\u00e1r heims\u00f3knir \u00ed r\u00f6\u00f0, sendir Gu\u00f0n\u00fd mig \u00fat \u00ed sjoppu a\u00f0 kaupa Royal b\u00fa\u00f0ing og rj\u00f3ma. Svo hr\u00e6rir h\u00fan \u00ed b\u00fa\u00f0ing og reynir a\u00f0 f\u00e1 El\u00ednu til a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a, en El\u00edn situr bara me\u00f0 krosslag\u00f0ar hendur og klemmir aftur varirnar, sem ver\u00f0a a\u00f0 litlu striki. \u00cd hvert skipti sem skei\u00f0in n\u00e1lgast sn\u00fdr h\u00fan s\u00e9r undan svo b\u00fa\u00f0ingurinn endar \u00e1 kinnum e\u00f0a h\u00f6ku og lekur ni\u00f0ur \u00e1 bringu. A\u00f0 lokum gefst Gu\u00f0n\u00fd upp \u00e1 \u00feessum leik, fer me\u00f0 sk\u00e1lina a\u00f0 vaskinum og skolar hana. M\u00e9r finnst skr\u00fdti\u00f0 a\u00f0 hafa einu sinni fundist El\u00edn st\u00f3r, \u00feessi litla hvassa kona, sem l\u00edtur \u00fat eins og blanda af fyrirs\u00e6tu og \u00f3\u00feekkum krakka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fan hefur alltaf veri\u00f0 me\u00f0 s\u00edtt h\u00e1r, \u00feykkt og glansandi, en klippir \u00fea\u00f0 af eina n\u00f3ttina. Daginn eftir, \u00feegar vi\u00f0 Gu\u00f0n\u00fd komum, eru h\u00e1rlokkar \u00e1 v\u00ed\u00f0 og dreif og El\u00edn b\u00fain a\u00f0 l\u00e6sa sig inni \u00e1 ba\u00f0i. Sem betur fer er h\u00e6gt a\u00f0 sn\u00faa l\u00e1sinn upp utan fr\u00e1, sem Gu\u00f0n\u00fd gerir me\u00f0 smj\u00f6rhn\u00edf. El\u00edn liggur \u00ed myrkrinu, \u00ed \u00f6llum f\u00f6tunum, \u00ed t\u00f3mu ba\u00f0karinu. Af og til f\u00e6rist gl\u00f3\u00f0 af s\u00edgarettu upp og ni\u00f0ur. \u00cd lj\u00f3sr\u00f6ndinni, sem fellur inn \u00e1 ba\u00f0herbergi\u00f0 af ganginum, s\u00e9 \u00e9g hvar nokkrir s\u00ed\u00f0ir lokkar hanga enn \u00e1 h\u00f6f\u00f0inu. \u00c1 ba\u00f0karsbr\u00faninni glampar \u00e1 eitthva\u00f0 blautt og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd hv\u00e6sir a\u00f0 \u00e9g eigi a\u00f0 fara fram eins og skot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g sest \u00ed s\u00f3fann og reyni a\u00f0 tala vi\u00f0 Gu\u00f0, en fer bara a\u00f0 efast um a\u00f0 hann geti hj\u00e1lpa\u00f0 El\u00ednu. \u00c9g vil ekki ver\u00f0a lei\u00f0, svo \u00e9g kveiki \u00e1 sj\u00f3nvarpinu og n\u00e6 fyrstu m\u00edn\u00fatunum af Melrose Place, \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00fea\u00f0 ruglast. \u00de\u00e1 tek \u00e9g hlj\u00f3\u00f0i\u00f0 af og stari \u00e1 \u00f3greinileg formin \u00e1 skj\u00e1num, \u00edmynda m\u00e9r a\u00f0 allir s\u00e9u gla\u00f0ir og reyni a\u00f0 lei\u00f0a hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r or\u00f0askiptin sem \u00e9g heyri a\u00f0 eiga s\u00e9r sta\u00f0 inni \u00e1 ba\u00f0herbergi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 er l\u00f6ngu or\u00f0i\u00f0 dimmt \u00fati \u00feegar \u00fe\u00e6r koma fram. Lokkarnir eru farnir af h\u00f6f\u00f0inu \u00e1 El\u00ednu og komnir \u00ed hendurnar \u00e1 Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju, sem heldur \u00e1 sk\u00e6runum. H\u00fan fer beint inn \u00ed eldh\u00fasi\u00f0 og byrjar a\u00f0 r\u00edfa upp \u00far sk\u00faffum, en El\u00edn er hress og spyr hvort m\u00e9r finnist n\u00fdja klippingin ekki bara flott. \u00c9g svara a\u00f0 m\u00e9r finnist h\u00fan svol\u00edti\u00f0 l\u00edk Sin\u00e9ad O\u2019Connor. H\u00fan brosir og segist vera \u00e1n\u00e6g\u00f0 me\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 saml\u00edkingu, \u00fev\u00ed h\u00fan hati p\u00e1fann l\u00edka. H\u00fan er me\u00f0 st\u00f3ran pl\u00e1stur \u00e1 h\u00e1lsinum og annan \u00ed h\u00e6gri olnbogab\u00f3tinni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar vi\u00f0 g\u00f6ngum \u00fat hringla allir hn\u00edfarnir \u00ed t\u00f6skunni hennar Gu\u00f0n\u00fdjar. \u00cd speglinum \u00ed lyftunni s\u00e9 \u00e9g hva\u00f0 h\u00fan er rau\u00f0 um augun og hv\u00edt \u00e1 hn\u00faunum, fingurnir krepptir um sk\u00e6rin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fyrst, \u00feegar \u00e9g hitti \u00c1g\u00fastu, fannst m\u00e9r merkilegt a\u00f0 gamlar konur g\u00e6tu veri\u00f0 me\u00f0 sp\u00e9koppa, en svo komst \u00e9g a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 fimmtugt f\u00f3lk er ekkert svakalega gamalt, \u00fe\u00f3 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 me\u00f0 gr\u00e1tt h\u00e1r. \u00c1g\u00fasta kemur reglulega til El\u00ednar, eins og vi\u00f0. H\u00fan segir a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 hluti af vinnunni sinni sem f\u00e9lagsr\u00e1\u00f0gjafi. Vi\u00f0 spilum stundum, ef El\u00edn neitar a\u00f0 koma fram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eH\u00fan er alveg \u00fever,\u201c segir Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u00feegar h\u00fan kemur \u00fat \u00far svefnherberginu. H\u00fan p\u00edrir augun um lei\u00f0 og h\u00fan kemur inn \u00ed bjarta stofuna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00deetta kemur, vittu til,\u201c segir \u00c1g\u00fasta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u00e6tlar a\u00f0 halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 taka til \u00feegar \u00c1g\u00fasta spyr hvort h\u00fan hafi ekkert velt fyrir s\u00e9r a\u00f0 halda \u00e1fram \u00ed sk\u00f3la.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g get hj\u00e1lpa\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r a\u00f0 s\u00e6kja um \u00ed kv\u00f6ldsk\u00f3la \u00ed Hamrahl\u00ed\u00f0inni,\u201c segir h\u00fan og brosir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNei takk,\u201c segir Gu\u00f0n\u00fd og brosir ekki til baka.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHugsa\u00f0u m\u00e1li\u00f0 vinan, \u00fea\u00f0 liggur ekkert \u00e1,\u201c svarar \u00c1g\u00fasta en b\u00e6tir svo vi\u00f0:\u00a0\u201e\u00c6, \u00e9g er bara g\u00f6mul rau\u00f0sokka. M\u00e9r finnst svo mikilv\u00e6gt a\u00f0 hvetja ungar konur a\u00f0 mennta sig og vera sj\u00e1lfst\u00e6\u00f0ar.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNei takk,\u201c endurtekur Gu\u00f0n\u00fd, tekur tuskur og rau\u00f0a sk\u00faringaf\u00f6tu og l\u00e6sir sig inni \u00e1 ba\u00f0i. \u00c1g\u00fasta horfir \u00e1 eftir henni en spyr mig svo hva\u00f0 mig langi a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a \u00feegar \u00e9g ver\u00f0 st\u00f3r. \u00c9g segist ekki vita \u00fea\u00f0, \u00e9g hef aldrei s\u00e9\u00f0 tilganginn \u00ed a\u00f0 p\u00e6la svo langt. Mig langar samt kannski a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a flugfreyja e\u00f0a kennari.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er allt h\u00e6gt, Ald\u00eds m\u00edn,\u201c segir \u00c1g\u00fasta glettin.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eEkki allt,\u201c segi \u00e9g, \u201eEl\u00edn \u00e6tla\u00f0i a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a myndlistarkona.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g veit ekki betur en a\u00f0 h\u00fan \u00e6tli s\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0 enn\u00fe\u00e1,\u201c svarar h\u00fan og blikkar mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c1 lei\u00f0inni heim talar Gu\u00f0n\u00fd um a\u00f0 h\u00fan \u00feoli ekki \u00c1g\u00fastu. Segir a\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 afskiptas\u00f6m g\u00f6mul kerling. \u00c9g bendi henni \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00c1g\u00fasta s\u00e9 bara um fimmtugt, sem er ekkert svakalega gamalt, \u00fe\u00f3 h\u00fan s\u00e9 me\u00f0 gr\u00e1tt h\u00e1r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar \u00e9g var \u00ed \u00f6\u00f0rum bekk voru vinab\u00e6kur vins\u00e6lar og nokkrar stelpur \u00ed sk\u00f3lanum b\u00e1\u00f0u mig a\u00f0 skrifa \u00ed b\u00e6kurnar s\u00ednar. Mig langa\u00f0i svo miki\u00f0 \u00ed svona b\u00f3k og \u00e1kva\u00f0 a\u00f0 b\u00faa til m\u00edna eigin. \u00c9g nota\u00f0i Cheerios-kassa sem k\u00e1pu, hefta\u00f0i bl\u00f6\u00f0 innan \u00ed, skrifa\u00f0i spurningar og ger\u00f0i l\u00ednur me\u00f0 reglustiku. \u00c9g vanda\u00f0i mig miki\u00f0 og gleymdi m\u00e9r lengi vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 skreyta fors\u00ed\u00f0una.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 var ekki fyrr El\u00edn gekk framhj\u00e1 herberginu m\u00ednu og spur\u00f0i hva\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 gera, a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00e1tta\u00f0i mig \u00e1 mist\u00f6kunum. \u00c9g reyndi a\u00f0 leggja handlegginn yfir b\u00f3kina, en var of sein og f\u00f3r a\u00f0 sk\u00e6la. El\u00edn strauk m\u00e9r um h\u00e1ri\u00f0 og \u00feurrka\u00f0i burt t\u00e1rin, sag\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00feetta v\u00e6ri n\u00fa ekkert st\u00f3rm\u00e1l. Svo spur\u00f0i h\u00fan mig hvort h\u00fan m\u00e6tti ekki hj\u00e1lpa til vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 kl\u00e1ra b\u00f3kina, sem \u00e9g gladdist yfir, \u00fev\u00ed h\u00fan var svo flink a\u00f0 teikna. Vi\u00f0 teiknu\u00f0um saman falleg bl\u00f3m sem fylltu fors\u00ed\u00f0una, svo engin gat s\u00e9\u00f0 a\u00f0 undir \u00feeim st\u00f3\u00f0 Vinkonur m\u00ednar<\/em>. \u00cd horni\u00f0, \u00fear sem engin bl\u00f3m voru, skrifa\u00f0i El\u00edn me\u00f0 skrautskrift, Sk\u00f3laf\u00e9lagar m\u00ednir<\/em>. \u00c9g \u00feakka\u00f0i henni fyrir hj\u00e1lpina, sag\u00f0ist vera rosa \u00e1n\u00e6g\u00f0 og henti svo b\u00f3kinni \u00ed rusli\u00f0 daginn eftir. Bl\u00f3min voru falleg, en b\u00f3kin var \u00f3n\u00fdt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi\u00f0 El\u00edn sitjum vi\u00f0 eldh\u00fasbor\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00e1 me\u00f0an Gu\u00f0n\u00fd fer eins og stormsveipur um \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0ina.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHeyr\u00f0u,\u201c segir h\u00fan allt \u00ed einu, \u201eer ekki fimmt\u00e1ndi \u00ed dag?\u201c og r\u00fdkur \u00e1 f\u00e6tur. H\u00fan r\u00f3tar \u00ed eldh\u00fassk\u00faffunum, tu\u00f0ar og finnur a\u00f0 lokum l\u00edtinn eldsp\u00fdtustokk. Svo sest h\u00fan \u00e1 m\u00f3ti m\u00e9r, horfir st\u00edft \u00e1 mig og segir: \u201e\u00c9g \u00e1 ekkert kerti, svo \u00feetta ver\u00f0ur a\u00f0 duga.\u201c H\u00fan kveikir \u00e1 \u00feremur eldsp\u00fdtum \u00ed einu og syngur fyrir mig. \u00c9g stari \u00e1 logann, finn hvernig hitinn hleypur \u00fat \u00ed kinnarnar og veit ekkert hvernig \u00e9g \u00e1 a\u00f0 vera, svo \u00e9g horfi bara \u00e1 t\u00e6rnar \u00e1 okkur. El\u00edn gr\u00edpur undir h\u00f6kuna \u00e1 m\u00e9r, kyssir mig \u00e1 b\u00e1\u00f0ar kinnar og fa\u00f0mar mig fast. \u00c9g gr\u00edp \u00f3sj\u00e1lfr\u00e1tt um her\u00f0abl\u00f6\u00f0in sem stingast \u00fat \u00far bakinu \u00e1 henni, eins og leifar af v\u00e6ngjum sem hafa veri\u00f0 klipptir af.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00e9r finnst El\u00edn heyra \u00ed m\u00e9r \u00e1 annan h\u00e1tt en a\u00f0rir, h\u00fan raunverulega hlustar. H\u00fan lokar augunum, eins og h\u00fan vilji \u00fatiloka allt nema r\u00f6ddina m\u00edna \u00e1 me\u00f0an \u00e9g tala. Eins og \u00fea\u00f0 eina sem skipti m\u00e1li \u00fe\u00e1 stundina s\u00e9 \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g hef a\u00f0 segja. H\u00fan gr\u00edpur aldrei fram \u00ed fyrir m\u00e9r e\u00f0a segir m\u00e9r hva\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00e1 a\u00f0 finnast, heldur kinkar bara kolli og reykir me\u00f0 loku\u00f0 augun \u00e1 me\u00f0an \u00e9g tala. Tala og tala. \u00c9g segi henni fr\u00e1 sk\u00f3lanum, hva\u00f0 m\u00e9r finnst oft erfitt a\u00f0 umgangast hina krakkana og hva\u00f0 \u00e9g hata h\u00f3pverkefni og \u00ed\u00fer\u00f3ttir miki\u00f0. H\u00fan er samm\u00e1la m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 hr\u00e6\u00f0ilegt a\u00f0 vera \u00ferett\u00e1n \u00e1ra stelpa.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eVeistu, \u00fea\u00f0 er alveg s\u00e9rstaklega vi\u00f0bj\u00f3\u00f0slegt a\u00f0 s\u00e9um vi\u00f0 neyddar til a\u00f0 taka \u00fe\u00e1tt \u00ed eigin afmennskun. \u00dea\u00f0 byrjar um lei\u00f0 og vi\u00f0 f\u00e1um brj\u00f3st og ver\u00f0ur bara meira og meira, alveg \u00feanga\u00f0 til vi\u00f0 drepumst. \u00deetta samf\u00e9lag hatar konur!\u201c hr\u00f3par h\u00fan og hristir h\u00f6fu\u00f0i\u00f0.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gu\u00f0n\u00fd er a\u00f0 \u00fer\u00edfa stofugluggana en stoppar og segir: \u201e\u00c6 El\u00edn, \u00feetta er n\u00fa ekki alveg r\u00e9tt. Er \u00feetta ekki \u00f3\u00fearfi?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00d3\u00fearfi?\u201c hnussar El\u00edn og \u00fea\u00f0 er eins og \u00f6rlitlum skugga breg\u00f0i fyrir andliti\u00f0. \u201eManstu \u00feegar vi\u00f0 vorum \u00ferett\u00e1n og \u00fe\u00fa fannst appels\u00ednuh\u00fa\u00f0ina \u00e1 l\u00e6rinu eftir sundt\u00edma og f\u00f3rst a\u00f0 grenja?\u201c segir h\u00fan svo eftir sm\u00e1 stund. \u201e\u00c9g hugga\u00f0i \u00feig, en var svo me\u00f0 samviskubit \u00ed marga daga. Lei\u00f0 eins og \u00e9g v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 lj\u00faga a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g sag\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri l\u00edka lei\u00f0. En veistu Gu\u00f0n\u00fd, \u00e9g var ekkert lei\u00f0, heldur sj\u00faklega \u00e1n\u00e6g\u00f0, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g vissi a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri b\u00fain a\u00f0 vinna.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eVinna hva\u00f0?\u201c spyr Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u201e\u00fea\u00f0 var aldrei nein keppni.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eEr \u00fea\u00f0 ekki?\u201c\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stundum \u00feegar \u00e9g tala vi\u00f0 El\u00ednu vella upp \u00far m\u00e9r hugmyndir og sko\u00f0anir sem \u00e9g veit ekki a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef og m\u00e9r finnst \u00e9g kynnast sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r betur \u00ed hvert skipti. \u00dea\u00f0 er ekki fyrr en \u00e9g spyr hana hvort h\u00fan haldi a\u00f0 Gu\u00f0 vilji \u00ed alv\u00f6ru a\u00f0 menn r\u00e1\u00f0i \u00f6llu og konur engu, sem Gu\u00f0n\u00fd maldar \u00ed m\u00f3inn. H\u00fan spyr El\u00ednu hvort henni \u00feyki \u00feetta skynsamlegt umr\u00e6\u00f0uefni.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eMitt h\u00fas, m\u00ednar reglur manstu?\u201c segir El\u00edn, ypptir \u00f6xlunum og setur upp \u00fdktan f\u00fdlusvip. \u201eEf \u00fe\u00fa vilt ekki leyfa alv\u00f6ru samt\u00f6l um alv\u00f6ru hluti, ekki koma \u00fe\u00e1 me\u00f0 krakkann.\u201c\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00e9r l\u00edkar illa a\u00f0 heyra hana nota \u00feetta or\u00f0, krakkinn<\/em>, eftir a\u00f0 \u00e9g fatta a\u00f0 h\u00fan \u00e1 vi\u00f0 mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gu\u00f0n\u00fd er \u00e1 hnj\u00e1num a\u00f0 skr\u00fabba g\u00f3lfi\u00f0 \u00ed eldh\u00fasinu, en l\u00edtur sn\u00f6ggt upp og hvessir sig \u00e1 El\u00ednu, \u201e\u00de\u00fa veist alveg af hverju \u00e9g tek hana me\u00f0 m\u00e9r.\u201c\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eJ\u00e1, en \u00e9g er ekki viss um a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa vitir \u00fea\u00f0 sj\u00e1lf Gu\u00f0n\u00fd.\u201c\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHva\u00f0 meinar\u00f0u?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

El\u00edn svarar ekki, heldur teygir sig \u00ed n\u00fdja s\u00edgarettu sem h\u00fan kveikir \u00ed me\u00f0 \u00feeirri sem h\u00fan er a\u00f0 kl\u00e1ra. Gu\u00f0n\u00fd horfir m\u00f3\u00f0urlega \u00e1 hana og segir a\u00f0 n\u00fa s\u00e9 h\u00fan a\u00f0 vera \u00f3sanngj\u00f6rn, en El\u00edn svarar a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 \u00f3sanngjarnt a\u00f0 \u00e9g megi ekki spyrja spurninga. A\u00f0 \u00feetta s\u00e9u allt saman spurningar sem \u00fe\u00e6r spur\u00f0u sj\u00e1lfar \u00e1 sama aldri.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eVeistu \u00fea\u00f0 El\u00edn, stundum er \u00f3b\u00e6rilegt a\u00f0 elska \u00feig,\u201c segir Gu\u00f0n\u00fd m\u00e6\u00f0ulega og er allt \u00ed einu sta\u00f0in upp, \u201eAf hverju getur\u00f0u ekki bara veri\u00f0 almennileg?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00e9r breg\u00f0ur \u00feegar \u00e9g s\u00e9 hva\u00f0 El\u00ednu breg\u00f0ur. H\u00fan r\u00e9ttir \u00far \u00f6xlunum og setur b\u00e1\u00f0a f\u00e6tur ni\u00f0ur \u00e1 g\u00f3lf.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c6, Gu\u00f0n\u00fd, ekki vera svona barnaleg,\u201c svarar h\u00fan svo og ranghvolfir augunum,\u00a0 \u201eVilt \u00fe\u00fa ekki bara fara aftur \u00e1 hn\u00e9n, eins og \u00fe\u00fa ert v\u00f6n?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gu\u00f0n\u00fd sn\u00fdr baki \u00ed okkur en \u00e9g s\u00e9 hvernig h\u00fan st\u00edfnar \u00f6ll \u00e1\u00f0ur en h\u00fan r\u00edfur af s\u00e9r g\u00famm\u00edhanskana og gr\u00fdtir \u00feeim \u00ed vaskinn. Svo sn\u00fdr h\u00fan s\u00e9r sn\u00f6gglega vi\u00f0, setur hendur \u00e1 mja\u00f0mir og gargar \u00e1 El\u00ednu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eAf hverju \u00fearftu alltaf a\u00f0 vera svona eigingj\u00f6rn?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eEigingj\u00f6rn?\u201c gargar El\u00edn \u00e1 m\u00f3ti \u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er eigingjarnt a\u00f0 dr\u00f6sla krakkanum <\/em>hinga\u00f0 og krefja hana svo um a\u00f0 \u00feegja. Gu\u00f0n\u00fd, h\u00fan er t\u00f3lf.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g er n\u00fdor\u00f0in \u00ferett\u00e1n,\u201c sk\u00fdt \u00e9g inn.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eSkiptu \u00fe\u00e9r ekki af \u00feessu!\u201c \u00f6skrar Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u00e1 mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eEkki \u00f6skra \u00e1 hana!\u201c \u00f6skrar El\u00edn \u00e1 m\u00f3ti.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g h\u00e6tti a\u00f0 skilja hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e6r eru a\u00f0 segja. Heyri bara \u00f6skrin, sem gusast \u00e1 milli \u00feeirra, og veit a\u00f0 \u00feetta kl\u00e1rast flj\u00f3tlega. \u00de\u00e1 fara \u00fe\u00e6r b\u00e1\u00f0ar a\u00f0 gr\u00e1ta og fa\u00f0mast. \u00de\u00e6r gera \u00fea\u00f0 alltaf og \u00e9g nenni ekki a\u00f0 hlusta \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e6r.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g fer fram \u00e1 gang, ni\u00f0ur stigann og \u00fat \u00e1 st\u00e9tt, \u00fear sem \u00e9g sest ni\u00f0ur. M\u00e9r er kalt og alveg sama, \u00ed sm\u00e1 stund, en fer svo aftur inn \u00ed blokkina. \u00c9g er ekki me\u00f0 lykla svo \u00e9g sest \u00ed forstofuna, undir alla p\u00f3stkassana og b\u00ed\u00f0.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Heilli eil\u00edf\u00f0 seinna gengur eldri kona inn. H\u00fan hallar undir flatt \u00feegar h\u00fan kemur auga \u00e1 mig og spyr hvort ekki s\u00e9 allt \u00ed lagi. \u00c1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g n\u00e6 a\u00f0 svara henni kemur Gu\u00f0n\u00fd stormandi ni\u00f0ur stigann, flengir upp hur\u00f0inni og geltir \u00e1 mig a\u00f0 \u00e9g eigi a\u00f0 koma. \u00c9g finn sting \u00ed maganum. Kannski f\u00f6\u00f0mu\u00f0ust \u00fe\u00e6r El\u00edn ekki \u00ed \u00feetta skipti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c1\u00f0ur en vi\u00f0 beygjum fyrir horni\u00f0 \u00e1 blokkinni s\u00e9 \u00e9g konuna, sem stendur enn \u00ed uppl\u00fdstri forstofunni. Glugginn eins og m\u00e1lverk \u00ed myrkrinu. Konan horfir \u00e1 eftir okkur me\u00f0 undrunarsvip og ef h\u00fan myndi lyfta h\u00f6ndunum a\u00f0eins n\u00e6r andlitinu, liti h\u00fan \u00fat eins og upp\u00e1halds m\u00e1lverki\u00f0 mitt, \u00d3pi\u00f0<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00a0\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00de<\/strong>\u00e6r eru t\u00edu \u00e1rum eldri en \u00e9g og stundum, \u00feegar \u00e9g var l\u00edtil, lei\u00f0 m\u00e9r eins og \u00e9g \u00e6tti tv\u00e6r auka m\u00f6mmur. \u00de\u00e6r s\u00f3ttu mig \u00ed sk\u00f3lann, f\u00f3ru me\u00f0 mig \u00ed g\u00f6ngut\u00fara, t\u00f3ku mig me\u00f0 \u00ed heims\u00f3knir. Stundum sag\u00f0ist f\u00f3lk samt ekki hafa t\u00edma fyrir heims\u00f3knir og \u00fe\u00e1 f\u00f3rum vi\u00f0 bara \u00e1 b\u00f3kasafni\u00f0. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gu\u00f0n\u00fd kom s\u00e9r oftast fyrir \u00ed einhverju horni og las ein, en El\u00edn las fyrir mig. H\u00fan las \u00d6nnu \u00ed Gr\u00e6nuhl\u00ed\u00f0 <\/em>og M\u00fam\u00edn\u00e1lfana<\/em>, en m\u00e9r fannst langskemmtilegast \u00feegar h\u00fan fann st\u00f3rar m\u00e1lverkab\u00e6kur. \u00de\u00e1 leyf\u00f0i h\u00fan m\u00e9r a\u00f0 sitja \u00ed fanginu \u00e1 s\u00e9r og vi\u00f0 hj\u00e1lpu\u00f0umst a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 fletta st\u00f3rum bla\u00f0s\u00ed\u00f0unum.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fan sag\u00f0i m\u00e9r fr\u00e1 m\u00e1lverkunum og hvernig listamennirnir notu\u00f0u liti til a\u00f0 kalla fram lj\u00f3s og skugga og allar tilfinningarnar sem vi\u00f0 \u00e6ttum engin or\u00f0 yfir. Hvernig allt g\u00e6ti veri\u00f0 list. A\u00f0 list \u00feyrfti ekki endilega a\u00f0 vera myndir af einhverju s\u00e9rst\u00f6ku, heldur m\u00e6ttu \u00fe\u00e6r vera af engu, en samt \u00f6llu, \u00e1 sama t\u00edma.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fan s\u00fdndi m\u00e9r margar myndir af s\u00f6mu konu. \u00c1 einni var h\u00fan me\u00f0 apa og l\u00edtinn pardus \u00e1 \u00f6xlunum. \u00c1 annarri var h\u00fan tv\u00f6f\u00f6ld, tv\u00e6r \u00fatg\u00e1fur af s\u00f6mu konu. \u00de\u00e6r voru b\u00e1\u00f0ar me\u00f0 hj\u00f6rtun utan \u00e1 s\u00e9r og \u00e1 milli \u00feeirra var strengur. \u00c9g spur\u00f0i hvort listama\u00f0urinn hef\u00f0i veri\u00f0 me\u00f0 svona l\u00e9legt \u00edmyndunarafl, a\u00f0 m\u00e1la alltaf bara s\u00f6mu konuna. \u00de\u00e1 hl\u00f3 El\u00edn og sag\u00f0i m\u00e9r a\u00f0 konan hef\u00f0i m\u00e1la\u00f0 myndirnar sj\u00e1lf. A\u00f0 konur g\u00e6tu l\u00edka veri\u00f0 listamenn. \u00c9g var\u00f0 hissa, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g haf\u00f0i aldrei velt \u00fev\u00ed fyrir m\u00e9r og ba\u00f0 hana um a\u00f0 finna fleiri myndir eftir konur.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fan s\u00fdndi m\u00e9r myndir af bl\u00f3mum, allskonar bl\u00f3mum \u00ed sk\u00e6rum litum, risast\u00f3rar myndir af bl\u00f3mum og m\u00e1lverk af hestum og kindum me\u00f0 engin augu sem st\u00f3\u00f0u \u00ed sk\u00e6rgr\u00e6nu grasi. Svo s\u00fdndi h\u00fan m\u00e9r mynd af konunni me\u00f0 v\u00e6ngina.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00deessi stytta er eftir \u00edslenska listakonu sem h\u00e9t N\u00edna S\u00e6mundsson og er utan \u00e1 mj\u00f6g fr\u00e6gu h\u00f3teli \u00ed New York,\u201c sag\u00f0i El\u00edn og brosti. \u201e\u00cd haust \u00e6tla \u00e9g \u00e1 n\u00e1mskei\u00f0 \u00ed Myndlistask\u00f3lanum og ver\u00f0a fr\u00e6g listakona \u00ed framt\u00ed\u00f0inni.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eAf hverju er styttan ekki me\u00f0 neitt almennilegt andlit?\u201c spur\u00f0i \u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00dev\u00ed \u00fe\u00e1 geta allar konur m\u00e1ta\u00f0 sig vi\u00f0 hana og \u00edmynda\u00f0 s\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e6r geti flogi\u00f0,\u201c svara\u00f0i h\u00fan.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hausti\u00f0 kom og \u00e9g byrja\u00f0i \u00ed fj\u00f3r\u00f0a bekk, en El\u00edn f\u00f3r ekki \u00e1 neitt n\u00e1mskei\u00f0 \u00ed Myndlistask\u00f3lanum, en h\u00e9lt \u00e1fram a\u00f0 vinna vi\u00f0 \u00ferif me\u00f0 Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju. Mamma og pabbi t\u00f6lu\u00f0u um \u00fea\u00f0 \u00ed h\u00e1lfum hlj\u00f3\u00f0um a\u00f0 h\u00fan vildi ver\u00f0a listakona og notu\u00f0u or\u00f0 sem \u00e9g skildi ekki alveg, eins og f\u00e1sinna<\/em> og prj\u00e1l<\/em>. \u00c9g skrifa\u00f0i \u00feau ni\u00f0ur \u00e1 mi\u00f0a, en gleymdi alltaf a\u00f0 athuga hva\u00f0 \u00feau \u00fe\u00fdddu \u00ed or\u00f0ab\u00f3kinni \u00feegar \u00e9g f\u00f3r \u00e1 b\u00f3kasafni\u00f0 \u00ed sk\u00f3lanum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deetta haust f\u00f3r El\u00edn eiginlega aldrei heim til s\u00edn, heldur var bara heima hj\u00e1 okkur. \u00de\u00e6r mamma s\u00e1tu oft saman inni \u00ed eldh\u00fasi langt fram \u00e1 kv\u00f6ld og \u00e9g vandist \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 sofna \u00fat fr\u00e1 hv\u00edslinu sem barst \u00ed gegnum rifuna \u00e1 dyrag\u00e6ttinni minni. \u00c9g \u00edmynda\u00f0i m\u00e9r alltaf a\u00f0 mamma v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 segja El\u00ednu a\u00f0 v\u00edst yr\u00f0i h\u00fan st\u00f3rkostleg listakona og svo dreymdi mig styttur me\u00f0 v\u00e6ngi. St\u00f3rar styttur af enn st\u00e6rri konum sem t\u00f3ku yfir heiminn og allt var\u00f0 gott.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar einhver reyndi a\u00f0 tala El\u00ednu til og f\u00e1 hana til a\u00f0 fara heim, \u00f6skra\u00f0i h\u00fan bara. \u00c9g spur\u00f0i pabba hvers vegna h\u00fan l\u00e9ti svona og hann svara\u00f0i a\u00f0 h\u00fan v\u00e6ri best\u00eda sem kynni ekki a\u00f0 fara eftir reglunum og a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri h\u00e6ttulegt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

E<\/strong>l\u00edn og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd eru b\u00fanar a\u00f0 loka sig af inni \u00ed herbergi. \u00c9g fer inn \u00ed eldh\u00fas, f\u00e6 m\u00e9r glas af appels\u00ednusafa og rek augun \u00ed l\u00edtinn kassa \u00e1 eldh\u00fasbor\u00f0inu. \u00c9g er farin a\u00f0 \u00feekkja hvern kr\u00f3k og kima \u00ed \u00feessari \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0, en \u00feennan kassa hef \u00e9g ekki s\u00e9\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0ur. \u00cd honum erum litlir v\u00f6ndlar af eldh\u00faspapp\u00edr og \u00e9g vef utan af einum \u00feeirra. \u00cd lj\u00f3s kemur l\u00edtill fugl \u00far \u00feunnu gleri, hv\u00edtur me\u00f0 bleika v\u00e6ngi og bleikt st\u00e9l \u00far fj\u00f6\u00f0rum. Alv\u00f6ru fj\u00f6\u00f0rum. Annar er bl\u00e1r me\u00f0 gr\u00e6num v\u00e6ngjum, s\u00e1 \u00feri\u00f0ji fj\u00f3lubl\u00e1r me\u00f0 sm\u00e1 glimmeri. \u00deeir eru svo f\u00ednger\u00f0ir og fallegir. M\u00f6gulega \u00fea\u00f0 fallegasta sem \u00e9g hef nokkru sinni s\u00e9\u00f0 og \u00e9g velti fyrir m\u00e9r hvort \u00feeir s\u00e9u kannski h\u00e1rskraut, \u00fev\u00ed ne\u00f0an \u00e1 \u00feeim eru litlar klemmur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g stend lengi og horfi \u00fat um st\u00f3ra gluggann \u00ed stofunni, me\u00f0 hv\u00edta fuglinn \u00ed h\u00f6ndunum. \u00c9g opna og loka l\u00f3funum utan um hann, eins og hann s\u00e9 \u00ed litlu b\u00fari. \u00deannig l\u00ed\u00f0ur m\u00e9r oft \u00ed \u00feessari \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0, \u00feegar El\u00edn og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd loka a\u00f0 s\u00e9r og m\u00e9r lei\u00f0ist svo miki\u00f0 a\u00f0 mig langar til a\u00f0 sofa \u00ed hundra\u00f0 \u00e1r.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Viku seinna er El\u00edn b\u00fain a\u00f0 setja upp ser\u00edu \u00ed st\u00f3ra stofugluggann og l\u00edti\u00f0 tr\u00e9 me\u00f0 lj\u00f3sum stendur \u00e1 bor\u00f0i vi\u00f0 s\u00f3fann. \u00c1 greinarnar er h\u00fan b\u00fain a\u00f0 klemma litlu fuglana, sem vir\u00f0ast mj\u00f6g hamingjusamir innan um marglit lj\u00f3sin. H\u00fan spyr mig hvort m\u00e9r finnist \u00feeir ekki s\u00e6tir og \u00e9g finn hvernig hitinn lekur ofan fr\u00e1 hvirflinum, ni\u00f0ur hnakkann og alveg ni\u00f0ur \u00ed h\u00e6la. \u00c9g svara ekki, heldur segist \u00feurfa a\u00f0 pissa, fer inn \u00e1 ba\u00f0 og l\u00e6si a\u00f0 m\u00e9r. \u00dear leggst \u00e9g \u00e1 g\u00f3lfi\u00f0, tek handkl\u00e6\u00f0i og tre\u00f0 upp \u00ed mig, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g vil ekki a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e6r heyri \u00feegar \u00e9g byrja a\u00f0 gr\u00e1ta.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00e9r finnst \u00e9g svo heimsk og asnaleg. \u00dea\u00f0 var mj\u00f6g auglj\u00f3st a\u00f0 \u00feessir fuglar voru ekki h\u00e1rskraut. M\u00e9r finnst l\u00edka asnalegt hva\u00f0 \u00e9g tek \u00feetta n\u00e6rri m\u00e9r, en \u00e9g get ekki h\u00e6tt. T\u00e1rin renna ni\u00f0ur vangana, inn \u00ed eyrun og ni\u00f0ur \u00e1 hnakka. \u00c9g \u00f3ttast a\u00f0 \u00e9g muni gr\u00e1ta a\u00f0 eil\u00edfu, en n\u00e6 a\u00f0 r\u00f3a mig \u00e1 endanum og stend upp. \u00c9g skola andliti\u00f0 me\u00f0 k\u00f6ldu vatni og \u00fev\u00e6 m\u00e9r alveg s\u00e9rstaklega vel um hendurnar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 er komi\u00f0 fram \u00ed mars og vi\u00f0 Gu\u00f0n\u00fd g\u00f6ngum lengri lei\u00f0 til El\u00ednar en venjulega. H\u00fan er l\u00e9ttari \u00ed skapinu en undanfari\u00f0, segist elska vori\u00f0. Vi\u00f0 t\u00f6lum um hvernig \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 a\u00f0 vera komin \u00ed unglingadeild, hva\u00f0 t\u00farverkir s\u00e9u \u00f6murlegir og h\u00fan segir a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 \u00e6ttum a\u00f0 baka saman br\u00e1\u00f0um.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar vi\u00f0 komum upp \u00ed \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0 til El\u00ednar dett \u00e9g n\u00e6stum um sk\u00f3 sem standa \u00ed forstofunni og \u00e9g s\u00e9 strax a\u00f0 \u00feetta eru ekki sk\u00f3r sem \u00e9g \u00feekki. El\u00edn \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e1 ekki og \u00e9g veit a\u00f0 \u00c1g\u00fasta kemur bara annan hvern \u00feri\u00f0judag. Gu\u00f0n\u00fd l\u00edtur \u00e1 mig og \u00ed augnablik s\u00e9 \u00e9g hvernig andliti\u00f0 brotnar, en ver\u00f0ur aftur venjulegt um lei\u00f0 og h\u00fan heyrir umgang. Laufey kemur \u00fat \u00far svefnherberginu og horfir undrandi \u00e1 okkur. Gu\u00f0n\u00fd gr\u00edpur fyrir munninn, en \u00e9g er sn\u00f6gg a\u00f0 smeygja m\u00e9r fram hj\u00e1 \u00feeim og inn \u00ed svefnherbergi\u00f0.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dear inni er svalt og dimmt. Eina lj\u00f3si\u00f0 kemur a\u00f0 utan, r\u00f6nd af vori sem hefur n\u00e1\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00fer\u00f6ngva s\u00e9r undir \u00feykkar gard\u00ednurnar. \u00c9g held ni\u00f0ri \u00ed m\u00e9r andanum, alveg \u00f3sj\u00e1lfr\u00e1tt, \u00ed allri \u00feessari \u00fe\u00f6gn og myrkri. El\u00edn situr uppr\u00e9tt \u00ed r\u00faminu og starir fram fyrir sig.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eBjarki er me\u00f0 krabbamein,\u201c segir h\u00fan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g sest \u00e1 r\u00famstokkinn og str\u00fdk l\u00edti\u00f0, beinabert handarbak hennar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eEr \u00fe\u00e1 allt \u00f3n\u00fdtt n\u00fana?\u201c spyr \u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 hefur alltaf allt veri\u00f0 \u00f3n\u00fdtt,\u201c svarar El\u00edn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi\u00f0 sitjum \u00ed \u00fe\u00f6gninni d\u00e1litla stund og \u00e9g geri \u00e1ttu \u00e1 handarbaki\u00f0 \u00e1 henni, hring eftir hring, endalaust. Svo heyrist smellur, fjarl\u00e6gur, eins og hur\u00f0 s\u00e9 skellt \u00ed \u00f6\u00f0rum heimi. M\u00e9r breg\u00f0ur \u00feegar Gu\u00f0n\u00fd kemur gr\u00e1tandi inn \u00ed herbergi\u00f0 og skr\u00ed\u00f0ur beint \u00ed fangi\u00f0 \u00e1 El\u00ednu. H\u00fan gr\u00e6tur svo lengi a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 standa upp og pissa. Um lei\u00f0 og \u00e9g loka hur\u00f0inni heyri \u00e9g El\u00ednu segja a\u00f0 h\u00fan viti alveg a\u00f0 Bjarki hafi fengi\u00f0 krabbameini\u00f0 til a\u00f0 hefna s\u00edn \u00e1 henni.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar \u00e9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 pissa \u00feori \u00e9g ekki a\u00f0 fara aftur inn \u00ed herbergi til \u00feeirra. \u00c9g \u00feori ekki einu sinni a\u00f0 kveikja lj\u00f3sin, \u00fe\u00f3 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 r\u00f6kkva. \u00c9g sest \u00e1 eldh\u00fasg\u00f3lfi\u00f0 og tel rendurnar \u00ed g\u00f3lfd\u00faknum, h\u00f6ldin \u00e1 sk\u00e1punum, p\u00f3stana \u00ed gluggunum. \u00c9g tel \u00e1 m\u00e9r t\u00e6rnar, aftur og aftur og hversu m\u00f6rg h\u00e1r \u00e9g get sliti\u00f0 \u00ed einu \u00far h\u00f6f\u00f0inu \u00e1 m\u00e9r. Svo stari \u00e9g \u00e1 klukkuna \u00e1 eldav\u00e9linni. Litlu bl\u00e1u punktana sem blikka \u00e1 milli t\u00f6lustafanna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sama haust og El\u00edn neita\u00f0i a\u00f0 fara heim, vakna\u00f0i \u00e9g eina n\u00f3ttina vi\u00f0 bl\u00e1 lj\u00f3s sem blikku\u00f0u \u00e1 veggnum \u00ed herberginu m\u00ednu. \u00c9g \u00e1tta\u00f0i mig ekki strax hva\u00f0an lj\u00f3sin komu, en \u00feegar \u00e9g g\u00e6g\u00f0ist \u00fat s\u00e1 \u00e9g tvo l\u00f6greglu\u00fej\u00f3na ganga \u00ed \u00e1tt a\u00f0 h\u00fasinu. \u00c1 milli \u00feeirra h\u00e9kk El\u00edn. \u00c9g kasta\u00f0i m\u00e9r aftur \u00ed r\u00fami\u00f0, breiddi s\u00e6ngina alveg yfir h\u00f6fu\u00f0i\u00f0 og reyndi a\u00f0 gubba ekki upp hjartanu sem hama\u00f0ist innan \u00ed m\u00e9r. Frammi heyr\u00f0i \u00e9g dj\u00fapar raddir tala, svo l\u00e6ti, \u00f6skur og a\u00f0 lokum ekkasog. El\u00edn gr\u00e9t og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd gr\u00e9t og mamma gr\u00e9t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar allt var or\u00f0i\u00f0 hlj\u00f3tt aftur l\u00e6ddist \u00e9g fram. Pabbi stika\u00f0i fram og aftur \u00e1 ganginum og tala\u00f0i l\u00e1gt \u00ed s\u00edmann, s\u00edmasn\u00faran vafin eins og sn\u00e1kur um annan framhandlegginn. Mamma sat \u00ed s\u00f3fanum me\u00f0 Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju \u00ed fanginu, en El\u00edn l\u00e1 hreyfingarlaus \u00e1 stofug\u00f3lfinu me\u00f0 opin augun. H\u00fan leit \u00fat fyrir a\u00f0 vera alveg d\u00e1in, en hr\u00f6kk vi\u00f0 \u00feegar banka\u00f0 var \u00e1 \u00fatihur\u00f0ina. \u00de\u00e1 spratt h\u00fan \u00e1 f\u00e6tur, garga\u00f0i a\u00f0 h\u00fan vildi ekki f\u00f3lk sem vildi hana ekki. Svo kreppti h\u00fan hnefana, stappa\u00f0i ni\u00f0ur f\u00f3tunum og byrja\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00f6skra. \u00dea\u00f0 komu engin or\u00f0, bara dj\u00fapur flaumur sem hlj\u00f3ma\u00f0i eins og t\u00f3nlist \u00ed r\u00f6ngum takti. \u00cd dyrag\u00e6ttinni st\u00f3\u00f0u Laufey og Bjarki, foreldrar El\u00ednar og eftir \u00feetta lei\u00f0 mj\u00f6g langur t\u00edmi \u00fear til \u00e9g hitti hana aftur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00de\u00f3tt Laufey segist vera \u00feakkl\u00e1t fyrir alla hj\u00e1lpina fr\u00e1 Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju, br\u00fdtur h\u00fan samt lofor\u00f0i\u00f0 um a\u00f0 segja engum fr\u00e1 a\u00f0 hafa hitt okkur heima hj\u00e1 El\u00ednu. Nokkrum d\u00f6gum seinna er Gu\u00f0n\u00fd k\u00f6llu\u00f0 \u00e1 fund og um kv\u00f6ldi\u00f0 eru n\u00f6fnin okkar lesin upp \u00e1 samkomu fyrir framan alla. Seinna sama kv\u00f6ld stend \u00e9g stj\u00f6rf \u00ed forstofunni heima \u00e1 me\u00f0an Gu\u00f0n\u00fd hr\u00fagar \u00f6llu sem henni dettur \u00ed hug ofan \u00ed t\u00f6sku. H\u00fan segir m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0i allt \u00ed lagi, a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 s\u00e9um a\u00f0 fara til El\u00ednar, en andliti\u00f0 er fast \u00ed krampakenndri grettu svo \u00e9g \u00e1 erfitt me\u00f0 a\u00f0 tr\u00faa henni.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mamma segir a\u00f0 \u00e9g megi vera \u00e1fram hj\u00e1 \u00feeim, a\u00f0 \u00e9g geti b\u00e6tt fyrir a\u00f0 hafa fari\u00f0 \u00e1 bak vi\u00f0 \u00feau og a\u00f0 allt ver\u00f0i aftur eins og \u00fea\u00f0 var eftir nokkra m\u00e1nu\u00f0i, en \u00e9g vil bara fara me\u00f0 Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju. \u00c9g vona a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0i eins og \u00feegar \u00e9g var l\u00edtil, \u00feegar El\u00edn og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd voru eins og m\u00f6mmur m\u00ednar. \u00dea\u00f0 var \u00e6\u00f0islegt a\u00f0 eiga tv\u00e6r m\u00f6mmur og n\u00fana getum vi\u00f0 alltaf veri\u00f0 \u00ferj\u00e1r saman og baka\u00f0 og teikna\u00f0 og f\u00edflast og passa\u00f0 hver upp \u00e1 a\u00f0ra. \u00deegar vi\u00f0 Gu\u00f0n\u00fd f\u00f6rum gr\u00e6tur mamma, en pabbi neitar a\u00f0 koma fram og kve\u00f0ja okkur.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 er komin n\u00f3tt \u00feegar vi\u00f0 komum til El\u00ednar, sem er sofandi. Gu\u00f0n\u00fd kemur s\u00e9r fyrir inni hj\u00e1 henni, en b\u00fdr um mig \u00e1 s\u00f3fanum. \u00c9g hef aldrei veitt \u00fev\u00ed athygli fyrr, en \u00fea\u00f0 er \u00f3ge\u00f0sleg lykt af \u00feessum s\u00f3fa. \u00cd hamaganginum gleymdist a\u00f0 hr\u00faga s\u00e6nginni minni \u00ed t\u00f6skuna, svo \u00e9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 sofa me\u00f0 teppi. M\u00e9r er kalt \u00fear sem \u00e9g ligg \u00ed myrkrinu, eins og umkomulaus ungi \u00ed illa lyktandi hrei\u00f0ri. El\u00edn er greinilega v\u00f6knu\u00f0 og \u00e9g heyri \u00fe\u00e6r tala saman inni \u00ed herbergi, \u00e1n m\u00edn, og ver\u00f0 v\u00f6r vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0 b\u00e6rist innra me\u00f0 m\u00e9r. Eitthva\u00f0 d\u00f6kkt og kvikt, sem segir m\u00e9r a\u00f0 kannski ver\u00f0i \u00feetta alltaf svona. \u00de\u00e6r tv\u00e6r og svo \u00e9g, til hli\u00f0ar. \u00c9g klemmi augun sn\u00f6ggt aftur, eins fast og \u00e9g m\u00f6gulega get, til a\u00f0 klemma \u00feessar hugsanir \u00ed burtu, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g finn a\u00f0 \u00e9g m\u00e1 ekki gefa \u00feeim pl\u00e1ss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi\u00f0 h\u00f6f\u00f0alagi\u00f0 stendur tr\u00e9\u00f0 me\u00f0 marglitu lj\u00f3sunum, litlu fuglarnir enn fastir \u00e1 sama sta\u00f0, \u00fe\u00f3 a\u00f0 komi\u00f0 s\u00e9 fram \u00ed mars. \u00de\u00f3tt \u00e9g reyni eins og \u00e9g get, n\u00e6 \u00e9g ekki a\u00f0 sofna fyrir eigin hugsunum. \u00deegar raddirnar inni \u00ed herbergi hlj\u00f3\u00f0na, tek \u00e9g hv\u00edta fuglinn me\u00f0 bleiku v\u00e6ngjunum af tr\u00e9nu og l\u00e6\u00f0ist inn \u00e1 ba\u00f0herbergi\u00f0. \u00dear vef \u00e9g honum inn \u00ed kl\u00f3settpapp\u00edr, legg \u00e1 g\u00f3lfi\u00f0 og st\u00edg \u00e1 hann, \u00feanga\u00f0 til a\u00f0 \u00e9g finn a\u00f0 hann gefur eftir. Svo tek \u00e9g v\u00f6ndulinn upp og krem eins fast og \u00e9g get me\u00f0 h\u00f6ndunum, aftur og aftur. \u00c9g helli glersallanum \u00ed kl\u00f3setti\u00f0 og sturta ni\u00f0ur, en fel klemmuna og fja\u00f0rirnar \u00ed ofninum inni \u00ed stofu, \u00e1 bak vi\u00f0 s\u00f3fann.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar vi\u00f0 v\u00f6knum morguninn eftir er allt betra og El\u00edn er gl\u00f6\u00f0 og \u00e1n\u00e6g\u00f0 a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 s\u00e9um komnar til a\u00f0 b\u00faa hj\u00e1 henni. H\u00fan kveikir \u00e1 \u00fatvarpinu og dansar vi\u00f0 mig \u00ed stofunni, \u00e1 me\u00f0an Gu\u00f0n\u00fd skrifar innkaupalista. Vi\u00f0 \u00e6tlum a\u00f0 halda upp \u00e1 daginn me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 elda g\u00f3\u00f0an mat og El\u00edn lofar a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a vel. Segist \u00e6tla a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a b\u00e6\u00f0i lasagne og k\u00f6ku, \u00e1 sama t\u00edma, \u00fev\u00ed n\u00fana r\u00e1\u00f0um vi\u00f0 okkur sj\u00e1lfar og b\u00faum til okkar eigin reglur. Kannski h\u00fan bor\u00f0i bara k\u00f6kuna fyrst og \u00feegar Gu\u00f0n\u00fd m\u00f3tm\u00e6lir grettir El\u00edn sig bara, \u00feykist vera l\u00edti\u00f0 tr\u00f6ll og reynir a\u00f0 f\u00e1 hana til a\u00f0 dansa vi\u00f0 sig. \u00c9g hl\u00e6 svo miki\u00f0 a\u00f0 t\u00e1rin byrja a\u00f0 renna og \u00e9g pissa n\u00e6stum \u00ed buxurnar. \u00c9g finn a\u00f0 sum t\u00e1rin eru samt alv\u00f6ru t\u00e1r og \u00e9g skil ekki alveg af hverju.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c1\u00f0ur en vi\u00f0 f\u00f6rum fa\u00f0mar El\u00edn mig \u00fe\u00e9tt a\u00f0 s\u00e9r og hv\u00edslar a\u00f0 h\u00fan elski mig. \u00c9g svara hissa a\u00f0 \u00e9g elski hana l\u00edka, segi a\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 best og s\u00e9 hvernig augun fyllast af t\u00e1rum, \u00e1\u00f0ur en h\u00fan sn\u00fdst \u00e1 h\u00e6li og fer inn \u00ed herbergi. \u00cd lyftunni \u00e1 lei\u00f0inni ni\u00f0ur finnst m\u00e9r eins og maginn s\u00e9 a\u00f0 fara \u00ed \u00f6fuga \u00e1tt, eins og \u00feegar mig dreymir a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 a\u00f0 hrapa.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar vi\u00f0 komum \u00far innkaupafer\u00f0inni er \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0in mannlaus. \u00c1 eldh\u00fasbor\u00f0inu er mi\u00f0i og \u00e9g er ekki n\u00f3gu sn\u00f6gg a\u00f0 gr\u00edpa hann. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i rifi\u00f0 hann \u00ed \u00fe\u00fasund t\u00e6tlur, en \u00ed sta\u00f0inn tekur Gu\u00f0n\u00fd hann og les.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gu\u00f0n\u00fd, pabbi minn er me\u00f0 krabbamein.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hann er pabbi minn.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gu\u00f0n\u00fd br\u00fdtur mi\u00f0ann saman, setur hann ofan \u00ed t\u00f6skuna s\u00edna og rennir fyrir, fer inn \u00ed svefnherbergi\u00f0 og lokar a\u00f0 s\u00e9r. \u00c9g stend lengi \u00e1 ganginum me\u00f0 poka af kl\u00f6kum \u00ed fanginu, sem byrja a\u00f0 br\u00e1\u00f0na og leka yfir mig. \u00dea\u00f0 kemur m\u00e9r \u00e1 \u00f3vart hva\u00f0 tilhugsunin um El\u00ednu, eina fyrir utan \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0ina, hr\u00e6\u00f0ir mig miki\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Gu\u00f0n\u00fd talar ekkert \u00ed \u00ferj\u00e1 daga, liggur bara \u00ed r\u00faminu og horfir \u00fat \u00ed lofti\u00f0. \u00c9g f\u00e6ri henni s\u00farmj\u00f3lk og hafragraut, en \u00ed hvert skipti sem \u00e9g reyni a\u00f0 tala vi\u00f0 hana, hv\u00e6sir h\u00fan bara \u00e1 mig, eins og vi\u00f0skotaillur k\u00f6ttur. \u00c1 fj\u00f3r\u00f0a degi stendur h\u00fan upp, eins og ekkert hafi \u00ed skorist, og tilkynnir m\u00e9r a\u00f0 h\u00fan \u00e6tli a\u00f0 skr\u00e1 sig \u00ed kv\u00f6ldsk\u00f3lann.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nokkrum d\u00f6gum seinna kemur \u00c1g\u00fasta a\u00f0 athuga me\u00f0 El\u00ednu. Fyrst ver\u00f0ur h\u00fan hissa \u00feegar Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u00fatsk\u00fdrir st\u00f6\u00f0una, en svo brosir h\u00fan breitt og segist hafa veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a eftir okkur. Kallar okkur elskurnar s\u00ednar og tekur \u00fe\u00e9tt utan um mig. H\u00fan er hl\u00fd og mj\u00fak, me\u00f0 st\u00f3r brj\u00f3st sem eru eins og koddar. H\u00fan tekur Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju \u00ed fangi\u00f0 og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd gr\u00e6tur \u00ed fyrsta skipti s\u00ed\u00f0an El\u00edn f\u00f3r. \u00c1g\u00fasta str\u00fdkur henni um h\u00e1ri\u00f0 og segir, aftur og aftur, a\u00f0 \u00feetta ver\u00f0i allt \u00ed lagi.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c1g\u00fasta er miki\u00f0 hj\u00e1 okkur n\u00e6stu daga \u00e1 eftir. H\u00fan gr\u00e6jar papp\u00edra, svo a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 Gu\u00f0n\u00fd megum b\u00faa \u00e1fram \u00ed \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0inni og af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 Gu\u00f0n\u00fd er or\u00f0in fullor\u00f0in \u00fearf \u00e9g ekki a\u00f0 fara \u00ed f\u00f3stur eitthvert anna\u00f0. \u00c1g\u00fasta hj\u00e1lpar henni a\u00f0 s\u00e6kja um n\u00fdja vinnu og pl\u00e1ss \u00ed kv\u00f6ldsk\u00f3lanum. H\u00fan b\u00fd\u00f0ur okkur l\u00edka a\u00f0 tala vi\u00f0 f\u00f3lk, en Gu\u00f0n\u00fd heldur bara \u00e1fram a\u00f0 segja nei takk.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u201e\u00dea\u00f0 er alveg e\u00f0lilegt a\u00f0 finna fyrir \u00f3tta elskan m\u00edn,\u201c segir \u00c1g\u00fasta og str\u00fdkur Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju um vangann. \u00cd augnablik s\u00e9 \u00e9g hvernig Gu\u00f0n\u00fd p\u00edrir augun og \u00e9g \u00f3ttast a\u00f0 h\u00fan muni m\u00f6gulega b\u00edta \u00c1g\u00fastu. Svo ver\u00f0ur h\u00fan l\u00edk sj\u00e1lfri s\u00e9r og af\u00feakkar aftur alla s\u00e1lfr\u00e6\u00f0ia\u00f0sto\u00f0. \u00de\u00e1 skrifar \u00c1g\u00fasta s\u00edman\u00fameri\u00f0 sitt me\u00f0 st\u00f3rum st\u00f6fum \u00e1 mi\u00f0a og segir a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 megum alltaf hringja \u00ed hana. Svo festir h\u00fan mi\u00f0ann \u00e1 \u00edssk\u00e1pinn me\u00f0 segli sem h\u00fan dregur upp \u00far t\u00f6skunni sinni. \u00c1 seglinum er mynd af d\u00e1d\u00fdri sem b\u00fai\u00f0 er a\u00f0 skj\u00f3ta me\u00f0 n\u00edu \u00f6rvum. D\u00e1d\u00fdri\u00f0 er me\u00f0 kvenh\u00f6fu\u00f0 sem \u00e9g kannast miki\u00f0 vi\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Hausti\u00f0 kemur og \u00e9g byrja \u00ed n\u00fdjum sk\u00f3la, \u00fear sem \u00e9g \u00feekki engan, nema eina stelpu \u00ed t\u00edunda bekk, en h\u00fan yr\u00f0ir ekki \u00e1 mig. \u00c9g eignast flj\u00f3tt vinkonur \u00ed bekknum m\u00ednum og byrja a\u00f0 \u00e6fa badminton me\u00f0 \u00feeim. Vi\u00f0 t\u00f6kum str\u00e6t\u00f3 tvisvar \u00ed viku \u00ed Laugardalinn og m\u00e9r finnst str\u00e6t\u00f3fer\u00f0irnar \u00ed raun skemmtilegri en \u00e6fingarnar sj\u00e1lfar, \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00e1 n\u00e1um vi\u00f0 stelpurnar a\u00f0 tala svo miki\u00f0 saman. \u00dea\u00f0 er margt sem \u00e9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 l\u00e6ra og \u00fe\u00e6r eru bestu kennarar sem \u00e9g hef nokkru sinni haft. Stundum f\u00f6rum vi\u00f0 \u00ed Hagkaup, \u00e1\u00f0ur en vi\u00f0 t\u00f6kum str\u00e6t\u00f3 heim. \u00de\u00e6r fara alltaf beint a\u00f0 sko\u00f0a ilmv\u00f6tnin, en \u00e9g stelst stundum til a\u00f0 pr\u00f3fa a\u00f0 m\u00e1la mig \u00ed kringum augun, eins og El\u00edn ger\u00f0i alltaf. \u00c9g passa mig samt a\u00f0 \u00fer\u00edfa allt af m\u00e9r \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g fer heim.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Einu sinni \u00ed viku tek \u00e9g str\u00e6t\u00f3 ein ni\u00f0ur \u00ed mi\u00f0b\u00e6 og fer \u00e1 n\u00e1mskei\u00f0 \u00ed Myndlistask\u00f3lanum, sem \u00c1g\u00fasta skr\u00e1\u00f0i mig \u00e1. H\u00fan gaf m\u00e9r l\u00edka vasadisk\u00f3 \u00e1 afm\u00e6linu m\u00ednu, sem m\u00e9r fannst mj\u00f6g skr\u00fdti\u00f0, en eftir a\u00f0 h\u00fan kenndi m\u00e9r a\u00f0 taka upp l\u00f6g \u00far \u00fatvarpinu tek \u00e9g \u00fea\u00f0 me\u00f0 m\u00e9r hvert sem \u00e9g fer, s\u00e9rstaklega \u00ed str\u00e6t\u00f3.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gu\u00f0n\u00fd vinnur vi\u00f0 afgrei\u00f0slu \u00ed ap\u00f3teki, ekki langt fr\u00e1 blokkinni, og fer \u00ed sk\u00f3lann \u00e1 kv\u00f6ldin. H\u00fan hefur ekki eignast neina n\u00fdja vini og fer l\u00edti\u00f0 anna\u00f0 en \u00ed vinnuna, sk\u00f3lann og \u00ed b\u00fa\u00f0ina a\u00f0 versla \u00ed matinn. Stundum vakna \u00e9g \u00e1 n\u00f3ttunni vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 h\u00fan l\u00e6\u00f0ist fram hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r, \u00fear sem \u00e9g sef \u00ed s\u00f3fanum, og opnar st\u00f3ra gluggann \u00ed stofunni. Svo stendur h\u00fan \u00ed kuldanum og starir \u00fat, a\u00f0 skima eftir einhverju sem h\u00fan hefur enn ekki fundi\u00f0.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00e6gt og r\u00f3lega komum vi\u00f0 okkur betur fyrir og gerum \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0ina a\u00f0 okkar. B\u00e6tum vi\u00f0 og t\u00f6kum \u00fat. Vi\u00f0 losum okkur vi\u00f0 gamla s\u00f3fann og kaupum svefns\u00f3fa \u00ed sta\u00f0inn. Stundum er eins og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u00e6tli s\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00feurrka El\u00ednu \u00fat \u00far l\u00edfi s\u00ednu. Einn hlut \u00ed einu. Um mi\u00f0jan desember pakkar h\u00fan saman litla tr\u00e9nu og fer me\u00f0 \u00ed rusli\u00f0. Litlu fuglarnir allir enn klemmdir \u00e1 greinarnar.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Undarlegast vi\u00f0 \u00feessar breytingar er a\u00f0 eiga allt \u00ed einu svona mikinn fr\u00edt\u00edma, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g hef engar skyldur og \u00fearf ekki lengur a\u00f0 fara \u00ed heims\u00f3knir. Um helgar, \u00feegar vinkonur m\u00ednar eru me\u00f0 fj\u00f6lskyldum s\u00ednum og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd a\u00f0 vinna, fer \u00e9g oft \u00ed langa g\u00f6ngut\u00fara frekar en a\u00f0 sitja heima. Stundum geng \u00e9g \u00ed Mj\u00f3ddina, \u00fear sem \u00e9g fylgist me\u00f0 mannl\u00edfinu og teikna. \u00c9g teikna myndir af fuglum og eldsp\u00fdtum og her\u00f0abl\u00f6\u00f0um sem breytast \u00ed v\u00e6ngi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Hur\u00f0in \u00e1 str\u00e6t\u00f3 stendur \u00e1 s\u00e9r \u00feegar \u00e9g \u00e6tla a\u00f0 hoppa \u00fat r\u00e9tt hj\u00e1 blokkinni okkar. B\u00edllinn fyrir aftan fer a\u00f0 flauta, en \u00e9g smeygi f\u00e6tinum \u00fat um rifuna og stappa \u00e1 snj\u00f3hr\u00f6nglinu sem situr \u00ed falsinu. Hur\u00f0in hrekkur upp og \u00e9g stekk \u00fat \u00ed \u00feykkt jan\u00faarmyrkri\u00f0. B\u00edlstj\u00f3rinn kallar \u00feakkir \u00e1 eftir m\u00e9r og \u00e9g veifa. \u00c9g er farin a\u00f0 kannast vi\u00f0 b\u00edlstj\u00f3rana sem keyra vagnana sem \u00e9g tek og \u00feessi er f\u00ednasti kall. Hefur tvisvar be\u00f0i\u00f0 eftir m\u00e9r \u00feegar \u00e9g hef komi\u00f0 hlaupandi, a\u00f0eins of sein. Hann segir a\u00f0 \u00e9g megi ekki missa af f\u00f6studags\u00e6fingu, \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 svo gott a\u00f0 hreyfa sig inn \u00ed helgina.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar \u00e9g kem upp \u00e1 fj\u00f3r\u00f0u h\u00e6\u00f0 og tilkynni komu m\u00edna, f\u00e6 \u00e9g ekkert svar. Gu\u00f0n\u00fd er ekki komin og \u00e9g geri r\u00e1\u00f0 fyrir a\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 \u00ed sk\u00f3lanum a\u00f0 l\u00e6ra. \u00c9g n\u00fdti t\u00e6kif\u00e6ri\u00f0 til a\u00f0 stj\u00f3rna sj\u00f3nvarpinu ein, en \u00feegar l\u00ed\u00f0a fer \u00e1 kv\u00f6ldi\u00f0 b\u00f3lar ekkert \u00e1 Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g reyni a\u00f0 vaka eftir henni, en sofna \u00ed r\u00faminu hennar \u00ed \u00f6llum f\u00f6tunum og sef langt fram eftir morgni. Klukkan er a\u00f0 ganga ellefu \u00feegar \u00e9g vakna og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd enn ekki komin heim. \u00c9g f\u00e6 m\u00e9r morgunmat, hlusta \u00e1 fr\u00e9ttir \u00ed \u00fatvarpinu og fer \u00ed sturtu, en \u00e1kve\u00f0 a\u00f0 fara ekki \u00ed g\u00f6ngut\u00far, ef h\u00fan skyldi koma heim \u00e1 me\u00f0an. \u00c9g finn hvernig m\u00f3\u00f0urleg \u00feolinm\u00e6\u00f0i b\u00f3lgnar innra me\u00f0 m\u00e9r og \u00edmynda m\u00e9r hvernig \u00e9g \u00e6tli a\u00f0 vanda um fyrir henni, \u00feegar h\u00fan loksins skilar s\u00e9r.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHva, \u00fea\u00f0 er n\u00fa meira a\u00f0 sumir l\u00e1ta sj\u00e1 sig,\u201c segi \u00e9g vi\u00f0 spegilinn \u00ed forstofunni og geri m\u00e9r upp \u00e1hyggjusvip me\u00f0 vott af kaldh\u00e6\u00f0ni og finnst \u00e9g t\u00f6ff, en l\u00e6kka \u00ed m\u00e9r \u00feegar \u00e9g fatta a\u00f0 kannski s\u00e9 h\u00fan frammi \u00e1 gangi og heyri \u00ed m\u00e9r. \u00c9g laumast til a\u00f0 k\u00edkja \u00fat um g\u00e6gjugati\u00f0, fram \u00e1 t\u00f3man ganginn.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c1 me\u00f0an \u00e9g b\u00ed\u00f0 eftir Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju fer m\u00e9r aftur a\u00f0 l\u00ed\u00f0a eins og \u00feessi \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0 s\u00e9 b\u00far, eins og mig langi a\u00f0 til sofa \u00ed hundra\u00f0 \u00e1r e\u00f0a kannski bara a\u00f0 eil\u00edfu. \u00c9g sit lengi \u00e1 r\u00faminu hennar og legg kapal ofan \u00e1 s\u00e6nginni. \u00c1 me\u00f0an velti \u00e9g fyrir m\u00e9r hva\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 eiginlega a\u00f0 gera. M\u00e9r dettur alls konar \u00ed hug og leik m\u00e9r vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 m\u00e1ta hana inn \u00ed s\u00f6gusvi\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f3myndanna og sj\u00f3nvarps\u00fe\u00e1ttanna sem \u00e9g hef horft \u00e1 n\u00fdlega.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fan g\u00e6ti hafa lent \u00ed slysi og misst minni\u00f0 og f\u00f3lki\u00f0 \u00e1 sp\u00edtalanum viti ekki hver h\u00fan er. M\u00e9r finnst \u00feetta svo sorglegt a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00edmynda m\u00e9r frekar a\u00f0 kannski hafi h\u00fan hitt s\u00e6tan mann \u00ed ap\u00f3tekinu og a\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 \u00ed mi\u00f0ju \u00e1star\u00e6vint\u00fdri me\u00f0 honum. M\u00e9r finnst s\u00fa tilhugsun spennandi en \u00e1 einhvern h\u00e1tt \u00f3\u00fe\u00e6gilegri, svo \u00e9g held mig vi\u00f0 minnisleysi\u00f0.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 leita um allt a\u00f0 mi\u00f0a fr\u00e1 Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju, en finn hvergi. \u00c1 n\u00e1ttbor\u00f0inu hennar er bara v\u00f6ndull af peningum, hellingur af \u00fe\u00fasundk\u00f6llum sem b\u00fai\u00f0 er a\u00f0 festa saman me\u00f0 br\u00e9faklemmu. M\u00e9r l\u00ed\u00f0ur eins og peningarnir s\u00e9u brennandi heitir, eins og \u00fea\u00f0 muni kannski kvikna \u00ed \u00feeim ef \u00e9g tek \u00fe\u00e1 ekki upp og handfjatla, en \u00e9g vil \u00fea\u00f0 ekki. \u00cd sta\u00f0inn fer \u00e9g fram og sest \u00e1 g\u00f3lfi\u00f0 vi\u00f0 st\u00f3ra gluggann \u00ed stofunni. \u00c9g legg \u00e1fram kapal eftir kapal, sem allir ganga upp og h\u00e6gt og r\u00f3lega vi\u00f0urkenni \u00e9g fyrir sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r hvar Gu\u00f0n\u00fd er.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g horfi lengi \u00fat um gluggann og rifja upp hvernig h\u00fan br\u00e1st vi\u00f0 \u00feegar El\u00edn f\u00f3r \u00ed fyrsta skipti. Hvernig h\u00fan gr\u00e9t st\u00f6\u00f0ugt fyrstu vikurnar, og \u00feegar t\u00e1rin kl\u00e1ru\u00f0ust, hvernig h\u00fan h\u00e6tti a\u00f0 tala. H\u00e6tti \u00fev\u00ed bara alveg og tala\u00f0i ekkert \u00ed eitt og h\u00e1lft \u00e1r. \u00dea\u00f0 var ekki fyrr en vi\u00f0 f\u00f3rum a\u00f0 laumast \u00ed heims\u00f3knir til El\u00ednar, a\u00f0 h\u00fan f\u00f3r a\u00f0 tala aftur. Kannski \u00feess vegna t\u00f3k h\u00fan mig me\u00f0 s\u00e9r, \u00fev\u00ed h\u00fan var hr\u00e6dd um a\u00f0 koma ekki upp or\u00f0i og nota\u00f0i mig sem millistykki.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g skil n\u00fana hva\u00f0 El\u00edn meinti \u00feegar h\u00fan tala\u00f0i um \u00fats\u00fdni\u00f0 og hva\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 hafa veri\u00f0 erfitt a\u00f0 nj\u00f3ta \u00feess a\u00f0 vera komin \u00fat, vitandi af Gu\u00f0n\u00fdju fastri \u00e1 sama sta\u00f0. Svo rennur skyndilega upp fyrir m\u00e9r hvernig \u00feetta var l\u00edklega \u00e6tlun Gu\u00f0n\u00fdjar fr\u00e1 upphafi. A\u00f0 koma m\u00e9r \u00fat, en fara sj\u00e1lf til baka \u00e1 eftir El\u00ednu.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dea\u00f0 sem kemur m\u00e9r mest \u00e1 \u00f3vart eru m\u00ednar eigin tilfinningar. \u00de\u00e6r eru ekki hr\u00e1ar og hvassar eins og \u00e9g bj\u00f3st vi\u00f0, heldur h\u00e6gar og mj\u00fakar, eins og \u00feoka. \u00c9g b\u00ed\u00f0 eftir a\u00f0 \u00f3ttinn taki yfir, a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00f6skri eins og El\u00edn e\u00f0a hv\u00e6si eins og Gu\u00f0n\u00fd, en \u00fea\u00f0 gerist ekki. \u00dea\u00f0 gerist ekkert.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Au\u00f0vita\u00f0 v\u00e6ri miklu betra ef vi\u00f0 v\u00e6rum allar saman, en \u00e9g er ekki rei\u00f0, \u00fev\u00ed\u00a0 \u00e9g veit a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e6r eru heild. Tv\u00f6 eint\u00f6k af s\u00f6mu konu og engin lei\u00f0 a\u00f0 sl\u00edta strenginn \u00e1 milli \u00feeirra.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u00f0 kv\u00f6ldi sunnudags kl\u00e6\u00f0i \u00e9g mig \u00ed sk\u00f3 og geng \u00fat \u00ed sjoppu til a\u00f0 hringja \u00far t\u00edkallas\u00edmanum. \u00c9g er ekkert hr\u00e6dd, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g veit a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00fearf bara \u00feetta eina s\u00edmtal til a\u00f0 n\u00e1 sambandi. \u00c9g tel hringingarnar; ein, tv\u00e6r, \u00ferj\u00e1r.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar bj\u00f6rt r\u00f6dd \u00c1g\u00fastu berst m\u00e9r af hinum enda strengsins \u00feegi \u00e9g fyrst, en segi svo: <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g er ekki til.\u201c<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

H\u00f3lmfr\u00ed\u00f0ur Helga Sigur\u00f0ard\u00f3ttir El\u00edn er ekki til. \u00cd hvert sinn sem vi\u00f0 g\u00f6ngum \u00fat \u00far blokkinni minnist Gu\u00f0n\u00fd \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g segist aldrei vita um hva\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 a\u00f0 tala, a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feekki enga El\u00ednu. \u00de\u00e1 brosir Gu\u00f0n\u00fd og blikkar. \u00deetta er eins og vel \u00e6f\u00f0ur dans, en \u00e9g passa samt alltaf a\u00f0 l\u00edta upp […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-528","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/528","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=528"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/528\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":531,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/528\/revisions\/531"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=528"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}