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El\u00edsabet Dr\u00f6fn Kristj\u00e1nsd\u00f3ttir<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
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Or\u00f0in \u00f3ma \u00ed h\u00f6f\u00f0inu \u00e1 m\u00e9r, \u00feau hrings\u00f3la \u00fear um og \u00e9g get ekki h\u00e6tt a\u00f0 heyra \u00feau aftur og aftur e\u00f0a sj\u00e1 \u00feau fyrir m\u00e9r eins og \u00e1 flennist\u00f3ru augl\u00fdsingaskilti \u201evi\u00f0 sj\u00e1um a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hefur lagt mikla vinnu \u00ed verki\u00f0 en h\u00f6fum komist a\u00f0 \u00feeirri ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0u a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa s\u00e9rt l\u00edklega ekki r\u00e9tta manneskjan fyrir okkur \u00ed \u00feetta verkefni.\u201c \u00c9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 gubba. \u00c9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 s\u00fdna sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r meira mildi. Hvernig geri \u00e9g \u00fea\u00f0? Hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0ir mildi? \u00c9g hugsa um m\u00fdkingarefni, d\u00fdr krem og \u00e1genga lykt, milt fyrir barni\u00f0, mj\u00fak teppi, ilmkerti og indverskt korma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dagurinn ver\u00f0ur fr\u00e1b\u00e6r. \u00c9g \u00e1 allt skili\u00f0. \u00c9g legg \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1 minni\u00f0. Eftir s\u00ed\u00f0asta hla\u00f0varps\u00fe\u00e1tt L\u00edfsfyllingar er \u00e9g innbl\u00e1sin. Hver dagur er n\u00fdtt upphaf og \u00e9g stj\u00f3rna hvernig hann fer. \u00c9g og engin \u00f6nnur. Ef \u00e9g tek n\u00f3gu vel eftir s\u00e9 \u00e9g alla j\u00e1kv\u00e6\u00f0u hlutina \u00ed l\u00edfi m\u00ednu og get \u00feannig veitt \u00feeim meiri athygli, v\u00f6kva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 eins og pl\u00f6ntur sem bl\u00f3mstra eftir \u00fev\u00ed sem \u00e9g nostra vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1. Veiti \u00e9g hins vegar hinu neikv\u00e6\u00f0a athygli er \u00fea\u00f0 svol\u00edti\u00f0 eins og a\u00f0 r\u00e6kta svarta myglu innra me\u00f0 s\u00e9r. \u00c9g ver\u00f0 veik og \u00f3m\u00f6guleg. Legg l\u00f3fa \u00e1 hjarta, loka augum og dreg andann dj\u00fapt. \u00c9g panta m\u00e9r t\u00edma \u00ed nudd \u00e1 h\u00f3teli r\u00e9tt hj\u00e1 vinnunni. Tek stj\u00f3rn \u00e1 m\u00ednum degi. S\u00fdni m\u00e9r mildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00c9g er nakin. H\u00fa\u00f0in \u00e1 m\u00e9r er sleip eins og \u00e1 h\u00f6frungi. \u00c9g er fegin a\u00f0 \u00e9g er tilt\u00f6lulega n\u00fdb\u00fain a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta vaxa allt en n\u00fa svamla h\u00f6frungar um \u00ed h\u00f6f\u00f0inu \u00e1 m\u00e9r, 300.000 h\u00f6frungar sem eru veiddir vi\u00f0 t\u00fanfisksvei\u00f0ar og bleikir h\u00f6frungar \u00ed frumsk\u00f3ginum. M\u00e9r er kippt \u00far hugsununum inn \u00ed l\u00edkamann \u00feegar \u00e9g finn mj\u00fakar, sterkar hendur nudda \u00e1 m\u00e9r k\u00e1lfana og l\u00e6rin. Mig kitlar, \u00e9g er vi\u00f0kv\u00e6m fyrir mj\u00fakri snertingu. \u00c9g b\u00edt saman og reyni a\u00f0 i\u00f0a ekki eins og sk\u00f3labarn. \u00dearf a\u00f0 slaka en er f\u00f6st \u00ed togstreitunni \u00e1 milli \u00feess a\u00f0 herpa saman v\u00f6\u00f0vana e\u00f0a \u00fe\u00f6rfinni \u00e1 a\u00f0 hristast og skr\u00edkja \u00f6rl\u00edti\u00f0. \u00deegar hann f\u00e6rir hendurnar \u00e1 rassinn er m\u00e9r l\u00e9tt. \u00c9g dreg dj\u00fapt andann. Hann hno\u00f0ar \u00e1 m\u00e9r rasskinnarnar \u00e1 v\u00e9lr\u00e6nan h\u00e1tt eins og hr\u00e6riv\u00e9l hno\u00f0ar deig. Potar \u00e1 alla aumustu blettina og \u00fdtir. \u00c9g emja af s\u00e1rsauka. Hann spyr mig hvort \u00feetta s\u00e9 of harkalegt hj\u00e1 honum. \u00c9g segi honum a\u00f0 \u00feetta s\u00e9 fullkomi\u00f0, einmitt \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g \u00fearf. Hendur hans eru ekki mildar en samt er dagurinn minn er fr\u00e1b\u00e6r. Hann f\u00e6rir sig ofar, nuddar bak og axlir og \u00e9g finn uppsafna\u00f0a streituna flj\u00f3ta \u00fat \u00far m\u00e9r, \u00e9g \u00edmynda m\u00e9r hana r\u00edsa upp eins og vofu e\u00f0a \u00fatfrymi \u00e1 viktor\u00edskum mi\u00f0ilsfundi, eins og reykur e\u00f0a gufa sem ver\u00f0ur a\u00f0 ork\u00eddeu sem tekur svo \u00e1 sig kvenlega mynd. \u00c9g \u00edmynda m\u00e9r \u00fatfrymi\u00f0 lifa sj\u00e1lfst\u00e6\u00f0u l\u00edfi, \u00fea\u00f0 fer og veldur \u00f6llum \u00feeim usla sem einhver hluti innra me\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00fer\u00e1ir a\u00f0 gera. Hann trommar \u00e1 baki\u00f0 \u00e1 m\u00e9r og \u00fatfrymi\u00f0 er fyrir l\u00f6ngu b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 yfirgefa herbergi\u00f0. \u00cd gegnum gati\u00f0 \u00e1 bekknum horfi \u00e9g \u00e1 d\u00f6kkar steinfl\u00edsar og hv\u00edta strigask\u00f3, hann er me\u00f0 tatt\u00fa af palest\u00ednska f\u00e1nanum \u00e1 \u00f6kklanum. \u00c9g loka augunum. \u00c9g \u00e6tla ekki a\u00f0 hugsa um sprengjuregn. \u00c9g \u00e6tla ekki a\u00f0 hugsa um svelt b\u00f6rn, \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir \u00fea\u00f0 eru \u00feau \u00fearna og dagurinn minn er samt fr\u00e1b\u00e6r. Nuddi\u00f0 er b\u00fai\u00f0 og hann skilur mig eina eftir \u00ed herberginu me\u00f0 n\u00fdaldarhippat\u00f3nlistinni. \u00c9g ligg \u00f6rlitla stund en \u00feori ekki a\u00f0 slaka \u00e1 af hr\u00e6\u00f0slu vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 sofna. \u00dea\u00f0 kemur \u00e6 oftar fyrir mig \u00feessa dagana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g stend upp, me\u00f0vitu\u00f0 um nekt m\u00edna en \u00e1 sama t\u00edma er \u00e9g stolt af st\u00e6ltum l\u00edkamanum sem \u00e9g hef unni\u00f0 fyrir, af \u00fer\u00fdstnum brj\u00f3stum og unglegri h\u00fa\u00f0 mi\u00f0a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 aldur. \u00c1 vinnubor\u00f0i nuddarans finn \u00e9g ol\u00eduna sem lyktar svo vel, \u00e9g sting henni inn \u00e1 milli brj\u00f3stanna, finn spennuna gr\u00edpa mig. \u00c9g sp\u00edgspora inn \u00ed m\u00e1tunarklefa, kem ol\u00edunni fyrir ne\u00f0st \u00ed t\u00f6skunni minni og gr\u00edp sundbolinn minn. S\u00e6lan sem fylgir stuldinum er v\u00edma sem \u00e9g leyfi m\u00e9r sjaldan. Dagurinn minn er fr\u00e1b\u00e6r. \u00c9g \u00e1 allt skili\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g hef ekki komi\u00f0 hinga\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0ur. Pottar\u00fdmi\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00feessu h\u00f3teli er afar huggulegt, ef \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri manneskja v\u00e6ri \u00fea\u00f0 gra\u00f0ur og vel hirtur en listr\u00e6nn karlma\u00f0ur a\u00f0 sigla inn \u00ed mi\u00f0aldra l\u00edf sitt, sj\u00e1lfs\u00f6ruggur me\u00f0 gr\u00e1tt \u00ed v\u00f6ngum, \u00f3hr\u00e6ddur vi\u00f0 litr\u00edkan kl\u00e6\u00f0na\u00f0. R\u00fdmi\u00f0 \u00e1 l\u00edklega a\u00f0 minna \u00e1 vin \u00ed ey\u00f0im\u00f6rk, marokk\u00f3skar fl\u00edsar pr\u00fd\u00f0a veggi og g\u00f3lf og p\u00e1lmar og a\u00f0rar pl\u00f6ntur gera r\u00fdmi\u00f0 einstaklega ex\u00f3t\u00edskt fyrir hinn almenna \u00cdslending sem hefur ekki t\u00f6k \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 fer\u00f0ast \u00fat fyrir landsteinana \u00ed hverjum m\u00e1nu\u00f0i. \u00c9g ver\u00f0 fyrir vonbrig\u00f0um \u00feegar \u00e9g s\u00e9 a\u00f0 \u00feetta eru gervipl\u00f6ntur en \u00fea\u00f0 er samt \u00fea\u00f0 eina r\u00f6kr\u00e9tta \u00ed st\u00f6\u00f0unni h\u00e9r, enda birtuskilyr\u00f0in betur fallin til eldis \u00e1 augnalausum hellaverum. 40% af \u00f6llum pl\u00f6ntutegundum heimsins eru \u00ed h\u00e6ttu. A\u00f0 hugsa s\u00e9r a\u00f0 i\u00f0na\u00f0urinn vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 b\u00faa til gervipl\u00f6ntur stu\u00f0li a\u00f0 \u00fatdau\u00f0a pl\u00f6ntutegunda \u00e1 n\u00e6stu \u00e1ratugum. Hva\u00f0 eru m\u00f6rg a\u00f0 panta s\u00e9r gervibl\u00f3m akk\u00farat n\u00fana? Eru \u00feau a\u00f0 s\u00fdna s\u00e9r mildi? Mig langar a\u00f0 lemja h\u00f6f\u00f0inu \u00ed skrautlegar fl\u00edsarnar fyrir \u00feessar hugsanir. \u00cd gegnum gler horfi \u00e9g \u00e1 hv\u00edldarr\u00fdmi \u00fear sem sloppakl\u00e6tt f\u00f3lk hamrar \u00e1 fart\u00f6lvur, \u00feau eru l\u00edklega a\u00f0 vinna. Gott hj\u00e1 \u00feeim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Heilsulindir h\u00f3telanna eru vel geymt leyndarm\u00e1l \u00ed borginni og ekki margir \u00cdslendingar sem notf\u00e6ra s\u00e9r \u00feau reglulega. \u00deess vegna eru \u00feau fullkominn sta\u00f0ur fyrir konu eins og mig. \u00c9g get slaka\u00f0, l\u00e1ti\u00f0 m\u00e9r l\u00ed\u00f0a eins og \u00e9g s\u00e9 \u00ed fr\u00edi \u00ed hverri viku \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 hitta einhvern sem \u00e9g \u00feekki. S\u00fdnt m\u00e9r mildi \u00ed fri\u00f0i. Inn kemur gr\u00e1h\u00e6rt s\u00ed\u00f0mi\u00f0aldra par. \u00deau brosa til m\u00edn og tala saman \u00e1 \u00fe\u00fdsku, \u00feau eru rau\u00f0 \u00ed framan og sitja \u00feannig a\u00f0 h\u00f6fu\u00f0in \u00e1 \u00feeim r\u00e9tt standa upp \u00far vatninu. \u00c9g lygni aftur augunum og hugsa um makak\u00edapa \u00ed Japan sem ba\u00f0a sig reglulega \u00ed heitum pottum. \u00de\u00e1 man \u00e9g a\u00f0 um 65% af \u00f6llum pr\u00edmatategundum eru vi\u00f0kv\u00e6m e\u00f0a \u00ed \u00fatr\u00fdmingarh\u00e6ttu. A\u00f0eins 4% af \u00f6llum spend\u00fdrum heimsins eru villt, restin er b\u00faf\u00e9na\u00f0ur. Vi\u00f0 mannf\u00f3lki\u00f0 erum pl\u00e1ga. \u00c9g veit ekki hvers vegna \u00e9g man \u00feessar t\u00f6lur. Sj\u00f3nr\u00e6nt minni mitt er m\u00e9r stundum til trafala. Vanl\u00ed\u00f0an hellist yfir mig. Eitthva\u00f0 sem \u00e9g \u00fearf ekki \u00e1 a\u00f0 halda. Hven\u00e6r f\u00e6r hugur minn p\u00e1su fr\u00e1 skarkalanum? \u00c9g, sem er l\u00f6ngu h\u00e6tt a\u00f0 horfa \u00e1 fr\u00e9ttir, l\u00f6ngu h\u00e6tt a\u00f0 lesa \u00fe\u00e6r, hlusta \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e6r og passa mig a\u00f0 fylgja engum p\u00f3lit\u00edskum rausurum \u00e1 samf\u00e9lagsmi\u00f0lum. \u00deegar \u00e9g komst a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g g\u00e6ti fali\u00f0 st\u00f3ran hluta fj\u00f6lskyldu og vina \u00e1 mi\u00f0lunum ger\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00fea\u00f0. \u00dev\u00edl\u00edkur l\u00e9ttir sem \u00fea\u00f0 var. \u00c9g t\u00f3k stj\u00f3rnina \u00e1 eigin l\u00ed\u00f0an \u00fear. \u00c9g h\u00e6tti vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 panta m\u00e9r drykk og dr\u00edf mig \u00ed sturtu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dati lemur rigningin malbiki\u00f0 og allt er svo hryllilega gr\u00e1tt. \u00c9g hugsa um hamfararigningar og aurskri\u00f0ur. \u00c9g k\u00edki \u00e1 heilsu\u00fari\u00f0 og s\u00e9 a\u00f0 mig vantar fimm \u00fe\u00fasund skref upp \u00e1 a\u00f0 n\u00e1 skrefafj\u00f6lda dagsins, nennti ekki a\u00f0 hlaupa \u00ed morgun \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g var svo upptekin af vinnunni sem reyndist svo gagnlaus eftir allt saman. \u00c9g hugsa um heilabl\u00f3\u00f0f\u00f6ll, krans\u00e6\u00f0ast\u00edflur og hjarta\u00e1f\u00f6ll. \u00c9g \u00e1kve\u00f0 a\u00f0 ganga auka hring \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g fer heim og set n\u00fdjasta \u00fe\u00e1ttinn af L\u00edfsfyllingu \u00ed eyrun. \u00cd n\u00fdjasta \u00fe\u00e6ttinum er fjalla\u00f0 um neikv\u00e6\u00f0ar hugsanir og hvernig \u00fe\u00e6r koma \u00ed veg fyrir velgengni \u00ed l\u00edfi okkar. \u00dea\u00f0 besta sem vi\u00f0 getum gert er a\u00f0 gera okkur eins upptekin og m\u00f6gulegt er. Finna verkefni og vera \u00feakkl\u00e1t fyrir \u00feau \u00ed hversdagsleikanum. Einbl\u00edna ekki \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00f6\u00f0rum finnst heldur a\u00f0eins okkur sj\u00e1lfum. Vi\u00f0 komumst mj\u00f6g langt \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 fyrir okkur \u00fea\u00f0 sem vi\u00f0 viljum. Vi\u00f0 \u00feurfum bara a\u00f0 tr\u00faa \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 getum \u00f6\u00f0last \u00fea\u00f0. Leyfa \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 l\u00edkamnast \u00ed l\u00edfi okkar. \u00c9g \u00feurfti \u00e1 \u00feessari \u00e1minningu a\u00f0 halda. \u00c9g hef komist langt \u00ed l\u00edfinu en neikv\u00e6\u00f0ar hugsanir eru a\u00f0 ey\u00f0ileggja l\u00edf mitt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g hef breytt svo miklu, er komin svo langt \u00ed \u00e1ralangri sj\u00e1lfsvinnu. Gamlir bekkjarf\u00e9lagar \u00feekkja mig ekki lengur \u00fati \u00e1 g\u00f6tu. \u00c9g hef ekki bara breytt um st\u00edl. \u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 laga svefninn hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r. G\u00f3\u00f0ur svefn minnkar streituhorm\u00f3nin \u00ed l\u00edkamanum og b\u00e6tir andlega l\u00ed\u00f0an, kemur \u00ed veg fyrir of\u00e1t og \u00feyngdaraukningu og \u00fdmsa a\u00f0ra alvarlegri fylgikvilla svefnleysis. G\u00f3\u00f0ur svefn b\u00e6tir l\u00edka \u00fatliti\u00f0. \u00c9g passa mig a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a n\u00e6ringarr\u00edkan kv\u00f6ldmat. Litr\u00edkt f\u00e6\u00f0i er lykilatri\u00f0i h\u00e9r. \u00cd hverri m\u00e1lt\u00ed\u00f0 dagsins bor\u00f0a \u00e9g \u00far \u00f6llum f\u00e6\u00f0uflokkum. \u00c9g passa mig a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a ekkert eftir kv\u00f6ldmat. \u00c9g vil ekki skr\u00ed\u00f0a upp \u00ed r\u00fam me\u00f0 sementsklump \u00ed meltingarveginum og eiga \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1 h\u00e6ttu a\u00f0 vakna vi\u00f0 s\u00e1rsaukafullan ristilkrampa e\u00f0a st\u00edflast d\u00f6gunum saman og l\u00edta \u00fat fyrir a\u00f0 vera komin \u00e1 annan \u00feri\u00f0jung me\u00f0g\u00f6ngu. \u00c1 kv\u00f6ldin dempa \u00e9g lj\u00f3sin. Kveiki \u00e1 r\u00f3legri t\u00f3nlist og huglei\u00f0i. Stundum les \u00e9g \u00ed b\u00f3k. \u00de\u00e1 vel \u00e9g lesefni\u00f0 vel, \u00e9g sit ekki me\u00f0 tr\u00e1ma heimsins \u00ed fanginu og v\u00e6li yfir \u00fev\u00ed \u00e1 samf\u00e9lagsmi\u00f0lum til a\u00f0 s\u00fdna \u00f6\u00f0rum hva\u00f0 \u00e9g er empat\u00edsk. H\u00e6filega lj\u00fafar b\u00e6kur eru \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g vel m\u00e9r n\u00fana. Ef \u00e9g er ekki a\u00f0 lesa eitthva\u00f0 valdeflandi um a\u00f0 \u00fevo s\u00e9r \u00ed framan, gir\u00f0a sig \u00ed br\u00f3k og leyfa f\u00f3lki a\u00f0 fara s\u00edna lei\u00f0 vel \u00e9g eitthva\u00f0 lj\u00fafmeti. Um litlar b\u00f3kab\u00fa\u00f0ir \u00ed Skotlandi e\u00f0a jafnvel um ungar konur sem sogast inn \u00ed heim gra\u00f0ra \u00e1lfa. \u00der\u00e1tt fyrir heilbrigt l\u00edferni ver\u00f0 \u00e9g a\u00f0 j\u00e1ta a\u00f0 m\u00e9r l\u00ed\u00f0ur ekki vel. Heilbrig\u00f0 manneskja myndi ekki hugsa \u00e1 sama h\u00e1tt og \u00e9g geri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g er hissa \u00feegar \u00e9g kem heim a\u00f0 h\u00fasinu og heyri \u00ed t\u00f3nlist \u00fat \u00e1 g\u00f6tu. \u00deegar \u00e9g kem inn er b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 leggja \u00e1 bor\u00f0 og \u00fea\u00f0 er matarlykt \u00ed loftinu, br\u00e6la \u00f6llu heldur. Lofti\u00f0 \u00ed \u00edb\u00fa\u00f0inni er metta\u00f0 og sk\u00fdja\u00f0 af einhverju sem er gegns\u00fdrt af fitu og mikilli steikingu. \u00cd h\u00e1talaranum \u00f3mar g\u00f6mul nostalg\u00eda. \u00c9g hef ekki hlusta\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00feetta lag lengi, Jennifer\u2018s body me\u00f0 Hole. \u00c1 eldh\u00fasbor\u00f0inu stendur tveggja l\u00edtra flaska af Appels\u00edni. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i m\u00e1tt vita \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa v\u00e6rir komin, hugsa \u00e9g. \u00c9g heilsa og \u00fe\u00fa kyssir mig \u00e1 kinnina. \u00dea\u00f0 fer um mig fi\u00f0ringur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g er me\u00f0 gj\u00f6f handa \u00fe\u00e9r,\u201c segir \u00fe\u00fa sk\u00e6lbrosandi og leyndard\u00f3msfull \u00e1 svip og r\u00e9ttir m\u00e9r l\u00edtinn pakka. \u00c9g er svo hissa a\u00f0 \u00e9g veit ekkert hva\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00e1 a\u00f0 segja. \u00de\u00fa hl\u00e6r\u00f0 bara og rekur \u00e1 eftir m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eOpna\u00f0u hann!\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g hl\u00fd\u00f0i. Honum er vandlega pakka\u00f0 inn \u00ed gamalt dagbla\u00f0 og utan um hann er fj\u00f3lubl\u00e1r bor\u00f0i. \u00c9g er heillengi a\u00f0 n\u00e1 l\u00edmbandinu af. Inni \u00ed pakkanum er l\u00edtil askja. \u00c9g fjarl\u00e6gi loki\u00f0 af henni og s\u00e9 \u00fear silfurfesti sem amma gaf m\u00e9r fyrir langa l\u00f6ngu. H\u00fan hefur legi\u00f0 slitin \u00ed skartgripaskr\u00edni \u00ed meira en \u00e1ratug. \u00c9g hef aldrei haft fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta laga hana \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir a\u00f0 hafa oft hugsa\u00f0 um \u00fea\u00f0. \u00deetta er nefnilega fallegasti skartgripurinn sem \u00e9g \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hann pr\u00fd\u00f0ir st\u00f3r og glitrandi amet\u00fdstdropi. \u00c9g t\u00e1rast, \u00feakka fyrir og festi \u00e1 mig meni\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00de\u00fa dansar um eldh\u00fasi\u00f0, gefur \u00fev\u00ed l\u00edtinn gaum hva\u00f0 \u00e9g er meyr. \u00de\u00fa opnar gosi\u00f0 og hellir \u00ed glasi\u00f0 mitt. \u00c9g \u00feamba helminginn \u00ed einum rykk, ekki b\u00fain a\u00f0 \u00e1tta mig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hva\u00f0 \u00e9g var or\u00f0in \u00feyrst eftir nuddi\u00f0 og heita pottinn. \u00c9g hugsa um sykur og candidasveppi \u00ed \u00f6rlitla stund en \u00fe\u00fa ert svo l\u00edfleg og hress a\u00f0 \u00e9g smitast af gle\u00f0inni. \u201eHva\u00f0 ertu a\u00f0 elda?\u201c spyr \u00e9g hl\u00e6jandi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g er n\u00fa bara a\u00f0 hita nagga \u00ed ofninum, svo sau\u00f0 \u00e9g einhverjar gamlar kart\u00f6flur sem \u00e9g fann ofan \u00ed sk\u00faffu og er n\u00fana a\u00f0 steikja \u00fe\u00e6r svo \u00fe\u00e6r ver\u00f0i krisp\u00ed og kr\u00f6ns\u00ed me\u00f0 n\u00f6ggunum.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHlj\u00f3mar vel,\u201c segi \u00e9g og kem sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r \u00e1 \u00f3vart \u00fev\u00ed m\u00e9r finnst \u00e9g virkilega meina \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g bor\u00f0a aldrei nagga, hver \u00ed \u00f3sk\u00f6punum bor\u00f0ar nagga eftir 12 \u00e1ra aldur? Mig langar samt \u00ed \u00fe\u00e1. \u00der\u00e1i a\u00f0 finna braki\u00f0 \u00ed \u00feeim \u00feegar \u00e9g krem \u00fe\u00e1 saman me\u00f0 t\u00f6nnunum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eJ\u00e1, mig langa\u00f0i bara a\u00f0 gera eitthva\u00f0 einfalt svo vi\u00f0 getum \u00e1tt langt og gott kv\u00f6ld saman. \u00c1ttu ekkert m\u00e6j\u00f3?\u201c spyr\u00f0u \u00f6rl\u00edti\u00f0 hissa og d\u00e6mandi \u00ed r\u00f6ddinni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNei,\u201c svara \u00e9g dauflega. \u201eEn \u00e9g skal hlaupa \u00fat \u00ed b\u00fa\u00f0 og kaupa.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00de\u00fa m\u00e1tt \u00fe\u00e1 l\u00edka kaupa t\u00f3mats\u00f3su og eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed eftirr\u00e9tt. Royal b\u00fa\u00f0ing?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eJ\u00e1,\u201c segi \u00e9g og brosi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eOg rj\u00f3ma, ekki gleyma honum,\u201c segir \u00fe\u00fa me\u00f0 baki\u00f0 \u00ed mig, stumrandi yfir fituklepru\u00f0um kart\u00f6flunum sem \u00e9g hlakka til a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00deegar \u00e9g kem tilbaka ertu b\u00fain a\u00f0 kveikja \u00e1 kertum. \u00de\u00fa ert b\u00fain a\u00f0 ra\u00f0a n\u00f6ggum og kart\u00f6flum \u00ed gulbr\u00fant hjarta \u00e1 diskinn minn. Courtney Love er enn a\u00f0 \u00f6skra, n\u00fana er \u00fea\u00f0 Gutless. \u00de\u00fa kemur auga \u00e1 mig og gr\u00edpur steikarspa\u00f0ann og byrjar a\u00f0 syngja \u00ed hann eins og \u00ed m\u00edkraf\u00f3n og beinir or\u00f0unum a\u00f0 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g hl\u00e6. \u00de\u00fa varst alltaf svo mikill rokkari. \u00de\u00fa tekur pokann \u00far h\u00f6ndunum \u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g undrast hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa ert fumlaus og lipur. \u00c9g hef ekki minnst \u00fe\u00edn \u00e1 \u00feann h\u00e1tt. \u00de\u00fa veist l\u00edka hvar allt er a\u00f0 finna \u00ed eldh\u00fasinu. M\u00e9r hl\u00fdnar allri a\u00f0 innan. \u00de\u00fa ert n\u00fa \u00feegar byrju\u00f0 a\u00f0 hr\u00e6ra saman maj\u00f3nesi, sinnepi og t\u00f3mats\u00f3su \u00ed mun st\u00e6rri sk\u00e1l en \u00e9g hef\u00f0i sj\u00e1lf vali\u00f0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eBon app\u00e9tit,\u201c segir \u00fe\u00fa og sest ni\u00f0ur. \u00c9g fylgi. \u00de\u00fa sk\u00f3flar s\u00f3sunni \u00e1 mi\u00f0jan diskinn. \u00c9g vir\u00f0i \u00feig fyrir m\u00e9r. \u00de\u00fa ert bara svol\u00edti\u00f0 falleg. Svipu\u00f0 m\u00e9r, nema grennri, \u00fatiteknari, unglegri og hressari. \u00de\u00fa ert \u00ed Hole bolnum m\u00ednum, \u00feessum me\u00f0 Live Through This coverinu og g\u00f6mlum stuttbuxum. \u00de\u00fa \u00fearft ekkert a\u00f0 leggja \u00e1 \u00feig e\u00f0a hafa fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vera sex\u00fd. \u00de\u00fa bara ert \u00fea\u00f0. Me\u00f0 fj\u00f6gurra daga h\u00e1rv\u00f6xt \u00e1 leggjunum, \u00f6rl\u00edti\u00f0 sk\u00edtugt h\u00e1r \u00ed \u00f3fullkomnu tagli og algj\u00f6rlega \u00f3m\u00e1lu\u00f0. \u00cd besta falli me\u00f0 varasalva. A\u00f0 hugsa s\u00e9r a\u00f0 m\u00e9r hafi einu sinni fundist \u00fe\u00fa vera feit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c6tlar\u00f0u ekki a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a neitt?\u201c spyr\u00f0u me\u00f0 \u00e1hyggjusvip \u00e1 andlitinu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eGu\u00f0, j\u00fa, fyrirgef\u00f0u,\u201c segi \u00e9g og tek til matar m\u00edns. \u00c9g sker rasplag utan af einum nagganum og sting einhverjum v\u00edsi a\u00f0 f\u00f6lleitum kj\u00faklingi upp \u00ed munninn \u00e1 m\u00e9r. Hann er brag\u00f0laus og \u00f3spennandi. \u00c9g hefst handa vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 gera \u00fea\u00f0 sama vi\u00f0 a\u00f0ra bita.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eBor\u00f0aru ekki naggabuxur?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g l\u00edt \u00e1 \u00feig, \u00fe\u00fa ert forvi\u00f0a \u00e1 svipinn. \u201eHaha, j\u00fa j\u00fa, \u00e9g er a\u00f0eins a\u00f0 passa hitaeiningar dagsins,\u201c segi \u00e9g vandr\u00e6\u00f0alega og finn a\u00f0 \u00e9g ro\u00f0na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eH\u00e6ttu n\u00fa alveg, a\u00f0eins a\u00f0 passa hitaeiningar dagsins,\u201c segir \u00fe\u00fa eins og til a\u00f0 herma eftir raddbl\u00e6num, \u00fe\u00fa ert l\u00edka me\u00f0 forhertan svip \u00e1 andlitinu. Er \u00e9g svona \u00f3fr\u00fdnileg og lei\u00f0inleg?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c6i fokk it,\u201c segi \u00e9g, \u00feekkjandi \u00feig. Nenni ekki a\u00f0 d\u00edla vi\u00f0 \u00feig \u00ed \u00feessum ham. \u00c9g sting einum fullkl\u00e6ddum nagga ofan \u00ed s\u00f3suna og upp \u00ed mig. Hann brag\u00f0ast svo vel, \u00e9g s\u00e9 d\u00f3pam\u00edni\u00f0 fyrir m\u00e9r streyma um l\u00edkamann og \u00e6pa \u00e1 meiri fitu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00d3kei gott, \u00e6tla\u00f0i a\u00f0 segja a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa v\u00e6rir ein af \u00feessum mi\u00f0aldra konum sem f\u00e6r \u00e1tr\u00f6skun e\u00f0a eitthva\u00f0.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g brosi vandr\u00e6\u00f0alega. \u00de\u00fa ert n\u00fa \u00feegar b\u00fain me\u00f0 mun meira af disknum en \u00e9g enda ertu ekkert a\u00f0 stressa \u00feig miki\u00f0 \u00e1 bor\u00f0si\u00f0um og hn\u00edfap\u00f6rum. \u00de\u00fa notar gu\u00f0sgafflana og \u00fea\u00f0 er kokteils\u00f3sa \u00ed munnvikunum \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r. \u00c9g finn hva\u00f0 \u00e9g er or\u00f0in sv\u00f6ng enda ekkert bor\u00f0a\u00f0 s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00e9g bor\u00f0a\u00f0i kj\u00faklingasalat \u00ed h\u00e1deginu. \u00c9g legg fr\u00e1 m\u00e9r gaffalinn og fer a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00ednu ford\u00e6mi. Sting hverjum bitanum \u00e1 eftir \u00f6\u00f0rum upp \u00ed mig og finn st\u00f6kka h\u00fa\u00f0 nagganna brotna undan t\u00f6nnunum og fituna \u00far kr\u00f6ns\u00ed kart\u00f6flunum fl\u00e6\u00f0a um munninn. \u00de\u00fa ert b\u00fain og heldur utan um magann \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r, utan um andliti\u00f0 \u00e1 fegur\u00f0ardrottningunni me\u00f0 maskaraklessurnar. \u201e\u00c9g er svo s\u00f6dd n\u00fana a\u00f0 \u00e9g er a\u00f0 deyja, \u00e9g bor\u00f0a\u00f0i alltof hratt.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eSumt breytist ekki,\u201c segi \u00e9g k\u00edmin. \u00de\u00fa flissar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHvernig var dagurinn \u00feinn?\u201c spyr\u00f0u a\u00f0eins alvarlegri \u00e1 svip.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c6, bara f\u00ednn. Vinna og svo f\u00f3r \u00e9g \u00ed nudd \u00e1 h\u00f3teli ni\u00f0ri \u00ed b\u00e6 og \u00ed heilsulindina \u00fear.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eJ\u00e1, j\u00e1, m\u00edn bara a\u00f0 nj\u00f3ta, var eitthva\u00f0 tilefni?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g geri \u00feetta bara til a\u00f0 halda s\u00f6nsum.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g veit,\u201c segir \u00fe\u00fa d\u00f6pur og tekur um h\u00f6nd m\u00edna. \u00c9g kippist til undan snertingunni og er \u00f6rl\u00edti\u00f0 m\u00f3\u00f0gu\u00f0 yfir d\u00f6prum augum \u00fe\u00ednum, eins og \u00e9g s\u00e9 eitthva\u00f0 grey. \u00de\u00fa fer\u00f0 ekki undan \u00ed fl\u00e6mingi vi\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 og segir bara \u201esvona, svona\u201c bl\u00ed\u00f0ri r\u00f6ddu og tekur aftur utan um h\u00f6ndina og str\u00fdkur henni. \u00c9g slaka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHva\u00f0 ger\u00f0ir \u00fe\u00fa?\u201c spyr \u00e9g. For\u00f0ast a\u00f0 spyrja a\u00f0 hinu auglj\u00f3sa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g? \u00c9g var bara h\u00e9r eins og \u00fe\u00fa veist, a\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a eftir \u00fe\u00e9r.\u201c \u00de\u00fa brosir, tennurnar eru skjannahv\u00edtar en \u00fea\u00f0 eru leifar af raspi \u00e1 milli framtannanna. \u201eRosalegar b\u00e6kurnar sem \u00fe\u00fa ert a\u00f0 lesa, \u00e9g h\u00e9lt a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa veldir eitthva\u00f0 a\u00f0eins d\u00fdpra en \u00feetta,\u201c segir\u00f0u glottandi en \u00e9g heyri h\u00e6\u00f0nina \u00ed r\u00f6ddinni, \u00e9g veld \u00fe\u00e9r vonbrig\u00f0um. \u00c9g ro\u00f0na, segi ekkert. M\u00e9r l\u00ed\u00f0ur illa eftir matinn, r\u00e6kilega minnt \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0 hvers vegna \u00e9g bor\u00f0a ekki svona mat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi\u00f0 t\u00ednum saman af bor\u00f0inu \u00ed \u00fe\u00f6gn. \u00dea\u00f0 gengur hratt fyrir sig, vi\u00f0 erum eins og smur\u00f0 v\u00e9l, vi\u00f0 vitum b\u00e1\u00f0ar hva\u00f0 \u00fearf a\u00f0 gera og skipuleggjum okkur \u00e1 svipa\u00f0an h\u00e1tt \u00ed fr\u00e1ganginum. \u00deegar \u00e9g ra\u00f0a s\u00ed\u00f0ustu hlutunum \u00ed upp\u00fevottav\u00e9lina tekur \u00fe\u00fa fram st\u00f3ra plastsk\u00e1l og byrjar a\u00f0 hr\u00e6ra b\u00fa\u00f0ingsdufti saman vi\u00f0 mj\u00f3lk. Karamellulyktin minnir mig \u00e1 eldh\u00fas \u00e6sku minnar og mig a\u00f0 tro\u00f0a st\u00f3rri sk\u00e1l inn \u00e1 milli sultukrukkna og s\u00farra g\u00farkna, vi\u00f0 Alma systir a\u00f0 g\u00faffa \u00feessu \u00ed okkur. \u00c9g finn velgjuna \u00e1gerast innra me\u00f0 m\u00e9r. \u201e\u00daff, \u00e9g held a\u00f0 \u00e9g geti n\u00fa ekki bor\u00f0a\u00f0 eftirr\u00e9tt alveg strax,\u201c segi \u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eVi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum n\u00e6gan t\u00edma,\u201c segir \u00fe\u00fa brosandi og hendir sk\u00e1linni inn \u00ed t\u00f3mlegan \u00edssk\u00e1pinn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g l\u00edt \u00e1 klukkuna, h\u00fan er bara h\u00e1lf \u00e1tta en \u00e9g er \u00fereytt. M\u00ednir morgnar hefjast snemma. \u00c9g fer \u00fat a\u00f0 skokka, fer \u00ed sturtu og f\u00e6 m\u00e9r hollan morgunver\u00f0, acai sk\u00e1l og t\u00farmerik latt\u00e9. \u00deegar \u00e9g m\u00e6ti \u00ed vinnu er hugsunin sk\u00fdr og \u00e9g tilb\u00fain \u00ed \u00feau verkefni sem m\u00e9r eru \u00e6tlu\u00f0, \u00feannig hef \u00e9g auki\u00f0 afk\u00f6st m\u00edn verulega. \u00deannig hef \u00e9g n\u00e1\u00f0 m\u00f6rgum markmi\u00f0um m\u00ednum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g velti \u00fev\u00ed fyrir m\u00e9r hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hafir \u00ed hyggju me\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00ed kv\u00f6ld. \u00der\u00e1tt fyrir alla sj\u00e1lfsvinnuna s\u00ed\u00f0ustu \u00e1rin vil \u00e9g ekki m\u00f3\u00f0ga \u00feig e\u00f0a hrekja \u00feig \u00ed burtu me\u00f0 r\u00f6fli um prakt\u00edsk m\u00e1lefni eins og n\u00e6tursvefn og vekjaraklukkur sem hringja snemma. \u00c9g haf\u00f0i hreinlega ekki \u00e1tta\u00f0 mig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hva\u00f0 \u00e9g sakna\u00f0i \u00fe\u00edn miki\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 er eins og \u00fe\u00fa lesir hugsanir m\u00ednar \u00fev\u00ed um lei\u00f0 og \u00e9g hef sleppt hugsuninni segir \u00fe\u00fa: \u201e\u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 velja tv\u00e6r myndir til a\u00f0 horfa \u00e1, \u00fe\u00fa m\u00e1tt velja hvora vi\u00f0 byrjum \u00e1. Annars vegar er \u00fea\u00f0 heimildarmynd um hvernig \u00fe\u00fdsk n\u00fdlenduhyggja og demantagr\u00e6\u00f0gi stu\u00f0la\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00fej\u00f3\u00f0armor\u00f0i Nama og Herero f\u00f3lksins \u00ed Namib\u00edu. Hin myndin er g\u00f6mul hryllingsmynd um hvernig kap\u00edtal\u00edsk \u00f6fl stj\u00f3rna \u00e1kv\u00f6r\u00f0unum okkar og l\u00edfi og \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 \u00e1ttum okkur \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed erum vi\u00f0 or\u00f0in leiksoppar fyrir r\u00edkid\u00e6mi \u00feeirra.\u201c \u00de\u00fa horfir st\u00edft \u00ed augun \u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g finn a\u00f0 \u00e9g svitna. Mig langar ekki a\u00f0 horfa \u00e1 \u00feessar myndir og \u00fe\u00fa veist \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g vil ekki segja \u00fea\u00f0 upph\u00e1tt og \u00fe\u00fa veist \u00fea\u00f0 l\u00edka. \u00dea\u00f0 sem mig langar \u00fe\u00f3 a\u00f0 gera er a\u00f0 sitja \u00fe\u00e9tt upp vi\u00f0 \u00feig \u00ed s\u00f3fanum og finna fyrir \u00fe\u00e9r og snertingu \u00feinni. Mig langar til a\u00f0 snerta \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r l\u00e6rin og finna af \u00fe\u00e9r lyktina. \u00de\u00fa hnykkir h\u00f6f\u00f0inu \u00f6rl\u00edti\u00f0 til eins og til a\u00f0 leggja \u00e1herslu \u00e1 hversu langan t\u00edma \u00fea\u00f0 taki a\u00f0 \u00e1kve\u00f0a mig. \u201eUu\u2026byrjum bara \u00e1 hryllingsmyndinni,\u201c segi \u00e9g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eFr\u00e1b\u00e6rt val.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00c9g \u00e6tla \u00ed n\u00e1ttf\u00f6t fyrst.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201e\u00d3kei.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Inni \u00ed svefnherbergi er ekkert r\u00famteppi \u00e1 r\u00faminu. \u00de\u00fa hefur legi\u00f0 \u00ed r\u00faminu m\u00ednu, \u00fe\u00fa hefur l\u00edka rugla\u00f0 b\u00f3kastaflanum \u00e1 n\u00e1ttbor\u00f0inu og \u00f6rugglega fari\u00f0 \u00ed gegnum allt \u00ed sk\u00faffum n\u00e1ttbor\u00f0anna, \u00feakkl\u00e6tisdagb\u00f3kina, kynl\u00edfst\u00e6kin, allt. \u00c9g reyni a\u00f0 lei\u00f0a hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r \u00f3\u00fe\u00e6gindin sem \u00fea\u00f0 vekur hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g vel nokku\u00f0 l\u00e1tlausan en flegin n\u00e1ttkj\u00f3l. L\u00edt \u00ed spegil og tek teygjuna \u00far m\u00e9r svo s\u00edtt h\u00e1ri\u00f0 fellur ni\u00f0ur yfir axlirnar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00de\u00fa ert b\u00fain a\u00f0 kveikja \u00e1 sj\u00f3nvarpinu \u00feegar \u00e9g kem aftur inn \u00ed stofu og l\u00edtur ekki einu sinni \u00e1 mig heldur starir \u00e1 skj\u00e1inn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eFj\u00f3la, hva\u00f0 \u00ed fokkanum ertu b\u00fain a\u00f0 vera a\u00f0 horfa \u00e1?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHa?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHva\u00f0 er \u00feetta allt?\u201c \u00fe\u00fa bendir \u00e1 listann af \u00fev\u00ed sem er n\u00fa \u00feegar \u00e1horfi hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eUhh, \u00fe\u00e6ttir?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eJ\u00e1, hvernig \u00fe\u00e6ttir eru \u00feetta, Fj\u00f3la?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eRaunveruleika\u00fe\u00e6ttir?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eJ\u00e1, einmitt. S\u00ed\u00f0an hven\u00e6r byrja\u00f0ir \u00fe\u00fa \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed?\u201c \u00de\u00fa horfir \u00e1 mig \u00ed einhvers konar uppn\u00e1mi. Eins og \u00fe\u00fa hafir veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 komast a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 \u00ed har\u00f0ri neyslu f\u00edkniefna. \u00de\u00fa byrjar a\u00f0 telja upp: \u201eLove and Paradise, The Wife Competition, Single and Ready, Love\u2018s Inferno, Mistress vs. Wife, Rich Wives, Rich Bitches in the Wild, Dr. Plastic, Surviving or Loving\u2026\u201c \u00de\u00fa lest \u00feetta h\u00e6gt me\u00f0 h\u00e6\u00f0ni \u00ed r\u00f6ddinni. \u00c9g segi ekkert en m\u00e9r l\u00ed\u00f0ur vi\u00f0bj\u00f3\u00f0slega.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eHver kom og stal Fj\u00f3lu? Ertu andsetin? Kom einhver dj\u00f6full og t\u00f3k s\u00e9r b\u00f3lfestu innra me\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r?\u201c \u00c9g sest ni\u00f0ur. M\u00e9r til mikillar skelfingar fer \u00e9g a\u00f0 grenja. \u00de\u00fa sest ni\u00f0ur hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00de\u00e9tt upp vi\u00f0 mig. \u00de\u00fa angar af steiktum mat en l\u00edka af g\u00f6mlu \u00f6ryggi, eplasjamp\u00f3i og teen spirit svitalyktaey\u00f0i. \u00c9g finn fyrir handlegg \u00fe\u00ednum \u00e1 bakinu \u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00de\u00fa klappar m\u00e9r og sussar. Segir ekkert \u00ed sm\u00e1 stund en leggur h\u00f6fu\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00f6xlina \u00e1 m\u00e9r og hv\u00edslar \u201evi\u00f0 getum laga\u00f0 \u00feetta\u201c og kveikir \u00e1 myndinni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g berst vi\u00f0 augnlokin \u00e1 me\u00f0an a\u00f0alpers\u00f3na myndarinnar gengur um borg me\u00f0 s\u00f3lgleraugu og s\u00e9r allt \u00ed n\u00fdju lj\u00f3si. \u00de\u00fa vekur mig me\u00f0 sk\u00e1l af b\u00fa\u00f0ingi me\u00f0 \u00feeyttum rj\u00f3ma. \u00c9g kl\u00e1ra hann \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 blikna \u00e1 me\u00f0an vi\u00f0 horfum \u00e1 kap\u00edtal\u00edskar geimverur me\u00f0 rotnandi andlit reyna taka yfir heiminn. \u00dea\u00f0 tekst sem betur fer ekki. \u00c9g fer a\u00f0 gr\u00e1ta yfir heimildarmyndinni, \u00e9g gr\u00e6t svo miki\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g finn andliti\u00f0 \u00e1 m\u00e9r b\u00f3lgna upp og \u00e9g er \u00f6rugglega lj\u00f3t. \u00dea\u00f0 er eins og \u00fe\u00fa heyrir allt sem \u00e9g hugsa. \u00de\u00fa hv\u00edslar \u00ed eyrun \u00e1 m\u00e9r: \u201e \u00de\u00fa g\u00e6tir aldrei veri\u00f0 lj\u00f3t, ef \u00e9g g\u00e6ti gert \u00feig \u00f3l\u00e9tta myndi \u00e9g gera \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g vildi a\u00f0 \u00e9g g\u00e6ti \u00fea\u00f0. Vi\u00f0 myndum eignast b\u00f6rn sem v\u00e6ru alveg eins og vi\u00f0, m\u00f6rg b\u00f6rn, heilan her.\u201c \u00de\u00fa kyssir mig \u00e1 h\u00e1lsinn og str\u00fdkur m\u00e9r allri eins og \u00e9g s\u00e9 \u00fea\u00f0 d\u00fdrm\u00e6tasta sem til er. \u00c1 \u00feann h\u00e1tt sem engin \u00f6nnur manneskja getur gert. \u00de\u00fa veist n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega hvernig. \u201e\u00de\u00fa ert n\u00f3g,\u201c hv\u00edslar\u00f0u. \u00c9g ranka vi\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00far lei\u00f0slunni sem \u00fe\u00fa hefur komi\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00ed og \u00e9g endurgeld snertinguna. Vi\u00f0 f\u00e6rum okkur upp \u00ed r\u00fam, ver\u00f0um eining \u00e1 n\u00fd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2042<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c9g rumska vi\u00f0 skerandi birtu sem fl\u00e6\u00f0ir inn \u00ed svefnherbergi\u00f0. \u00c9g loka augunum aftur, \u00edhuga a\u00f0 dvelja \u00ed myrkrinu \u00e1 bakvi\u00f0 augnlokin, \u00e1 sta\u00f0num milli svefns og v\u00f6ku. \u00c1 sta\u00f0num \u00fear sem engin klukka sl\u00e6r, \u00fear sem heimurinn afmarkast af m\u00e9r inni \u00ed m\u00e9r, af undirme\u00f0vitund, draumum og minningum. En birtan n\u00e6r a\u00f0 upplita myrkur augnlokanna appels\u00ednusvart og ney\u00f0ir mig til a\u00f0 opna anna\u00f0 auga\u00f0 til h\u00e1lfs, svo hitt. \u00c9g p\u00edri inn \u00ed birtuna. H\u00f6fu\u00f0verkur sem \u00ed svefninum var eins og l\u00e1gv\u00e6rt raul er n\u00fa \u00f6skrandi s\u00e1rsaukavein. \u00c9g sest upp, opna augun til fulls og mjaka m\u00e9r a\u00f0 br\u00edkinni. M\u00e9r er fl\u00f6kurt. M\u00e9r ver\u00f0ur liti\u00f0 \u00e1 d\u00e6ldina \u00ed koddanum \u00fear sem \u00fe\u00fa l\u00e1st og \u00fea\u00f0 r\u00f3ar mig \u00f6rl\u00edti\u00f0. Vekjaraklukkan \u00e1 n\u00e1ttbor\u00f0inu segir m\u00e9r a\u00f0 langt s\u00e9 li\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00e1 morguninn. \u00c9g l\u00e6t \u00fea\u00f0 vera a\u00f0 telja alla fundina \u00ed huganum sem \u00e9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 missa af, finnst \u00fea\u00f0 ekki skipta neinu m\u00e1li. \u00c9g dreg dj\u00fapt andann til a\u00f0 kasta ekki upp \u00e1 g\u00f3lfi\u00f0. \u00c9g kl\u00e6\u00f0i mig \u00ed Hole bolinn sem liggur \u00e1 g\u00f3lfinu \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 b\u00e6\u00f0i svitalykt og steikingarf\u00fdla af honum. Ver\u00f6ldin hringsn\u00fdst \u00ed kringum mig og \u00e9g hleyp inn \u00e1 ba\u00f0herbergi til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e6la upp \u00f6llu en get \u00fea\u00f0 ekki. Sviti sprettur fram \u00e1 enninu \u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g l\u00edt \u00ed spegil, maskarinn er k\u00e1ma\u00f0ur ni\u00f0ur \u00e1 bauga. \u00c9g \u00fev\u00e6 m\u00e9r ekki \u00ed framan, tek enga verkjat\u00f6flu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

El\u00edsabet Dr\u00f6fn Kristj\u00e1nsd\u00f3ttir Or\u00f0in \u00f3ma \u00ed h\u00f6f\u00f0inu \u00e1 m\u00e9r, \u00feau hrings\u00f3la \u00fear um og \u00e9g get ekki h\u00e6tt a\u00f0 heyra \u00feau aftur og aftur e\u00f0a sj\u00e1 \u00feau fyrir m\u00e9r eins og \u00e1 flennist\u00f3ru augl\u00fdsingaskilti \u201evi\u00f0 sj\u00e1um a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hefur lagt mikla vinnu \u00ed verki\u00f0 en h\u00f6fum komist a\u00f0 \u00feeirri ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0u a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa s\u00e9rt l\u00edklega ekki […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-826","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/826","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=826"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/826\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":855,"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/826\/revisions\/855"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stelkur.is\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=826"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}